This entire story is filled with my journal entries, all in order. Everything said in this story is entirely true besides the names that were changed. I personally wrote these in my own diary, and they consist of my thoughts while trying to recover. This can be very difficult to write for some people, and hopefully readers can learn from this, and know that this all really happens. It cannot be ignored.

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I do not intend to put any of the idols named in this story into any harm or hate; I just heard about their recent struggles, and I thought about writing about my own. The idols themselves do not have to do with the plot of the story; it was just important to change the names in this story [changed to idol names- this is the only thing that was changed] for personal reasons. This contains some very mature content in some chapters that some may find disturbing (I wrote about the eating disorder).

Enjoy reading,

Mai~

 I hope this foreward was not too long. Please enjoy reading. This is intended for people who are also struggling, or who ever just wants to read. If you do not like reading about eating disorders, then please to not try to read it. This is for people that actually know about it. Eating disorders are not just thoughts about feeling fat; this is just what I personally think. There are many forms of eating disorders. Two years ago, I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa with Bulimic sub-types- also known as Bulimorexia. Please do not take this lightly. Thank you. This is rated M. It may be a disturbing and emotional topic for others.