Life Altering Decisions Need to be made
Hello~
DB here. I just need to have like a lot of second opinions on something that I'm really struggling with at the moment. It's sort-of like the devil's choice scenario...or schrodinger's cat if you want to visualize something less horror-y.
So, in my current situation I have to make a decision that could either make or break the path of my life. (Sounds dramatic, I know, but also...pretty accurate(?)😅)
I recently got a new job (thank goodness, Finally! After my year long hiatus in the workforce, I need to start earning money again >.>) and the pay is a little higher than my old job and the work is very easy. I just don't know how much I would like it five years from now since it's pretty mundane than the work I'm used to and there's not a lot of action than when I used to run things my way, but hey, I'm the newbie so starting over means getting used to new things. That being said, I just got this job roughly a month ago. I'm still on my probationary period.Â
The dilemma.
I found out last week that I got accepted to this (so the internet or their website says) competitive service here in the US for AmeriCorps and I would need to relocate to NY (I live in Sunnyside California haha) This was (still is really) something I wanted to do during the pandemic to sort of give drive/direction to my life. I've always wanted to live in NY and the work I would be doing with the kids is something I find really rewarding. The problem is they only give a stipend that's 60% less than what I already make, so it's a huge cut on what I'm used to earning. Again, that's a stipend not a salary. The service is usually, according to the people in service, a 12-hr day thing which I'm no stranger to so that's not a problem for me.Â
The problem is the pros and cons are balanced for me at this point and idk what to do. Should I risk what I have now, which pretty good considering I'm still in probation and quite easy since it's all very basic admin work, to go to NY alone and do a service which I may or may not like (based on who my team leader is cause you never know). The benefits of finishing the service is really great. I get a 6k education award i could use to pay off my loans and possibly a scholarship to their partnered universities for grad school. However, that is on the condition that I finish the service. That being said, I already have a job that pays pretty good and could possibly advance in (how - I'm not really sure and I feel like it's not something I see myself doing 10 years later).
Would you risk a sure and stable life for something that might be really great but could also quite possibly be one of the worse decisions in your life that you'd regret later...play it safe or risk it all?
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