The Name I Loved
Description
손이 시려와, 사랑의 기억이 차갑게 다가와. 아려온다 이제는 더 이상 너를 부정하고 싶지 않은, 나를 알고 있지만. 가까이 있는 널 사랑할 수 없는걸 알고 있기에. 날 바라볼 수 없는. 널 기다림이 너무 힘들어. 이젠 견딜 수 없어, 이뤄질 수 없기에 내가 사랑했던 그 이름. 불러보려 나갈수록 너무 멀어졌던. 그 이름 이젠 적어놓고 나 울먹여. 내 안에 숨고 싶어져 널 사랑할 수밖에 없었던. 그 나를 이젠 알아줘요. 이룰 수 없는 사랑도 사랑이니까. 혼자 할 수 없는 사랑이란 느낌은 내게 다가와 시작할 수도 없는 그리움들은 커져만 가고 시린 가슴 한 켠엔 너의 향기만 남아 내가 사랑했던 그 이름 불러보려 나갈수록 너무 멀어졌던 그 이름 이젠 적어놓고 나 울먹여 내 안에 숨고 싶어져 널 사랑할 수밖에 없었던 그 나를 이젠 알아줘요 이룰 수 없는 사랑도 사랑이니까 수천 번을 돌이켜 처음의 나로 간 순간에 가슴 한 구석을 다 앗아갈 네 모습인걸 내가 사랑했던 그 이름 불러보려 나갈수록 너무 멀어졌던 그 이름 이젠 적어놓고 나 울먹여 내 안에 숨고 싶어져 널 사랑할 수밖에 없었던 그 나를 이젠 알아줘요 이룰 수 없는 사랑도 사랑이니까.
I can't handle the love memories and feelings alone. I can't start this, I can only miss you secretly in my heart.
My heart only left your body fragrance that I missed and always loved.
The name I loved once in this life, has becoming further and further away from me.
I'm writing your name on a paper and forever kept it in my heart, from that day I only realized that I will only loved you forever.
Foreword
When I saw first saw her at the streets of Seoul, time stopped. I could have sworn everyone else around me were in a blur. It was only she and I, as I look at her talk with her friend. She had this different glow in her. She was the one. Kwon Yoo Jin.
That day, I finally got to know her.
She was a dancer, a performer, an artiste, a singer, a writer, a fan, a lover, a friend, a daughter, a fiancee. At such young age.
That day, I finally got to be her friend.
Turned out, behind that beautiful smile, she hid thousands of pain. She was depressed, she had cuts. She cries almost every night.
That day, I finally got to be her lover.
She is the love of my life. I cherished all my love to her, every single day.
That day, I found out she was ill.
She hugged me when she found out that she had cancer and is suffering from aneroxia.
That day, I stole her first kiss.
I received the most painful slap from her, but I smiled.
That day, I knew she cheated.
She had four other boyfriends. Instead of being angry, I loved her even more.
That day, I chose to stay with her.
She was fighting cancer, and she did it.
That night, she lost her memories of me.
And couldn't remember who I was anymore.
Based on a true story; I experienced it myself.
I'm Jay[Not a real name], and my girlfriend had came out of a coma a few days ago. Unfortunately, she did not remember me or our memories. It was heartbreaking. But I chose to stay strong and keep loving her until the day I will have to let her go. I don't expect her to remember me, though it truly hurts to see the one you love treating you like a stranger. I kept a journal of the day I was allowed to love her and until now, I am still writing on that daily journal. I do not expect more from her, I love her too much.
This story has no similarities to Anterograde Tomorrow, none whatsoever. I've never read that story.
She is also a writer in this website.
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