I have just a little confession.... I havent been in the best relationships recently. In this one it has been a lot of downs verses ups and has been making me very upset. I never knew how to cope with being so sad besides doing wrong. I don't even know where to start with my confession.... Let me begin here....

 

Yesterdy 

 

As I sat in my room with tears streaming down my face my phone vibrated. I ignored it thinking it was my idiotic boyfriend. I continued to cry as I heard my phone vibrate again. It made me furious with him. I picked up my phone and looked at who it was.... It wasn't him... It was an old friend of mine.

 

"Hey, probably have forget about me. Its been a while. Just messaging you to see how you've been and to just say hey."..... "Are you there?" 

I replied: Hey, sorry; I thought it was my boyfriend who messaged me. I've been doing pretty good and I know its been forever. We have to hang out soon one day. 

 

 

 

It took him a minute to reply, "If you thought it was your boyfriend why didn't you reply instantly? You haven't been "pretty good". What's wrong? You know I'm always here for you." 

 

I tried not to cry more as I explained to him the dumb argument that had taken place for hours over the phone. He had listened and said what I wanted to hear. As he continued to listen and I started to feel better I started laughing, "I shouldn't be talking about such negative things. Tell me about how you've been" 

 

"Ignore how I've been. I am good as usual. I want to see you, maybe I can make you smile if you give me a chance." He had said. Before I could think of what I was saying it just pushed our of my mouth 

 

"Of course! Tonight? Is that okay with you?" 

 

"Yes, that's fine. I'll see you then." 

 

As the day went on I waited and waited for the sun to set and the night to come with the curiosity of what was going to happen when he came. I don't know why I was looking forward to him coming. Was it just the fact that I missed him? Or was it that I actually liked him? 

 

When I first started talking to him he would always flirt with me. It was so cute but then sadly we stopped talking, I moved on and hadn't heard from him till today. Was my crush for him growing? I didn't know but I didn't care, even though I was FURIOUS at my boyfriend I am still loyal. So nothing will happen tonight no matter what. 

 

Finally, I received this message saying,"I'm here." It made my heart race and my face blush. I ran to open the door and smiled as I saw him. "Hi." I say in a quiet voice. He stepped in and followed me to my room. He sat in my bed looking around as I closed my door giggling.

 

"Why are you so giggly?" He asked me as he smiled and looked at me. I sat on the bed next to him an avoided blushing and smiling more.

 

"I don't know to be honest." I said as I laid on my bed I just looked at him. He laid next to me on his back just looking at me. We laid there talking for hours as here an there we'd poke each other and laugh. It was an amazing night. 

 

"Knock it off mister" I said as I giggled and poked him a little harder. 

 

"Or what?" He said as he poked me with a cocky grin 

 

I pinned him down and tried not to laugh,"That is what will happen." I laughed and smiled. As I started to let get of his wrists his face changed with an expression that was someone making me smile. I didn't know how to react to the change in his face but I tried to keep my face the same. He leaned in and kiss me. From then on things went so fast I didn't understand it

 

That's my confession. I am still confused about it. Surprisingly..... I liked it.... Was it the way he touched me? The areas he touched me? His soft lips? His soft but strong hands? His eyes that felt ravishing as they saw my body bare like never before? I didn't get why this had stayed on my mind all day but it had so I guess I had to write about it