- We accept the love we think we deserve-

Kang Sora-

*Sora POV*

I missed leeteuk oppa so much but ELF kept send me bashful comment on my SNS. Leeteuk oppa propose me over and over again but i kept thinking that i dont deserve him. He is too special for me. He is a super star. Thats why this relationship is confusing. We care each other, we like each other but i cant say i love him. I prefer this kind of relationship without any commitment. I know what kind of person leeteuk oppa is. He is an ambitious person. He will push the limit to get anything he want but i cant accept it in this relationship. I dont want to make commitment with him because if i do he will begged me to go further, to go to the next step. I know he’s mature enough but i dont want to ruin his career. I want us to focus on our career. 

Its been a while since the last time we were contacting each other. Yes I was avoiding him. Before we fell deeper in this complicated relationship, I will let him took step back by himself. I don’t want to hurt him but said it clearly. I want this relationship ended naturally because we have lost contact for so long.

*Leeteuk POV*

After several months we didnt contacted at all. Suddenly i missed her, i want to meet her. I know she became more and more busier with drama and CF. I texted her first but she didnt reply. I asked her manager and he said she has schedule in Jeju

i have an event to attend in Jeju with donghae and eunhyuk. i know sora's shooting place is jeju and i really hope i can meet her coincidentally eventhough i try to arrange it but thats only a plan i know the reality won’t come as easy as it. sometimes i really want to know whether she miss me or not. okay if she doesnt eventhough just a slight my face appear in her mind it really means so much to me. Doesnt she know i miss her so damn much. doesnt she know i learn so hard to drink americano to have the same interest with her eventhought it taste hell like seriously if it isnt for Sora i wont do it even a single drop of americano. i wear a couple bag which i gave to her but i wear the dark brown one. i really really need to meet her or i will ended up crazy. oh my god i cant believe i'm deeply in love with her.

one day in jeju i see a crowd near a popular cafe in jeju and i pretty sure its because that cafe become a place for sora's drama. i feel blessed thanks god i can make a scene to meet her. i come to that cafe and i see her take a scene with the lead male actor i dont think its intimate i know its just an acting but i feel so envy to him to have such a scene with sora. when they are on break i come and greet sora

"annyeong haseyo" i greeted them

"ne annyeong haseyo" sora answer it but she looks surprise with my appearance.

"annyeong haseyo sora ssi" i greeted her

"annyeong haseyo leeteuk ssi" she answer me but ow come she call me with formal name. she already agree to call me oppa then now because we havent contacted each other for so long then she changed it. i really cant accept it

"are you in break?" i asked to sora

"ne we are done for today. we will continue to take scene tomorrow because sora isnt feeling well" that lead male answer it. oh come on i didnt talk to you mr. lead male actor

"oh sora are you going back to hotel. let me take you there?" i asked her again with bright smile

"you dont need to do it leeteuk ssi i will do it. we stay in the same hotel" OH MY HOLY GOD HE REALLY NEED TO SHUT HIS MOUTH UP

 i try to keep calm and give my best smile to sora "its okay i already asked for permission from sora's manager" i asked sora again

sora doesnt look really well and yes she doesnt look interested to me either. please sora please say yes

"okay. i will pack my belongings first. you can wait here"  sora said it plainly

YES take that mr. lead male

i was waiting for sora sat on her chair with mr. lead male and yeah its super awkward. sora came to me with all her belongings and her manager accompanied her

"please take sora to the hotel carefully, she doesnt feel well" her manager talked to me

"okay hyung i will take care of her" i said it happy smile

i took all her belonging and carried it. sora still didnt interested at all but as long she didnt complaining so its okay for me.

i opened to door for her and she unhesitantly entered it and sit. i put her belonging in the back and immediately run to the driver seat. its s hot at jeju and i want to turn on the engine so i can turned the AC on.

i drove silently and so does her. she just looked at the window. i started to talk to her to make us less awkward

"how are you, sora?" i asked her with the most stupidest question in the world. oh my leeteuk ssi you are really stupid AF

"you already know i'm not feeling well, so cant you just drive and take me to hotel as soon as possible?" she answered me sarcastically. i know sora isnt a type of girl who can do aegyo well but she isnt this cold either.

finally, we arrived at the hotel sora stay. i took her belongings and followed to her room.

"thank you leeteuk ssi for the ride. annyeong haseyo" she said it coldly and close the door immediately without any other things to say.

i hold the door to keep open "wait, sora cant you asked me to come in first and give me some drink or snack?" i asked her still with my brightest smile

"how about tomorrow? i really feel unwell today" she still talked to me in cold tone

"okay i will text you tomorrow. do you need me to buy dinner?" i still want to longer the time. oh please this is a big chance after 3 years so i really want to talked a lot to her

"no i will just take medicine and then sleep" she answer it

"you have to eat something before get some medicine. okay i will buy you bread. wait for minutes" i really worry about her health if really really sick and not avoiding me because i now sora is a warmhearted person. first i though she just avoiding me but then she looke really unwell. i run to the hotel bakery and buy some bread

"take this all, i really dont what kind if bread you like so i buy one for each kind and i buy you americano your favorite drink " i gave her plastic bags of bread and she looks surprised

"but this is so many how about if we eat it