Dear Life, Take Pity on My Poor Soul

Paper Heart
Please log in to read the full chapter

 

Sehun was putting on his slack when the alarm of his roommate rang.

 

Rolling his eyes, he walked to the other bed, turned off Luhan’s phone for the third time and decided that his roommate had slept enough – or more like the sound of his alarm was really annoying because Sehun couldn’t care less about Luhan’s well-being – as he called his name.

 

But Sehun should have known that if Luhan’s alarm, which must have woken up the whole dorm by now, wasn’t effective, his voice wasn’t going to be that much of an help. He soon noticed that so he started shaking Luhan, earning some protests that Sehun ignored by shaking him harder.

 

"Okay, okay, stop! I’m awake!" Luhan huffed while shoving Sehun’s hands away. His yawn ended with a sigh as he still needed a few hours of sleep to function properly. Blinking tiredly, he removed his blanket then put his feet on the floor with the intention to get up but the sight in front of him stopped his new-found motivation.

 

Luhan’s eyes were absorbing too much information for his slow brain; broad shoulders, toned back, milky skin, too much skin. A soundless gasp left his parted lips when he was met with the other part including defined colarbones and deep abs.

 

"Are you done staring?"

 

It wasn’t Sehun’s voice that had Luhan closed his mouth, but his hands making the flawless alabaster skin disappear behind a white cloth so agonizingly slowly that Luhan had to wonder why a shirt needs so many buttons. Luhan’s gaze went up to the last amount of skin he could find but, as the neck was not enough, his stare pursued their way up a pointed chin, rosy lips, thin nose and judging eyes.

 

Luhan could clearly read the question in those chocolate orbs. The creased eyebrows added the confusion that made Luhan’s cheeks grew pink in embarrassment as he became aware of his staring. He wished Sehun didn’t notice but his little smirk crashed all his hopes.

 

"I was not staring," Luhan replied at last. He stood up and stumbled his way to his wardrobe. It must have been a funny sight judging from Sehun’s laugh. Forunately, the younger didn’t try to fluster Luhan more with words. Though it should have surprised him, Luhan was just glad and quickly locked the bathroom’s door with a sigh.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

"You look tired."

 

Luhan almost didn’t hear Baekhyun’s voice over his yawn. He turned around to greet his friend only after putting his books in his bag.

 

"You still receive these?" Baekhyun asked, surprised to see Luhan getting out a few letters from his locker.

 

Luhan simply hummed. He didn’t think it’ll ever stop and anyway, he didn’t mind giving them to Sehun. It was just that, the ironic situation of handing letters to Sehun felt so awkward the first time that since then, Luhan had settled on posing them on his desk where Sehun could see them easily – but ignored most of the time.

 

"What happened?"

 

"Sehun happened." Luhan sighed as he started regretting using his feet so early in the morning. The chatter filling the hallway were giving him an headache and just, which school start their classes at 7am? "He woke me up and…" Another sigh got out of his mouth. "He was so cute before. Now he’s a cocky, cold-hearted and arrogant jerk. He’s so rude and uncomfortable to be with. So unbearable, so–"

 

"Hot."

 

"Yes." Luhan heaved a sigh for the umpteenth time today. It was true.

Please log in to read the full chapter
Like this story? Give it an Upvote!
Thank you!

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
#2
6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
xiaolin98 #4
Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
xiaolin98 #5
Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
xiaolin98 #6
Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
xiaolin98 #7
Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
xiaolin98 #8
Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
xiaolin98 #9
Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
xiaolin98 #10
Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable