As the 2nd day of my heartache comes to an end, I need to prepare for the pain again for the coming days. Every tweet that I read and every tumblr post that I swiped through, the heart pain becomes greater. Confusion was the main trigger in my head. I admit that Jessica is my bias but first and foremost, I'm a Sone. A Sone who will always be supportive of all 9 Angels. But what exactly is happening here? Jessica's statement is heartbreaking. I can't imagine her going through all this pain by herself. On the other hand, the other 8 members are suffering too. Remember what Sooyoung said before - If you're not SNSD, you'll never understand. The fandom is splitting. In the first place, even as a Sone, we have no right to judge or criticise them. We are not sure of the whole truth. We shouldn't start pointing fingers. I can never imagine the 8 others to turn their backs on Jessica but at the same time, I don't want to think that Jessica was lying to us. It's been hard the past 2 days. I can't even think about my fanfics at the moment. When we received news of them renewing their contracts, we were the happiest fandom on earth, relishing the idea of spending a decade with our Angels. But in a blink of an eye, everything crumbled. We need answers, not through letters or messages but through their own mouth but I guess it's not possible with SM intervention. Frankly, blaming SM is easier than taking sides. I love Jessica a lot but I love the others too. I've not been there since the beginning but I've always wanted to go to the end with them. With the OT9. I've always believed in the SoshiBond. They've been through a lot of crap together. I just hope that they can still pull this through. Somehow.