WITH ME, YOU FALL IN LOVE AGAIN

            I was timidly looking at the damp wet floor while my heart somewhat thumping like a bullet train which had lost its screw. That is standing looking at me with her scary eyes. As she approached me step by step, I tend to move backward. She was the school . She is a girl who skipping schools, bullying juniors and always causing trouble. I wonder how many times she was suspended, but I was really scared of her. That’s why I was standing like a fool statue here. It’s all started because of her calling me to the rooftop. “Yahh, er! Follow me!” cried her in the class just a moment ago.

            “Pochi-ahh,” uttered her and hand me a letter. This is the first time she talked to me, I mean two of us, talking and yet she already dropped the honorifics. Well, we might be in the same year, but still. I hope she understands. “I-I’m not Pochi, I-I’m Kai,” said me while avoiding looking at her eyes. “Read,” asked her. “Yes!!” replied me. Have you ever wonder how scare I was that time. I adjusted my spectacles and opened the letter. The pink letter has a heart shape. This , perhaps she wanted to crush me to the bits?! I hate to think about it, but I was very scared to the moment I was feeling nausea. Slowly, I opened the letter; she was standing there smiling like hell looking at me while blinking her eyes.

Will you be my boyfriend?

            “What the hell?” asked me while gulping a large amount of saliva? Her eyes suddenly became bigger. “What the hell did you just say?” asked her. “You like me too right? I am right?” asked her. Well, it does look more or less like an assault. Tomorrow newspaper headlines will be a high school went crazy assaulting a high school nerdy dork.  I backed off a few steps while her face is just a centimetre from my chest. “O-O-of c-c-course..I-I—eh, y-y-you is my g-g-girlfriend!” uttered my lips without letting my mind to think. I covered half of my face with the love letter. For a dork like me, it was the first time I received a letter from a girl. Not necessary a girl, but more like a . “Starting from today, you is my boyfriend, do you understand Pochi-ahh,” said her and patted my head while smiling like crap. Soon, the whole school know about it. She always is hanging around me during recess and class. Those guys who had been bullying me keep their distance from me. Sehun, a junior friend of mine always teased me disregarding my taste. That , is far from my taste. I like a woman with elegance, nice figure and smile like a goddess. However, that , she’s not only stupid scored last in exams, a punk, fighter, always creates trouble and hit people.

            .It has been a month of Hell. My life had turn into hell. Why do I accept her creepy arghh! That boyfriend. I am not interested when she fell for me! I rather look forward for our break up. I was walking back home when someone come and hit my head hard. “Pochi-ahh!!” cried the thunder storm voice. “Y-y-yes,” replied me and glanced at her. She is my freaking girlfriend. “Pochi-ahh, since the exams are coming and I don’t want to it up, you need to teach me! That’s what a boyfriend for,” declare her. She followed me home. “Y-y-your mom, won’t she be worried?” asked me timidly while sneaking a glance at that punk. “Mom ? I don’t have one. I think she had died,” said her. I nodded, not wanting to ask her more. Then, we reached my house. She looked astonished and flabbergasted. “Are you a chaebol son?” asked her. I keep silent and called the maid to open the door. “My boyfriend is a chaebol,” said her. “M-m-my dad owns a company!” said me and her jaws dropped. “You are a lottery Pochi-ah! Although you are having short tongue,” said her. Then, my dad was standing in front of us.

            “Annyeonghasaeyo Father-in-law, I’m Yoon YooJung, Kai-sshi girlfriend,” said her. I gulped down looking at her boldness. My dad laughed and called my mother. “Mother-in-law, have you been well?” asked her. My mom laughed and answered her. “Kai, will help me study these week, it’s that okay mother-in-law, father-in-law?” asked her. My mom nodded and asked the maid to take her to my room. “Kai-ahh, it’s fun to see you have a friend at school,” said dad. My mom grabbed my father arm. “We thought you being bullied by those guys. It’s nice to see you have a girlfriend,” said mom.

“Mom ! Actually that is the bullies leader in our school,” how nice if I can told her that. I entered my room and look that is looking up and down. “As expected, your room smelled like a man, stinks!” she said. This , did she think I would have a pink decorations of room with flowery and Hello Kitty teddies? What did she think am I? “Get lost you punk!” I was saying this in my head. Then, she sat on my bed bunk. “Didn’t you say you wanted to study? L-Let’s d-d-do our Math homework,” I said half-heartedly while looking for my homework jotter. As I looked upon her, she already fell asleep like a crap on my bed. Does she think that bed hers? I approached her and look at her face. Her face is somewhat innocent and annoyed me. I felt irritated and I want to punch her face and ate up her eyes. “Pochi-ahh,” uttered her in her deep sleep. “I let you sleep a little bit, I hate you!” said me and pouts.

            It’s been 2 months since Yoojung is lingering around me. Sometimes I can’t even had a goodnight sleep because afraid of her. She even appered in my sweetest dream and hacked my dream. She loves spiteful words and called me Pochi as if I was a little puppy that was lost and hit by an ambulance. She said, if she had a dog, she’ll named is Monggu. Well, it’s better if she does not have one. The dog will be crippled in his deep heart. Like me. But, the thing is! I am not a dog! As I was grumbling at Sehun whom is laughing his off, I knocked a person. “Sorry, I don’t intend,” said me and help to collect her books. Then, the girl smiled at me. A GODDESS IS SMILING AT ME. Have you ever thought that it was you first love? I was nervous, but my heart thumping more crazy when I was next to that . “Jimin-sshi, are you all right?” asked Sehun. Jimin and I locked our eyes together. Her hair smells nice and melts my heart. Then, she excused her. “Look that, she all head over you Kai-ah!” exclaimed Sehun while showing me a victory pose. “Aigoo, that goddess is too perfect for me,” replied me shy. If that goddess becomes a half of my life, I ensure you; I’ll be on the top of the world with maximum happiness. From apart, I can hear clearly, a voice yelled Pochi-ah. “Hear that! My nightmares in the day and night!” said me. “One day, you’ll be missing all of these, be patience a little bit Pochi-hyungnim,” said Sehun and patted my back. “Yes!! Noona!! Pochi-hyung is here!” cried him.

            After going through high school hardships with that , I finally can breathe. Today is our graduation day. I managed to go through this hell. Sehun congratulates me. Then, I was breathing before Jimin approached me. “I’ve liked you from the start Kai-sshi,” told that goddess. Is this a heaven? “I like you too,” said me while smiling. Only God know how my heartbeat runs like a mad dog!  I was too immersed with her elegance and beauty. She is not only a nice person, she have a nice figures and sparkling like a diamond showered with glitter. Compared to that certain person, it just likes to differentiate between heaven and hell. Jimin smiled at me. I just know that she is very shy. My hands immediately try to reach her hand. Her hand is different than mine, they are small and cold.

“Pochi-yah!! C-c-can we talk a bit?” asked a very scary familiar spooky voice. Her eyes were fixed at mine which holding Jimin hand tightly. Jimin glanced at me. “Be brave, you liked me didn’t you?” asked Jimin. I nodded. Yeah! It is our showdown. It will be a must see showdown between me and that . Today, I must end these nightmare creepy dreams. I am going to free myself from this person. I walked two metres behind her while thinking a way to give myself a freedom that I have been dreaming for a while. Then, she suddenly stopped in front of me. “ Face me retard!” said her and I immediately looked into her eyes. “Let’s break up!” said me and gulped. God, give me a little bit strength.

“I-i-if you dislike me, why did you date me from the start?” asked her timidly. This was the first time; she became so small n front of me. God, I need a confidence. I need to face this . I took a very deep breathe. “That because you are very scary! I was scared of you! After this, I hope I won’t see you anymore. I beg you not to see me anymore, go away from my life!” cried me filled with confidence. Finally, my tongue said like that. My heart feels somehow happy and sometimes hurt. But, I’ll be okay. I have Jimin who is waiting for me. “Ah…I see,” said her while looking at her shoelace. She bowed her head down. Wow, that was unusual for her. “Tell me your hope, I-I-I’ll make them came true Pochi-ahh,” said her. I backed off. “Don’t call me Pochi anymore and not to see me anymore,” said me and tried to cross the road without looking at the car skidding by. I can hear, someone called my name and see the car light penetrating my eyes before lose my consciousness.

The moment I opened my eyes, I can see Jimin is looking at me. The smell medication told me ahh…I was in the hospital. What happened that night? I doubt I want to learn about it? “You’re awake now Kai-sshi!” exclaimed her joyous. My mother and father were standing next to her. I tried to get up, and see Sehun was there. “Hyung, we were very worried,” said Sehun and peeled me an apples. Jimin had gone to buy some juices for me. I looked at Mom and Dad. My mom caresses my head and smiled. “I want to tell you about Yoojung-sshi,” uttered my mom bitterly. “Mom, let’s not talk about her anymore, I hate her,” said me and pulled white blanket covered up whole my body. I hope mom won’t talk about her in front of me anymore. Dear scary , LET’S NOT MEET AGAIN!!!!!!

10 YEARS LATER.

            I was walking and the workers bowed at me. I lived up my self well. I graduated from LA and started working at my dad company. Now, I was appointed as the new CEO. It has been a while, since I walked at our branch company. It was H Supermarket. It is one of our branch companies. Sehun is the director there. When, I reached there, he opened my Mercedes Benz door and bowed. “It’s been a while since you’re here. What does bring you here, hyungnim?” asked him while smiling. I can clearly see Jimin cardboard being our ambassador here. “She is very pretty,” uttered me. “You still can’t get over her hyungnim?” asked Sehun. I smiled. In case the other worker who is standing behind me heard. “People might misunderstand Sehun-ahh,” replied me and smiled bitterly. Sehun shooked her head and walked next to me.

            “Hyung…let’s not walk at the second floor,” said Sehun. I looked at her sharply and he seemed hiding something from me. “What did you hide from me Sehun-ahh?” asked me lazily. “Uncle prohibited me from telling you. Perhaps you want to know?” asked him. I smirk and tucked my hand in the pocket. This guy, if he wants to tell me, just says so. “Let’s not beat around the bush Sehun-ahh,” I said and heard someone screamed near the escalator. We looked at the second floor escalator and saw a woman falling down. She had a long straight hair and wore a white dress and sneakers. Without having hesitation, I saved her. Her long hair covered up her face. As I helped her to stand straight, that woman is someone that I had known already. Her pair of big round eye was staring at me. She smiled and showed me her dimples. She was a lot prettier than before. Yoon Yoojung.

            Then, she faced at her right side. Without any hesitation she bowed 90 degree and thanked the invisible man next to her. “Noona! In front,” whispered Sehun. She smiled cheekily and thanked me properly, before opening her stick. She was blind? Am I right? Am I seeing things? That woman, is she really Yoon Yoojung or someone who look alike her. “I can explain hyung,” whispered Sehun timidly. I looked at her sight, with the stick that leads her walking. She was smiling beautifully despite having a hard time. “She worked here as a cleaner hyungnim, at the second floor,” said Sehun. I nodded. It’s not like I don’t want to know, but somehow my heart begun to ache looking at her predicament. When, I went home, I can see Mom and Jimin already at the dining hall. Somewhat, I lost my appetite but I forced myself to eat. When Jimin left, I help mom with the dishes. “Mom,” spoke me clearly. She then responds me.

            “I met Yoojung earlier,” narrates me and sighed. Mom sighed and started to cried. “Because I was too sorry, I don’t know how to face her,” said her and tears fall down her eyes. She sat on the floor and hit her chest. “That girl was too pitiful,” uttered her. I patted my mom back and she holds my cheek. “She became like that while trying to save you 10 years ago,” uttered mom and embraced me. I bit my lower lips and closed my eyes tightly. So, that’s happen all this while. While saving me who always hating her, she lived in the darkness for 10 years. What should I felt? She needs my sympathy? Or…It hurts me a lot, but I wonder how much she does hate me?

            It has been a week since I was looking at her secretly. “Hyung, are you a stalker?” asked Sehun before lecturing me to approached her. But, is it a right thing to do? I saw her sitting on the bench. “Hyung…your lunch with Jimin-noona leave it to me,” said him and pushed me sitting next to Yoojung. “Hello,” greets her and tried to get up while reaching out her stick. “It’s okay, just sit here!” said me and grabbed her arms. “P-P-Pochi??” asked her. “I’m not Pochi. I’m a friend,” said me nicely. “Excuse me, but sir, nowadays bad people are saying they are nice,” said her while fixing her hair behind her ears. “J-j-just because I was blind, you won’t take my money right?” asked her. She was wearing her cleaner uniform. “I’m a friend,” said me. Then she sat back next to me.

            “Your voice reminds me of someone,” said her while smiling. “Who is it?” asked me. She smiles shyly. “Pochi, ah…no! K-kkai,” replied her timidly. I asked her to wait and quickly grabbed her can of cold coffee from the vending machine. I helped her to open the can and she thanked me. “If you want,this new friend can help you. Do you don’t want to cure your eyes?” asked me. Her face turns red. “It’s okay. I’m fine like this! I-i-if you asked this again, I will end up hating you Mr. New Friend,” told her and keeps her distance between me. This , I am offering to cure her eyes. I will pay for my deeds. I am going to pay for everything. “Ah…I see, let’s meet again,” said me and patted her head. She seemed puzzled but smile. Yoon Yoojung is totally different from the old Yoon Yoojung.

            I was driving my car then I saw her timidly walking with her stick. I slowed down my car and stopped next to her. Then, I get out from my car. “Yoon Yoojung-sshi?!” called me. “Pochi-ahh!!” cried her and backed off. “Ah… Mr.New Friend. Sorry. I kept calling you Ppochi. Your voices remind me of him. It seems I can never be able to get over him,” sighed her and continued to walk. I walked next to her. “His wish is not me to see him again,” said her while smiling. “I don’t even know where he is right now. I suppose he freaks out looking at me,” said her. I can see she is quite sad. “How did you know my name?” asked her out of blue. “I worked at the supermarket too. I work at the sunglasses shop! Everyone knows you,” I told her white lies. “President gave me work. It’s quite rare for a blind person working you know. President is Pochi’s dad. He is nice. Pochi was nice too. Just like President,” said her. “That Pochi, you don’t want to meet him?” asked me while having a deep breathes.

            Actually, it has been two months since I start to wander around Yoojung. I will wait her to finish her work as a cleaner and accompany her went home. I found that it was fun to chat with her. She always told me about her life but never asked about mine. She seems too amiable and an easy-going person.My engagement with Jimin, let’s not talk about it right now. I was walking behind her a few steps when Sehun hold me. “Hyungnim…let’s stop this instant,” said Sehun while looking at me. I smiled bitterly at him. This punk! “I’m the one who had been by her side for 10 years. So, hyung please stop. I can’t let you be next to her anymore. It’s hurt me. And I do believe, Noona, going to hurt more if she knows that you is Pochi,” said him. “Director Oh! What are you telling me to do?” asked me quite stern. “Don’t appear in front of her again. Like 10 years ago, when you pushed her aside,” said him and left.

            I sat on the bench. Then, a stick held upon my trousers. “ Mr.New Friend? It’s you right?” puzzled her. I just sighed and urge her to sit next to me. “Yoojung-sshi, do you know about love?” asked me out of the blue. Yoojung-ah, I think I have fallen for you! My heart was thumping like crazy! I missed you a lot even I saw you every day. “Love? I know, I have felt them back then. My first love,” uttered her while smiling shyly. “However, my first love did not end well,” said her while fixing her hair that bothering her cheek. Gently, I handed over my finger and helped her. “Your first crush, must be a very bad guy right?” asked me. Then, tears fall down her cheek. “My first love…I was very happy even though it’s hurt,” said her and narrates me a story;

            The sky was covered with dark cloud telling us that it will be raining soon. I was looking across the sky. I am too ashamed to ask the girls with their umbrella. Since, none of them are my friends. It was on our first year of middle school. The second day of middle school, I was suspended because having a fist fight with some prefects and disciplinary committee member. My name was sold like hot cakes that day. The girls are started avoiding me, same goes to the guy. Just then, someone give me his umbrella. “You take mine umbrella,” he said and took off his jacket. He covered up himself with his jacket and run. At the holder of the umbrella, it was written his name. Kai Class 1-A. That is the moment when my first love begins. It’s not that I am too young. But, I liked him for years till I mustered up my courage to confess in my third year of high school. It’s somehow quite embarrassing for a yankee tsundere like me. But, if I don’t tell him, he will never know. I realised he was being scared being next to me. Still. I done a lot of things make him happy.  I crack jokes even he doesn’t laughed. I bought him gift even though he will lost them the next day. When everyone is calling him a nerd dork, I always gave them a ed it off vibes. Still, he dislike me??:

            I immediately stand up after hearing her melodrama story. I kept myself from running with tears. “I think today will be the last day for me to be your friend, I’m getting married soon. It does not look nice if people are seeing me with you right?” I said and look somewhere else. She kept gazing at me although she can’t even see me. As I walked her voice suddenly shake me. “Pochi-ahh, Even though, it’s just a moment, I’m happy that you’re willing to see me again,” she said. So, she knew it’s me after all. ”Since when you realised?” asked me while smiling bitterly. “Right from the start,” replied her while smiling. I nodded and tucked my hands in the pockets. “I just want to let you know, even now, I think I have fall in love with you again,” she said and smiled. For the first time, my heart seems stop to beat.

@#$%

            “Are you there?” asked her. The doctor is going to open the wraps. “I don’t go anywhere you fool,” said me and held her hand tightly. “I can smell you!” jokes her and make me caress her cheek. “You’re going to look at me once again,” said me and kissed her hands. “Of course. I am going to look only at you, Pochi-nim,” said her obediently. “Tell me that you love me,” whispered me.”Our Pochi is having a death wish!” she said and pinched me. Just a second later, she tried to open her eyes. The surgery went well. My girl, she will be able to see me again. Then, she gazed at me. “You do see me right?” asked me. She remains silent and kept looking at me without blinking her eyes. “How can you get this handsome?” asked her and forced me to kiss her forehead. Yoojung-ahh, with me you fall in love again. Next time, there will be only me.