Dear diary, my life is now full of color. Well, it has been ever since a half year ago actually. That was the day I had the ring adorned my ring finger. Also, the day I finally tied her down.I feel everything is going perfect. This married life I have with her is the best thing ever. We shared everything just like the normal married couple would do. But there is one thing that I could only tell you about, I can't talk to Taeyeon, at least not yet. The other day when I met Tiffany we briefly talked about this. I'm quite nervous if I have to talk to Taeyeon about it. My relationship with her mother changed tremendously since her mother usually visits us several times in a month. She'd take a few days to stay the night. And she'd come by when Taeyeon had to overseas for business trip. Two weeks ago when Taeyeon went to New York, her mother urged me about something I've been yearning for. She's been talking about grandchildren for months, though not directly but she deliberately touched the topic. I wish for it. A child, my own child I'd be carried that would also be Taeyeon's child. But I'm not sure if Taeyeon's ready or not. I hope she is because I really wish for it.

She closed the diary and put it inside her drawer. A smile adorned her young face despite her age has reached her early thirty but she managed to look fresh. She clamped her hands together before placing her chin upon. 

"Jessica!! Oh my, Sica!!"

She furrowed her brows before she raised from her seat. She rushed to where the voice came from which leads her to the room opposite of their master room. When she opened the door she was met with the sight of her partner was tackled by two kids. She giggled at the energetic kids. She decided to end Taeyeon's agony when she saw how red her face was she guessed from the screaming and running around the room with the kids.

“Sica, help me!!”

“Ara, ara.” She chuckled, walking to get a little girl off of Taeyeon. “Jinshu-ah, Auntie Taeyeon is about to die just now.” She said while lifting the little girl off Taeyeon's back then sitting her on the bed.

"But Oppa say play horse." Jessica looked at the boy who was about to jump from the bed but quickly stopped when Jessica casted her a knowing look. "And Appa is strong."

Jessica turned back her attention at the three-year-old. "Appa?"

"Ugh, Taeyeon Appa." The little girl answered enthusiastically yet innocently.

Taeyeonface palmed herself when she heard her neighbor’s daughter called her appa. Which part of her possessed the man's part that makes the little girl sees differently in her she doesn't know. However the younger girl has been calling her that since the second time she came to play in their house.

"Why do you still call her appa?" Jessica who was still lost curiously asked the little girl.

"I like call her appa. She..she protect me. Like this, Auntie Sica." The little girl shifted standing on the bed then wrapped her small arms around Jessica's waist burying her face on Jessica's chest. "Hug. Warm." She muttered softly.

Jessica couldn't help but reciprocated the hug, tightened her arms around the girl's small frame protectively.

"Appa, hug." The little boy, Jinlee opened wide his arms to Taeyeon signaling he wants to be hugged too.

Taeyeon displayed her chin dimple then obeyed to the request.

"Now Jinshu, Jinlee-ah, let's get you home. It's late and you need to shower now." Jessica told the two kids ending their pseudo family bonding.

The kids groaned sadly thinking about their time to go home was up. "I still want to play with Appa."

"We can play next time, Jinshu." Taeyeon coaxed her untangling her arms from the little boy. "Jinlee, I want you to be a big boy and no carry this time. I'll piggy back Jinshu, okay?"

The little boy grinned at her showing his toothless. No carry means running, and piggy back means racing.

"Jinshu, come." Taeyeon came to carry the girl on her back. "Ready?" The little nodded in vigor knowing what to come. "Jinlee, race!!!!"

The little boy wasted no time to jump off the bed then ran following behind the two, giggling.

"Yah! Kim Taeyeon, be careful!" Jessica walked out the room shaking her head when she catching the sight of Taeyeon carried Jinshu with the little boy in tow running down the stairs. They were laughing. It was quite a sight for Jessica to see Taeyeon like this. At least she knew Taeyeon's good with kids.

"I win."

"Oppa, me, me. I win."

The knock on the door interrupted them. Jessica who was just reached downstairs made her way to the door.

"Mrs. Kim." Taeyeon heard the newcomer called her wife and it makes her smile but it was soon disappeared and replaced by the chuckle once she heard the kids groaned in disappointment when their mother told Jessica about the purpose of her presence.

"Kids, your mommy's here." Jessica informed.

"Come on, kids." Taeyeon leads them to the front door.

"I'm sorry for troubling both of you with these kids."

"Ah, it's alright, Mrs. Joon. We were playing anyway." Taeyeon said while ruffling Jinlee's hair.

"And they are obedient kids. No trouble at all." Jessica told her sincerely.

"Yeah, Omma, I play horse with Appa Tae." Jinshu innocently mumbled resting her head on her mother's shoulder which was earning the laughter from the Kims.

"Aigoo, I told them not to call you Appa anymore, Taeyeon-ssi. I don't want people to misinterpret the situation here but they didn't listen." The older woman convey apologetically.

"It's alright, Mrs. Joon. I can understand."

"Jessica-ssi, I'm so sorry if this caused the inconvenience for you."

Mrs. Joon just as knows as much, she didn't want to cause the newlywed for any problem over the petty thing. But Jessica quickly rejected it. "I don't mind, Mrs. Joon. Like Taeyeon said, we really could understand."

"If you say so then thank you. Now kids, say goodbye to aunties."

Once Taeyeon closed the door after the Joons went home, she saw Jessica standing quietly near the fireplace. Pacing across the room she enveloped her wife in a back hug.

"What are you thinking about?" She whispered.

"I'm just thinking how unlucky they are. It's a pity that the kids have to lost their father at the young ages. And then Mrs. Joon has to be a single mother to take care of them."

"I know. You're right. So I supposed that's why you let them call me appa?" Jessica nodded while her eyes met Taeyeon's. "Do I look like a man?"

"No, but you act like one. You're just so boyish yet so gentle. You're my gentleman." Jessica palmed Taeyeon's cheek lovingly. The touch makes Taeyeon's smile grew wider.

"I love you."

"I love you too, Tae."

"Let's take a bath so I can have supper. I'm starving. The kids drained my energy." She released the hug then took Jessica's hand.

When the couple reached the stairs, Jessica called for Taeyeon who was a step ahead than her. "Hey Taeyeon." Taeyeon hummed and turned when she felt Jessica halted her step. "Just wondering what do you think about kids?"

"They are cute and adorable, yes, but also...very tiring sometimes. Why?"

"Just curious."

"Alright, come on. Don't think too much about it. I don't want to you stress just because you think about kids."