Dear Friend, Thank You

Paper Heart
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Luhan was wearing a bright smile. The comfortable atmosphere around them created by the sweet smell of food and the murmurs of student’s talks could be the reason behind it indeed, but not only; sitting at the table he used to look at from afar was actually the biggest purpose.

 

“I can’t believe you two are together,” Jongin said suddenly, rousing Luhan from his daydream. The boy was sitting in front of him, reading and jotting down Sehun’s notes from the classes he missed on monday, when he was at the hospital. Several words could describe the warmth spreading in his chest that could simultaneously answer Jongin’s statement, but Luhan didn’t know which one to use.

 

Thankfully, Sehun, didn’t wait a second to ask, “Who told you that?” It was a simple question, yet, it had Luhan’s eyes shining with joy that Sehun didn’t bluntly ignore the question like he would so often do when asked about an unwanted topic. Although Sehun already showed him through words and actions how he felt about their relationship, the fact that he acknowledged it once again, and in front of his closest friend, had Luhan’s heart beat with nothing but pure love for his Sehun.

 

“Lay hyung.”

 

“Yeah? Well, he lied.”

 

Luhan’s grin, along with his fond thoughts, instantly faded away. “What?!” he cried, punching Sehun’s shoulder with enough force to make him wince in pain. Sehun scowled at him and Luhan pouted. He wouldn’t apologize for something Sehun deserved.

 

“Wow, and you guys are supposed to love each other?”

 

Ignoring Jongin’s remark, Luhan stabbed at his meat with enough force to show that he was done with the subject. What Luhan shared with the stupid person he was unfortunately in love with didn’t need a word anyway. This same stupid person who had barged in the bathroom earlier this morning and dismissed Luhan’s shriek by climbing in the small bathtub while insisting that they had to shower together in order to save time. This could have been a good idea, had not Sehun deemed it necessary to finish what they’d started minutes before. Except earning a laugh and more kisses from Sehun, Luhan’s complaints had no effect, which resulted in the both of them being late for their first class.

 

Abruptly, Sehun stood up and wordlessly walked away. Luhan glared at his retreating back, his unhappy expression certainly the cause behind Jongin’s wholehearted laugh.

 

“Don’t make this face, hyung. Sehun loves you. Though he didn’t admit it, he can’t hide how much happier he is now that you’re here.”

 

Luhan looked at Jongin with a doubtful frown. Now that he thought about it, since it happened when they were in high school, Jongin had certainly witnessed their separation from Sehun’s perspective. Sehun may had shared his feelings on the situation with him, and if it was the case, Luhan couldn’t understand how Jongin could sit in front of him with a thankful smile on his face. Surely, their relationship wouldn’t be that good if Jongin knew what occured six years ago.

 

As though he could read the confusion in Luhan’s eyes, Jongin chuckled. “Whatever happened, hyung, Sehun’s happier now that you’re here. It’s a fact and that’s what matters.”

 

Before Luhan could say anything, Sehun came back with a little, transparent bag full of cookies in his hand. He wordlessly dropped it in front of Luhan who blinked at it curiously.

 

“In Sehun’s language, this means ‘I’m an idiot but I love you. Please, forgive me.’”

 

“If you don’t want another broken arm, I suggest you to shut up.”

 

“See, hyung?” Jongin said while wiggling his eyebrows, unfazed by Sehun’s threat. “He’s not denying it.”

 

Luhan watched their interaction with an amused smile. It was obvious that Jongin’s taunts weren’t well received if Sehun’s tight glare was anything to go by. Luhan thought it was cute how Sehun would always avoid being confronted with something unpleasant by using ignorance; as if returning on eating would lessen his apparent want to strangle Jongin.

 

Even with a hand on his mouth, Luhan was unable to contain his laugh. Because the muffled s

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silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
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6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
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Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
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Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
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Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable