Personal feelings.. Drama of my life not involve yulsic or whatsoever but if you want to read some parts of me.. Just Scroll down.
That moment you were happy because you already finished school. You have a degree. You passed all the subjects that you cursed, you submit all the requirements that needed for your grades and you completed your OJT, Reality strucks me how life is hard when you're out of your school anymore. It's hard to earn and find I job. Honestly, I only do two job interviews but it didn't work. I feel like a failure as a person and as a daughter to my parents. I told myself that maybe it wasn't meant for me that there are many establishment that I should try, my friend tell me to cheer up and don't give up but I couldn't find myself how.
Fact about me is that, I'm the only child in my family and they expect alot from me. Last time my father pressured me in finding a job right away that leads my parents to an arguement. Mother knows how hard to find a job but my father is so you know, typical father. He didn't try to give me strength and make me feel I'm useless, he always discriminating me like I don't have a future that's why I'm not a daddy's girl and my family now is ed up. Thankfully I don't have a love life. Lol. Less headache.
I got depressed even now. Sorry I'm over reacting and being unreasonable. I want to express what I wanted to say that I couldn't let it out because I can't find myself to open up this in my family even my friends and don't tell me to try open up to them cause I don't wanna. I'm stubborn. I prefer to keep it from the people I know. That's why I made this blog in Aff because I'm unknown into this world, No one knows whom I am.. I can't post it in my fb account because I have relatives and friends who knows me personally and also I don't want a fuss, It will only reached to my fam and added only stress to me. In my twitter, I post some of my feels to release some of it but not fully my friends is still there.
I want to stay unknown.. So I could freely say What I want. Sigghh. Life is so hard. Really. I want to earn now, I'm bored in my house no money and inorder to entertain me was to write a story that think my friends that I'm a lesbian and I like girls because I write gxg ugh plus my boyish appearance added to their suspicious for godsake I'm tired of explaining that so I let them be. we don't even have an internet I only depend on mobile data that usually neede to buy load. So yeah. I'm trying to be strong.
So guys if you are still in school. I just want you to know that do your best because life was really far in what you expected. Haha
I thought I'm already to face the real world but I guess the real world wasn't ready for me. Anyway, if you read this so far thankyou for reading my drama hahaha.
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And oh~ Son Yejin and Kwon Yuri was in the same place in france. I smell something fishy~~~ XD
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