Dear Dream, I Wonder If You Will Ever Come True

Paper Heart
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Inner Baekhyun was screaming as he was currently on his man’s bed, drinking a glass of water handed to him by no one but perfection itself, but also suffocating because said perfection was sitting on the same freaking mattress, really close to Baekhyun’s freaking feet while watching over him and oh God, it was so ing adorable how concern was reflecting in his ingly flawless features.

 

But, of course, outer Baekhyun showed none of his inner struggles, faking indifference as he posed the empty glass on the desk next to him and put his focus on the white blanket covering his legs all while drowning the awkward silence with words that were supposed to reassure him. Strangely, the only thing his mind found to comfort him was that him and the cause of his quick heartbeat were alone in a closed room, or, in other words, that Baekhyun was living one of his greatest fantasy – minus the lack of clothes.

 

As expected, his imagination would wander in dangerous territory now out of all time. Baekhyun inwardly facepalmed.

 

“Are you feeling better?” Chanyeol asked, startling Baekhyun and stopping him from reprimanding his brain.

 

Baekhyun nodded meekly. A thankful smile was drawn on his lips to hide the fact that he was slowly dying.

 

Oblivious, the person responsible of his current state sighed in relief. It seemed absurd, how worried Chanyeol was about him. The mere thought elicited an emotion that jolted Baekhyun’s inside and had him put a hand over his chest. The way his heart was always in synchronisation with the emotions shown on Chanyeol’s face and the fact that it reacted positively whenever he was in Chanyeol’s presence could only mean that love was deeply established in his core. No matter the outcome, Baekhyun was certain his heart made the right decision by choosing Chanyeol.

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

Baekhyun looked up. Chanyeol’s smile was gone and replaced with an unreadable expression.

 

“I’m sorry about yesterday. I just had a hard time realizing what you told me. Your confession… I didn’t know what to do with it. I know I should have given you a response, and I did somehow, well, I thought I did, with the song but…” Chanyeol sighed. His eyebrows were furrowed, as though he was frustrated he couldn’t translate what was on his mind in coherent words. “I was so sure I still liked Luhan hyung, but then you came with those cheerful notes that made me feel so much better about everything and I was so confused. Liking you felt so wrong. It felt like I was using you to forget Luhan hyung, but at the same time, I felt like betraying my feelings for Luhan hyung, but I recently discovered that it wasn’t the case at all.”

 

Baekhyun pressed his hand harder on his chest. The air around him felt constricted and he was having a hard time breathing.

 

“Deep down, I knew I was attracted to you. In order to be in another relationship, I understood that I had to put a term on the one that ceased to exist years before. It was hard, to cut the ties that I once refused to let go. But after meeting you, after meeting the Baekhyun in front of me, the one I got to know and fell in love with, I realized that moving on was necessary if I wanted to give myself another chance.”

 

Baekhyun couldn’t have heard him right. There was no way Chanyeol actually confessed to him. But the gleam shining in Chanyeol’s eyes and the seriousness in his words seemed to disagree.

 

“I-I’m–” Baekhyun stuttered. “I don’t– which one of me do you like?” he blurted out, because, albeit he was a bit flabergasted by the situation, his curiosity was still present; like foam created by the agitation of his overwhelming amount of emotions. Surprisingly, Chanyeol’s answer was soft and sheepish, but immediate; a ray of sun that ignited hope, shock and great affection.

 

“I like every bit of you I encountered. So the answer is you. I like you.”

 

Baekhyun’s eyes widened. “H-how much do you think it’ll cost?” he asked in a low whisper, gaze blank and heart threatening to break his ribcage.

 

Chanyeol blinked. “What?”

 

“My ring! O-oh my God! Kyungsoo needs to know about our engagement!”

 

“Our… what?”

 

Baekhyun was too engrossed in his happiness to hear Chanyeol, his man, his Yeolie, his boyfriend. Baekhyun cupped his cheeks and squealed before hurrying out of the bed and running towards the door. When he was in front of it however, as he suddenly became aware of something important, he spunned around. Coming face to face with Chanyeol’s dumbfounded expression, Baekhyun grinned and, under the encouragement of his excited inner voice, took firm steps towards Chanyeol, hold his astounded face in his hands then closed the gap separating their lips.

 

Baekhyun didn't know where his sudden confidence came from, but he seriously didn't care as he was living what he had been practicing in his dreams for far too long. The kiss was simple, neverthless, it provoked a whirlwind of emotions and happy thoughts drapped in a warm, fluffy cover gifted to Baekhyun’s heart. When he pulled away, Baekhyun didn't wait for Chanyeol’s reaction as he skipped back to the exit, leaving the room and what he hopped to be a memory he would be happy to remember years from now.

 

 

 

~

 

 

 

“Where’s your other and kinder half?”

 

Sehun disregared the way Jongin referred Luhan as and simply answered his question. “Resting. He wasn’t feeling well this mo

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silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
#2
6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
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Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
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Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
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Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable