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I am because we are (Ubuntu) [Permanent Hiatus]
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Lounging around the penthouse, Baekhyun took his time looking around. He didn’t snoop, that was invasion of privacy, but simply looked and admired at whatever is within his eyesight—Chanyeol leaving him for a while to take a shower; the cats now finally resting.

 

Currently, he’s standing in front of a plain white wall a few meters away behind the couch in the living room. It was blank with no hint of decoration, not even a plant on the side nor any form of decorative furniture. The whole wall was just.. white, a huge contrast to the beautifully decorated other walls. It was the only part of the penthouse that had nothing and he wondered why that is.

 

Walking around more, he spotted small picture frames by the table that stood directly behind the couch. There weren’t many pictures, or rather.. barely at all; only three picture frames. He looked at the first picture; it was Chanyeol’s high school graduation photo showing a radiating bright smile that Baekhyun did not know he had. So he did smile.

He moved on to the other photo, a picture of yet again a smiling Chanyeol hugging a young girl who looked a lot like him. Sister?

The next photo, he took a hold of. It was a picture of the same smiling Chanyeol from the last two photos with an arm around a pretty girl with the same smile. Is this his ex-girlfriend? The ex-girlfriend associated in the rumors? Furrowing his eyebrows, further thoughts filled his mind—this girl saw Chanyeol smile; she heard him laugh; saw him at his best. What about him? He barely knew anything. After a few months of friendship he’s only seen him smile for the first time this morning, it wasn’t even big. The sudden thought brought an unusual pang of pain to his chest. It wasn’t the usual pain he was accustomed to but.. is this how jealousy feels like?

 

Before he was able to question the pain he felt more, he felt a presence behind him and the picture frame he was holding was taken out of his hold and placed back on the table; this time however, faced down. He looked at Chanyeol in question but only received a hard stare.

 

An arm came circling around his waist and he was gently brought closer against the taller, startling him. For a moment, they simply stared at each other.

 

Gulping at the suddenly heavy atmosphere, Baekhyun blurted out the first words that flashed in his head.

 

“Was that girl… your girlfriend?” He asked with a hint of fear but overshadowed by curiosity as he looked at Chanyeol.

 

Instead of simply replying as is, Chanyeol drew himself closer and looked him straight in the eyes as he answered with a firm tone. “Ex-girlfriend.”

 

“Is she why.. you stopped smiling?” He couldn’t help himself. He knew he was stepping on unknown sensitive ground but his curiosity ate him. The next words that came out of Chanyeol’s mouth though almost caused him to choke whether out of surprise or panic.

 

“Mmm. Now the reason I’ll smile again would be you.”

 

The last time Chanyeol expressed his want for Baekhyun (or was that a subtle confession?), he was never really able to answer. So out of shock and the sudden mental breakdown of his mind at not knowing what to do, he just stood still in the taller’s embrace.

 

After a moment of silence, Chanyeol's eyes softened and spoke again. “Baekhyun.”

 

“Would you teach me?” Chanyeol’s arms around him tightened. “How to smile again?”

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exocholic
[Ubuntu] Hello! Just to let everyone know, a little update on the last chapter, it's already on the works! It looks like it's going to be a very long chapter though. So I may have to see if I'll update with what I currently have or just the whole last chapter in one go. But finally getting there! 😭

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MyLipsOnEXOs
#1
This fic is definitely the perfect one for winter. If anyone scrolls the comments they’ll see how often I reread this! At this point I would buy a physical copy of it.
Maya1990
#2
Chapter 95: When I saw in the title that it's in permanent huatus I went to the last ch to see where did it stopped and I swear to god I cried .... the pain I felt was REAL, the last 1000 words broke my heart 💔 now I want to read the whole thing knowing very well it will get me depressed
JuliaByun #3
Chapter 95: August 2023 and I still long for this story 🥹 I keep coming back because it demands my attention. I hope you’re doing great and well authornim ❤️❤️
walkinginmoonlight #4
Chapter 95: Ahh sometimes I get reminded of this fic and just how like, lovely it is? It's been years since I've last reread it, but I still remember it fondly, gosh the times when it had just started I still clearly remember. I was just reminded of aff being a thing today and had to try and remember my login.. I cannot remember if I commented on this chapter already but! Even if it's not the complete end, it's half of the end, so we've come pretty far since the beginning 😊 I know updates went from quick to rather slow, but seeing it's been awhile I got a bit worried so checked your twitter, and it's nice to see you're still doing well! Or, seemingly doing well. That you're still around and still enjoying our EXOs~❤️ so I hope you are doing well! And thank you for the very memorable fic 😊
MyLipsOnEXOs
#5
I've lost count of which rereading this is but this shall definitely always be my comfort fic. Whether it's the writing style or the details or the flow or the characters or maybe all of that together, there's just something that has me always coming back.

I read this for the first time in 2018, 5 years later it still holds a special place in my heart. I usually avoid starting new fics that haven't been updated recently, but just like my very first comment on this fic "It's on permanent hiatus but the foreword has me entranced so I will read it", the story is truly entrancing and gosh I'm grateful I read it!
Exofanland #6
Chapter 95: had to reread the last few chap bc its been so long and yes i am still crying my eyes out.
dreaming777
#7
Chapter 95: Hi there, I've left my aff account for so long an happy to see this update!!!! And truthfully I didn't expect I would still bawled my eyes out 😭
uwuness
#8
i keep coming back here just to check if authornim's have an update but no rush authornim, i can still wait :)))))) i'll reread this again because i'm missing this so much~

take care always~
uwuness
#9
i miss this so much 😭
hearteututu #10
Chapter 95: I’m back after many years and this made me cry so much. I really love this story and can still remember every scene vividly. Tysm for this wonderful and heartfelt chapter 💕