“Love you”
“Hate you”
I don’t know…
I hate you!

I, Oshima Ryouka, also known as the kusogaki (ksgk, for short), have an admirer… Or, more like, someone who’s obsessed with me. Owada Nana. She loves me… too much. But… I can’t stand her! I don’t like her. I hate her!

“Love you”
There’s no other
I love you!

I, Owada Nana, the girl with the angel face, as my classmates say, am in love. Madly in love. With someone no one would have expected. Oshima Ryouka, even though she’s known for being a troublemaker, I love her. I love, love, love her!

“Love” and “Hate”
I don’t know which
It won’t stop
Love & Hate

Dang it! “That person’s” confessions
They’re spinning around and around in my head
“Love”, “Hate”, is there not a third option?
I can only choose one or the other

“Ryou-chan~!” I felt a pair of arms hug me from behind as a familiar voice rang.

Ah, it’s her again… She always does this. She comes into the classroom just to see me.

“Hi, Naanya.”

“Hi, Ryou-chan~ How are you?”

“Um, good, I guess… Maybe a bit tired, though.” And I don’t need her clinging to me this early in the morning.

“Oh, still sleepy? I’ll let you sleep on my lap~”

“No thanks!”

“Oh, come on, don’t be shy~”

“I’m not being shy, I just don’t feel like napping on someone’s lap.”

“Aw~” Naanya pouted. “I wanted to see Ryou-chan’s sleeping face~.”

I looked at her pout, then sighed. “How about… we eat lunch together, in the courtyard?”

Her eyes sparkled like diamonds.

“Really?!”

“Sure. Why not?”

“Yay! Thank you!” She hugged me again. At least she’s smiling…

Seeing her sad, made me feel guilty…

Well! The answer is decided already!
Our “WEDDING”! Yes, the vision is perfect!
Yes, a place with lots of trees would be nice
And maybe we could raise three children

But wait, why? We’re only 16! Hello?!
Something like “going out”...
I love you!
Listen to me, idiot!
You have no guard up, and lots of people like you!

“Let’s get married, Ryou-chan!” I said as Ryouka ate. She coughed suddenly and looked at me.

“Haa?! W-w-wedding?!”

“Yup! We could move in together, somewhere with lots of trees. And we could adopt children.”

“Woah, woah, woah! We’re only 16! We can’t get married and have kids just like that!”

“I’m planning for our future. It’s common sense I’d be thinking of marriage.”

“But… we aren’t even dating. And, going out would be--”

“I LOVE YOU, RYOU-CHAN!!! BE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!”

“Listen to me for a second!”

I pouted. “Fine~”

“Naanya, I know you… like me, but…”

“But?”

“Just… just let me think about it, okay? Let’s not rush into this.”

No rush… Am I going too fast? Maybe I was too pushy on her…

“Okay… Sure… We can do that.”

I want to fall in love - fluffy, fluffy
I smile at the principal’s speech
Milk and a panda makes a polar bear
The world is so lively

“Love you”
“Hate you”
I don’t know
I hate you, but I love you..?

“Here!”
“Eh?”
You wanted that rainbow quartz on the way home
I saw you looking at it
It’s opposite from the school road
But, hey don’t mind that.

The next day, I didn’t see Naanya rarely at all. She didn’t come to class to hug me, and I didn’t see her at lunch either… I wonder if she’s okay.

The end of the day came, and that’s when I finally saw her. She walked up to me, a smile.

“Ryou-chan…”

“Naanya. Uh, I’m sorry if I--”

“Here!” She suddenly handed me a panda bear stuffed doll.

“Eh?”

“I saw you staring at it through the shop window. You wanted it, right? So, here.”

I took the doll. The ears look like hearts… indeed, I did find it cute.

“But, how..? It’s too far away from the school. Don’t tell me…”

“Don’t worry about it,” she winked. She then pulled out a polar bear doll identical to my panda. “I got one for me, as well. Now we each have one.”

“Naanya…”

At any rate, you aren’t exactly my type
So why am I reacting like “that”?
I see, because you suddenly showed me kindness
Now I’m shaking from this feeling

Even if I do slowly, surely become an adult
There’s no doubt
None?
No matter what, I love you!
It’s “NO PROBLEM”, just believe me!

I hope Ryou-chan doesn’t find out… I faked a cold in order to go to that store and buy her the doll. What would she think of me..?

I hugged my polar bear doll.

“Nee, Polar bear-chan, do you think Ryou-chan loves me like I love her?”

No answer. What am I doing, a stuffed doll won’t reply. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling.

“I wonder if I did the right thing… or maybe…”

Maybe… Ryou-chan just hates me….

No.. No, I refuse to believe that! I don’t believe that Ryou-chan could hate me. Maybe she’s just confused about her own feelings.

I won’t know until… I confess to her.

“Yosh! Tomorrow, I’ll definitely confess my love to her! Seriously and sincerely!”

See! You lit a fire in me - shaking, shaking!
It burns and rises into a high, a pyromania
“I love you!” I’m not so sure
But it has to be the answer

Oh no, I feel myself being dyed
Because of the kindness I came to know
You can be a weirdo sometimes, but…
I’m being dyed by your love

Another day came, and for a while, I thought the same thing from yesterday would happen. Naanya didn’t come and it’s almost lunch.

Maybe I really did hurt her feelings…

“Ryou-chan!” She then appeared, approaching me.

“Na-?” She grabbed my hand and gave me a serious look.

“Come with me.”

She guided me down the hall, up to the roof of the school. After the door shut, she looked at me straight in the eyes.

“Ryou...ka. I… I love you, Ryouka.”

“Naanya, you tell me that everyday.”

“No, I… I mean it! I’m… in love with you! For real!”

“Eh..?”

“Did you not think I was serious? At first, I was doubting as well, but… now I have no doubt. I am really, truly in love with you, Ryouka. So… can we give this a try? Will you.. be my girlfriend?”

My heart… it’s pounding so hard. I don’t know how to respond.

“Naanya…”

“Ryouka… kiss me.”

“E-eh?!”

“That’ll show you I’m serious, right? So, please.” She closed her eyes, waiting for me to give her an answer.

The only now, that I’ll know if this is real… is to go full speed ahead, huh?

So, I closed my eyes and kissed her.

I want to fall in love - sparkling and shining
The panda fell asleep, how boring
It appeared because of our love
And we raised it for the first time by giving it water

We didn’t pull away for a few seconds, only until we felt it was time.

I met her gaze again. She smiled.

“I do…”

“Eh..?”

“Naanya… I love you. I really do! I know that now! I was so confused on what the heck was going on with me, but… now I see. I’ve loved you all this time.”

“So, does this mean..?”

“Yes, Naanya. I will gladly be your girlfriend.”

I smiled and hugged her tightly, feeling her return it warmly.

“I love you. I love you so much, Ryouka.”

“Me too. I love you, Naanya.”

Two fateful people who “loved” at the same time
Created an intertwining fromage
Even if we hate each other, we love each other
The two of us now, are in love.

“Love you”
“Hate you”
Now I know
I love you.

“Love you”
There’s no other
I love you!

“Love” and “Hate”
It never ends
Love & Hate