(Hyukkie’s POV)

It’s all seems clear to me now. Hae love me not as a friend but as a lover. I’m so touched with his confession. I’ve never thought that being in love will be this ‘wonderful’, just like flying to the sky.

My heart beat still pounding like crazy, or I can say that in this point, my heart nearly jumping out from my body. I’m so nervous and my palms sweating. Luckily, Hae’s is hugging me right now so he will never notice my red face. Hell yeah, I’m madly blushing here!!

But I still need to clear my mind. I’ve waiting for Howon for so long and now he’s comeback to me. I’m so happy for it. At last, I found my long lost 1st love.

I can’t lie, I’m already falling deeply to Hae, who always be at my side, who really understand me, and who really cares about me. I love being with him, even as a friend. He asked me not to answer him now, because honestly I’m also didn’t have the answer. 

I’m so confuse! 

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We’re end up sleeping together, AGAIN. How I love his body heat. He is so comforting. Honestly, Hae is much more comforts than Howon. I can’t lie.

As I arrive at my class, I rush to my desk and there, another note is waiting for me!

To: Hyukjae.

Let’s meet after school.

Just wait for me, I’ll come to you.

From: H.

OH.MY.GOD! This freaking secret admires wants to meet me after school? I’m so nervous for God sake! But where should we meet? He didn’t state the place. So I guess, I’ll just wait this ‘H’ at my class. Is this ‘H’ is girl or boy? Haihh too many question in my mind!!

Should I tell Hae about this? He must be deadly jealous, even when he saw me talking with Hoya, he avoid me for a day. It’s so frustrating!

I need to tell someone about this! 'Yahhh pabo monkey, you still have your bunny!' I mentally slap my self. I should tell Minnie about this!

“Minnie-ahh. I want to tell you something!” I hug Minnie, who just arrived at our class with Kyu. Kyu send his famous glaring at me. 'Dammit, I won’t steal your Minnie! I’ve my own Hae, Hoya and this freaking secret admire!' If only I can tell him that! Hahaha! 

“Yeah, what’s up Hyukkie?” Minnie asks while blinking cutely to me. He so cute, I pinch his cheeks.

“Urmm, you know what? My secret admires asking me to meet him/her after school! How excited! At last I’ve my own fans! Yeayy!!” I said and jumping around him. I’m so happy right now. Not that I’ll easily falling to ‘H’, hell NO! It just, this mysteriousness is really caught my attention.

“REALLY? Can I meet ‘H’ too?! Please please please!” Minnie is whining at me but at least it’s not a bad idea. At least I've someone to introduce to 'H' later. 

“Okay, no problem, Minnie!” I smiles to Minnie. Kyu is now watching our childish act and giggling by himself, while me and Minnie is jumping and screaming like a mad person.

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I eat silently next to Hae at cafeteria. As usual, we will order two portions of strawberry pancakes and strawberry milks. I want to tell Hae about this ‘H’ thingy, but I’m afraid he’ll turn into jealous brat. Not that he already be my, ermmm, you know, BOYFRIEND but somehow I fell I want to tell everything to him. Should I or should not? Haihhh! Okay, I will tell him! 

“Err Hae, I need to show you something..” Then I take out all notes from ‘H’ and I can hear he let out a deep sigh.

“I know I’ve another competitor, other than Hoya.” He whispers to me. Then he continues, “Do you really going to meet him?”

I can see his hurt face, then he look down at his shoes. Before I can say anything, he stand up from his seat and say, “It’s your decision, I can’t force you not to. Good luck.”

He said that words with his low tone and he walk away from me. Oh my God, what have I done? I’m so heartless! I know we’re not in relationship, YET but I feel that Hae is already mine and I believe he’ll think the same.

He must be really sad right now. I need to find him. I chase him before he can disappear from my eyes, hold his hand, and turns him to facing me.

OH.MY.GOD! He’s crying! 'Nice move, Hyukkie. See what you have done, you freaking ! You making Hae cried!' I mentally punch myself.

I hug him tightly, so he can’t run away. I his hair, letting him cried out loud. People start to gathering around us, and honestly I don’t give a ! The most important right now is a person in front of me, the most important person in my life, Lee Donghae. There, I said it, HAPPY?!

“Hae, please stop crying. I’m really sorry.” I his back, now he’s sobbing! Dammit! “Hae, please listen to me. I’ll go meet him IF only you’re there with me.” I whisper to his ear. 

Then he nodded at my shoulder. He must being hard to speak because of his sobbing. I can understand that. Then I bring him to the men’s room and ask him to wash his face. Then I send him to his class. Today gonna be a long day!

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Me, Hae and Minnie is now waiting for ‘H’ in my class. Well I really cannot guess who this ‘H’ is. Then I heard knocking on the door. I can't lie, I am nervous!

Oh my God, it’s him! 'H’ is actually HOYA?!!!!! My 1st love, Lee Howon is my secret admire?!!

I'm stiff at my spot and I can't say anything, too shock actually! I can see Hae and Minnie also shocked like me. Honestly, I didn’t expect that, seriously! Hoya come to me and hugs me. Oh my God, I’m still shock the fact that Hoya is ‘H’ and with his sudden hug.

But my mind is only function for one person. My eyes are now searching everywhere to find Hae's eyes. DANGGGG!! I saw hurts and jealousy on his eyes! Then he closes his eyes, biting his own lower lip, take a deep breathe and he turn away, back facing me. He walks out from my class and leaving me behind with Hoya and Minnie.

"Hae..........." I whisper to myself.

Minnie looks at me, and then he turns his look to Hoya who still hugging me. He get confuse, I guess. I didn’t tell him yet about Hoya is actually my long lost 1^st love, Lee Howon and apparently Hoya is now turning out to be my secret admire!

My life is too complicated!

(End of Hyukkie's POV)

Author note: I'll update next chapter tonight! Let me have my meditation first, and let me gain more ideas!! Hehe ^^ So, please your comments and please subs!! Love ya ^^