Dear Link, I Think You're Not Broken

Paper Heart
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"It must be somewhere," Luhan mumbled while angrily opening Sehun’s wardrobe's doors. He had been searching for minutes for something that he could exchange against an apology, but he was still looking for it.

 

Apart from some magazines and other school supplies, there was nothing else in the drawers and his wardrobe appeared to be full of his clothes – of course. The rumors about Sehun being the perfect student may be true after all. Everything was clean and neat. Even his bed.

 

Now that Luhan thought about it, Sehun’s bed was the last thing he didn’t put his hands on. Walking towards it, Luhan threw the pillow and blanket aside. A groan left his mouth because there was nothing on it. Luhan started roamming his hands through the sheets but, not feeling anything, he frowned and kneeled down.

 

That was when Luhan saw it.

 

Under Sehun’s bed was a box and, without hesitation, Luhan grabbed the edge and pulled it towards himself. When the box was fully out, Luhan grinned. When they were younger, Sehun had once showed him his secret spot where he hid some toys he didn’t want his mother to find and give to some kid because he was "too old". But it seemed that, even if she was not around, Sehun’s fear was still present and Luhan could understand why; It had happened once and he had been the one to comfort a ten years old Sehun for hours until a promise to buy him another one had stopped his cries.

 

Luhan was surprised to be greeted with the two letters he had given Sehun yesterday when he opened the box. And a lot more when he saw that they were opened. A smile played on Luhan’s lips at the thought of Sehun listening to him and not throwing them away anymore.

 

Almost forgetting why he was sitting on the floor in front of a box full of colorful letters that were definitely not for him, Luhan plunged his hand in it, the purpose of his doing back in his mind.

 

As the clock on the wall indicated 7pm in a few, which meant that Sehun would be done with his dance practice and back in the room really soon, Luhan knew he had to hurry. But after searching cautiously and checking every angles of the box six times, Luhan concluded in defeat that only letters were in it. He huffed and pushed the box back under the bed, stood up with a sigh as his eyes found the english book on his desk that he wished he had opened yesterday in order to not fail the test this morning.

 

"It’s all your fault." He murmured to no one while arranging Sehun’s pillow. "I hate you, you stupid–" Luhan suddenly paused his movements at the sound of something coming in contact with the floor when he lifted up Sehun’s blanket. He blinked at the bright object laying lonely on the wooden floor.

 

Luhan picked it up, analized it, then blinked again before a smirk slowly spread on his face.

 

 

"Here. I found you."

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

Sehun panted as he collapsed on the floor. He gulped down the last half of his water bottle then pat Jongin on the shoulder to show his contentment for his good job.

 

The two had been working together for a talent show that will happen in some weeks. While one of them create the choreo, the other add his opinions or own steps. They shared the task like that, like a perfect team.

 

"We did great today but we should work more on the last part."

 

With his eyes closed, Sehun hummed. He could feel himself drifting off from exhaustion but he wanted to take a shower and anyway, if he wanted to sleep somewhere, he’d choose the comfiness of his bed over the dance studio’s hard and dirty floor.

 

Two knocks were heard and, as Sehun wondered who would be out of the dorm at this hour, the grinning face of his roommate popped out of the now opened door.

 

Sehun groaned. What the is he doing here? Once Luhan entered – as if someone had told him he could – Sehun asked him the question out loud, his voice laced with annoyance to make Luhan understand that his presence was truly not welcomed.

 

But Luhan wasn’t bothered by it – or simply didn't care. Actually, his smile widened when he took another step to stand right in front of Sehun. The single word that got out of his mouth made the younger scoff.

 

"Apologize."

 

Is he serious? “Apologize? Me? To you? I do hope you’re kidding.”

 

"You don’t want to?" Luhan asked with a tilt of his head and Sehun wanted to laugh at the pout on his face but settled on an amused smile and a flat,

 

"No."

 

"Oh." Luhan blinked down at him. "Well, maybe you’ll change your mind if I tell Jongin about that thing you can’t sleep without?"

 

All the emotions coloring Sehun’s face drained out, leaving his expression blank if it weren’t for the daggers his dark brown eyes were directing to the standing boy looking at him expectantly.

 

"So? I’m waiting."

 

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silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
#2
6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
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Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
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Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
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Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable