Dear Fate, Why ?

Paper Heart
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Luhan sighed.

 

"This is never going to stop…" He found himself mumbling the same thing every morning for a week at the sight of pink and white letters atop his books in his locker.

 

It all started when Luhan's dream of being accepted in Seoul X university came true. His sadness to leave China was replaced by excitement as he had watched with glee the modern exterior. He had stepped in the lobby and felt lost in between a crowd of students wearing the latest brands from fashion designers. He had sensed numerous looks directed towards him and he could feel the word Outcast slowly and painfully being engraved on his forehead.

 

Despite his first impression, people were nice to him, showing him the directions in this immense building. He even made a friend the first day; Baekhyun, the person who had accompanied him to his room. They had walked an endless hallway and Luhan was thankful Baekhyun was talkative; it was a good distraction to not think about his sore legs. He had landed on the country at 6 in the morning and had to come visit the school directly after since he was a semester late.

 

His new friend had waved at him and walked away after leaving him in front of his dorm door. He had watched Baekhyun's retreating back with a smile. Luhan had been so anxious about his accent and far from perfect korean, he didn't expect everything to go on so smoothly.

 

But Luhan mostly didn’t expect who his roommate was going to be.

 

The bored gaze he received when the door opened after a few knocks had made Luhan drop his smile immediately.

 

 

Luhan couldn't believe his luck.

 

 

His roommate was Oh Sehun.

 

 

Oh Sehun.

 

 

His ex-boyfriend.

 

 

His ex-boyfriend.

 

 

Luhan, for sure, wasn't awaiting for Sehun to welcome him as his first words were "Find another room" but, slamming the door in his face? Luhan had knocked again, acting like what he thought was the most civilized way possible in a situation like this one. However, the quiet calls of Sehun's name soon transformed in shout that appeared effective if Luhan counted the student getting out from an adjacent room to calmly ask him to shut the up.

 

Luhan had been offended.

 

But more than that, he had been frizzing in the cold hallway because the jerk had refused to open the door for a few hours.

 

Baekhyun had been quite shocked to hear that as he had explained that Sehun bow to everyone and was a hard working leader of a dance crew.

 

Luhan had scoffed. He couldn’t believe nobody knew who Sehun really was. And he couldn’t believe that even if he exposed it, no one would believe him; he had recounted his amazing encounter with his jerk of ex-boyfriend to the principale, hoping that Sehun would be sanctioned but no, of course no. Luhan had almost been sanctioned for lying. Unbelievable.

 

And on top of that, Sehun was really popular. Like, really popular. Girls, boys, certainly dogs. Luhan had let out a nervous laugh when he found the first letter in his locker. The sight was so oddly familiar, it was almost painful. It had been six years but it seemed like he was still not over it.

 

Sighing, Luhan put the letters into his bag along with the books for the remaining of his morning classes.

 

 

 

 

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"It’s a personal invitation, be happy."

 

Luhan scowled at the black and white sheet on the cafeteria's table then up at Baekhyun. “Happy? He hates me. Why does he want me to come?” he asked bluntly, recalling his first week with his roommate. Sehun had b

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silentescapade
#1
Well, here it is. 7 years! This may be my final comment, but who knows? I might come back again next year, or I might come back in a few years… I don’t want to completely leave this behind forever, but I also don’t know how long we can consistently keep this going. So this may be my last long, deep message, but hopefully I remember to drop by with quick comments in the future. I definitely didn’t expect these messages to turn into this or become a regular thing when I first started commenting here. But it really is so wholesome, and I’m glad to hear it helped you. It helped me stay grounded too.

Happy new year to you too! These past couple of years have been rough, but I hope you’re doing well and staying safe.

I graduated from uni a semester early, so I finished a couple of months ago! Now I have to prepare to be a real adult haha. Since I'm done with uni, I figured it was also a good time to bring these comments to a close, but now that I’m here, it feels very bittersweet.

It really doesn’t feel like 7 years have gone by. Time moves so slowly in the present but it seems to have flown by when I reflect on it. Like I said before, this fic is precious to me because it represents many aspects of my young life and brings back lots of fond memories. I was so invested in Kpop, EXO, shipping, and all of that stuff in those days. I feel old looking back on things like this lol. But I think those were some of the best times of my life.

So, thank you. For Paper Heart. For writing. For creating something I will always cherish. For reading my annual comments and replying every year. For all of the memories.

Thank you for everything. ❤️
silentescapade
#2
6 years!! This one won’t be as deep as last year hehe, just some random thoughts. (I love reading your responses btw - I don’t reply to them because it feels right to leave it as it is, but I promise I read them every year.)

Since last year, I’ve delved back into Kpop a bit, and I decided to simply enjoy the content for what it is. I try to stay away from the toxicity in the community and instead just quietly listen to the music and watch videos/shows for my own comfort. I’m sad that Kpop isn’t what it used to be, and I will always miss the old times, but I’m happy that I’m still able to love Kpop like I used to. Nothing is the same as it was, but this is more than enough for me. This fic reminds me of how things were back then, and I am satisfied with that.

I had a long break from uni, so I’ve been reading a lot more fanfics these days and revisiting some old ones as well. I just reread this fic again after a long time and it’s just as good as it was back then :) I don’t know what it is, I just really like your writing style.

Reading Paper Heart again now, from beginning to end, is kinda weird because I still feel all of the emotions that I probably did when I first read it in its entirety (which was so long ago that I don’t even really remember what I was feeling tbh). But it’s funny because I still experience all of the frustration and happiness and heart-flutters with thoughts like, “Oh my god if Baekhyun interrupts one more time I swear-“ and “Awww Sehun~” and “Wow, Chanyeol is really dumb.” I remembered some of my favorite chapters quite vividly, but I think I forgot enough of the fic for it to feel like I was reading it for the first time again, haha. And 6 years later, I love it all the same.

This was just a bunch of random blurbs, so I’m gonna stop now. 2020 was an awful year, so here’s to hoping that 2021 is better. I hope you are okay and doing well, both mentally and physically, despite everything that is happening with the pandemic. Stay safe.

See you next year (hopefully).
xiaolin98 #3
Chapter 29: I am glad that finally they choose to stay with each other. The happy ending. But, I can't help but wonder about Luhan's parents reaction too
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Chapter 29: Awwww sehun is so so romantic
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Chapter 27: Sehun!! You can't say that to your hyung really !!
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Chapter 26: Noooo.. why Luhan's parent is such a er really
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable
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Chapter 25: They are super diper aborable