Here's to the nights where everything just seemed to play by itself. To the nights where everything seemed so perfect. To that night she was next to me.. everything just poured out - the feelings I had for her since the week we had became bestfriends that night everything changed and the mistake I couldn't take back the night we had made love and the night she got pregnant because I was stupid and selfish and wanted her as mine in everyway. Now.. I don't even see her anymore.. it's like she just vanished from the face of the earth - if I said I didn't miss you I'd be lying.. bad because I miss you more than anything..

Miyoung : Chanyeols childhood best friend and first love.

2 months after everything happened.. I found out I was pregnant.. but he was training to be an idol.. I couldn't be a burden on him, so I did the only thing I could do.. I told him I hated him, I told him I NEVER wanted to see him again and I said it with tears in my eyes because I was actually lying..

But to be honest the hardest part is looking at that little boy - my son.. your son..

because he is exactly like you..
His ears
His eyes
His nose
His voice
His love for glasses
His love for hats
His love for guitar
His love for composing
His love for rap
His twitchy eye smile
His huge toothy smile