It's Not Easy (Ranting)
I don't really know how should I start this. I think I should start by introducing myself first cause most of you don't know who i really am. I know I am just a nobody but yeah. Just gonna introduce myself and ranting bout my life a little bit.
My name is Adam. Yup. I'm a guy. I don't think I ever encounter any male profile in AFF. So, what does this mean? I'm also not very sure bout what does this mean. I'm from Malaysia. 24th years old. Yeah. Kinda old compare to most of you guys here. I'm mixed of chinese, japanese and malay. 180cm and 65kg. Kinda skinny.
And my BIGGEST SECRET is I AM GAY. I'm the bottom gay if that matters. But not the feminine kind of bottom. I do play sports (people like to stereotype the bottom gay as the feminine guy who doesn't play sports).
Coming from a religious family and non-tolerable gay country and religion are really hard for someone like me.
My parents doesn't know bout my orientation. But I did came out towards a few of my closest friends. Few of them are also gay and few of them are straight and they can accept me.
I was thinking bout to come out towards my parents but my friends told me I shouldn't tell them. My religion taught me that parents are your everything in this world. You should/must make them happy and respect them. I know by coming out and tell them that I'm gay will upset them so much. But, the burden of being different from majority is really starting to takes toll on me. I love my parents so much especially my mother. And I don't really want to disappoint them but the thing is my dad already been asking me quite a few times when will I get marry and why I never brings a girl home. And it really pains me to lied to him every single time he asked me.
Strangely, my mother never once asked me bout my love life whether I had girlfriend or not. I'm not sure whether she knows or not but I am really grateful that I don't have to lied to her because I love her so much.
That's all for tonight ranting.
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