Family
I am tired. I do not have a place to tell. I want to burst everything. I am afraid that soon I am going into depression .
This is about my family and me.
They say I am lucky to be born with a great family .Perfect . No. They are not perfect. They are public figures whom everyone respect. They are kind and gentle. But , everything is a facade.
I have a little brother with terminal illness. My mother always blame me. She never look at me .Not even for my success . I have been chasing for her love. But never once she look at me.
I have been abandoned by family since I was 6 years old. I have been adopted until I was 16 years old. Then , I have been living with my real family for 2 years. I continue my study somewhere far .
I am tired of wearing a facade. People know that I am their daughter but they do not know my story .People say I am fortunate. Am I fortunate? I love my family but not as strong as my Foster family. Is that wrong for not loving my real family?
I am still remember that I was hit by my mom when I was 5 years old because I skipped Mandarin, Arabic and piano classes . I know the classes are good but I hate it . I dropped out of the classes because my mom said I was useless after all.
I am tired. They are public figure but yet, why they cannot act like that to me ?
I am sad because not even once my parents went to my school for my report cards .I was the best student in my state but it was not enough for them .
What should I do?
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