"I should've never ignored him. Those heartbeats that I always hear everytime I'm hugging him.. I'll never hear a single of them. Those adorable eyes.. those sweet lips that makes me fall for him more than ever. I'll never see those again.. and it's all my fault. I never wanted him to die.. I just wanted him to move on especially when I know that I coulf disappear anytime. I'm so sorry... Don't worry. We'll see each other soon... Ne,Ricky?" 

"I love you Ricky but I can't love you.. it's too forbidden and I now that your brother had a grudge on me. I'm so sorry.. it's all my fault. If I could change my life, I wished that I could be on a family that wasn't like mine. I wished that I could make you mine.. but I can't. I'll always be just a 'brother' for you. Please forgive me. I don't want him. I only wanted you.. you and you alone. I wanted you for me but unluckily 'cause of my hellish life, I can't have you even though I could reach you easily. I miss you Ricky.. I wanted to be with you. Please take me with you. I can't bear being here.. without you. Sorry Changhyun-ah, saranghae."