I got back to my room after the call ended, can't stay in balcony anymore since it's too cold. I lay down on my bed and just look over at my phone that I place on my nightstand. 

I close my eyes and run my hand through my hair. It's so frustrating waiting her reply and call. I think, I will tried to let her go this time. I guess we won't get back together ever again. 

It's hard for me but I also love myself and want myself to be happy, to be treated well. I don't want to cry till I fall asleep every single night. I don't want to cry on my way to work or after work every single day.

I reach my phone and delete everything about mina, I block and unblock her social media accounts, I delete her number, I delete our text, I delete her photo too. 

"this time, I will tried my best to love myself even more, no more crying. I'm fine. I can go through this break up. I will be fine, I will be okay", I talk to myself like that almost every night but it's still hard sometimes. 

My world it's not end yet just because we break up.