Dear Memories, Thanks for Remaining

Paper Heart
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"His ex-what?! Someone hold me, I’m going to faint."

 

Jongin thought that his kidnapper’s – who he now knew was named Baekhyun – behavior was a bit exagerated; he really fainted and would be on the floor if Jongin hadn’t stretched his arms in time, but he himself was staring at Sehun with wide eyes, taken aback by his revelation.

 

"Just, how many boyfriend did Luhan have?" Baekhyun wailed, dragging on the last word breathlessly as if he was dying – or just came back from death world. "There’s no way I’m letting my Yeolie go."

 

"Yeolie…? You already have a nickname for him?"

 

"Shut up!" Baekhyun snapped, pushing Jongin’s arms away to kick him. Satisfied with the number of yelps he could get from Jongin, he turned around and pointed a wavering finger at Sehun. "Is he the reason you and Luhan broke up?"

 

"No."

 

"Was Yeolie with Luhan after you two broke up?"

 

"No."

 

"Does Luhan still like him?!"

 

Sehun sighed. “Go ask him if you want to know.”

 

Baekhyun whined, “Why is everything so hard.” His voice decreasing as he rushed to the door and disappeared behind it.

 

"Let’s start now?"

 

Jongin turned around to see Sehun bending down to put the music on. He found that weird that Sehun had never once told him that Chanyeol was Luhan’s ex. The two don’t see each other often, but they sometimes cross path since Chanyeol is Jongin’s roommate.

 

As he stood next to his best friend, Jongin stared at their reflections in the mirror and wondered if Chanyeol was the reason behind Sehun’s sharper moves and hard gaze.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Luhan was on his way back to school, a smile on his face.

 

Running into his old friend in this university wasn't even a possibility to him. So sharing a class with him was even more incredible.

 

They had met up after Luhan’s last class of the day and talked about what they were up too as they walked down the street to go further into the busy town.

 

It had felt good to hear Chanyeol’s loud laugh that could cover the sound of cars outside the cafe, stop the chatter, earn judging looks from the last customers and glares from some employees looking annoyed to serve a “crazy person” like Luhan had heard one mutter under his breath.

 

Chanyeol must have heard him too, but he didn’t give any sign that he cared. That was what Luhan had always admired about Chanyeol; he was always himself and he couldn’t care less about what people think of his personality.

 

"So, still not interested to team up with me?"

 

"Sorry, my answer’s still the same."

 

"Even after I payed your dinner?"

 

Luhan gave him an accusing look. “Were you trying to bribe me with food?”

 

"Yes," Chanyeol replied with a toothy grin while casually throwing an arm around Luhan’s shoulders. "But it didn’t work so it doesn’t matter."

 

Luhan shook his head. Another thing he envied Chanyeol for was his honesty.

 

The chilly night had engulfed the warmth of the sun when they reached the dorm. Chanyeol had insisted on walking all the way to Luhan’s room and, even if it meant hearing awful jokes that made Luhan stumble over his own feet because of the boisterous laugh shaking his body and hurting his chest, Luhan didn't argue his proposition.

 

"Hey, be careful." Chanyeol whispered with a voice laced with amusement as he hoisted Luhan up by the waist. "Not everyone is in their rooms yet."

 

"What?" Luhan looked up and indeed, leaning on the wall opposite of his room’s door, someone gazed up from his phone. In a situation like this one, red would creep up Luhan’s cheeks because looking like a fool in front of strangers was a

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silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
#2
6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
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Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
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Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
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Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable