Okay, well, y'all probably know I have an ex-boyfriend. I know, I am too young blah blah blah. I'm stupid and I was like "Okay."

Well, on October I had told my brother that I broke up with him and I was talking to my guy friend. And he starts telling me that if he ever hurts me he's going to him up and make him regret hurting me because he loves me and I start crying. He's buzzed and my dad comes over as well and I pleaded with my eyes that he wouldn't tell my dad so he didn't, but he said,"You would let me mess her boyfriend up if he ever hurt her right?" And my dad said.

"Oh, yeah. You're my little princess and no one is going to hurt you." And I was crying even harder because it was actually the first time in four years that I'd felt comfortable around my dad. 

And my brother has just gotten his apendix removed, no one knew this happened, it was just so sudden. So, right now he's in pain and he came downstairs and was serving himself some juice and tells me.

"What's your boyfriend's name? Israeli? I know it has an I, and you won't belive who told me." I was like okay, whatever it's just his meds but he kept on going so I went into the kitchen and told him.

"How many times have I told you that he and I are completely done? He and I aren't together anymore." My eyes started to tear and I couldn't even look him in the eyes because I knew he was dissapointed. 

He kept on blabbering about me being too young and him not caring if he sounded like my dad. I just really couldn't even belive the fact that I missed him. I miss my ex and I don't want to. These past couples of weeks I've been with Robert and hanging out and talking and I actually felt good and happy but whenever I hear his name my heart just goes into it's own world and it feels like someone is putting all their weight and pressure on it. 

I didn't even know I still felt this way. I just want to get over him already!! I thought I was but just... ugh. I feel like crying but I can't because my mother and step-father are here. Just... ugh...