"Jonghyun~ah, i really really love you! I love you to the moon and back!" I planted kisses on his polaroid that I was holding. Damn. I've been head over heels at him for like a year? or more? I don't know. But one thing that I'm so sure of, was that, I'm loving him even more day by day and with each passing moment. Yuck! Was I being corny? Well, that's the effect of being inlove. We're being cheesy! 

 

"Is that me?"  O___________O I was surprised when someone spoke out of a sudden. I immediately shoved the polaroid inside of my pocket and slowly looked up (yes, looked up cos I was sitting on the arm chair whilst he was standing in front of me) at him. He looked at me with his usual facial expression--- poker face. Who was it? No other than, the love of my life, Kim Jonghyun. 

 

"N-no! It wasn't you!" I defended controlling my voice not to sound tremelous. 

 

"Really, huh?" he smirked and looked at me like my answer wasn't convincing. Sht! What to do? What to say? I'm not yet ready to confess!

 

"It wasn't you. It's...it's my Mom! Yeah, it's my Mom!" I reasoned out with crossfingers --- hoping that he'll believe me this time. Fck! I bet my face was red as tomatoes!

 

"Okay, as you said so" then he turned his back on me and walked away. Why do I feel like he was disappointed? Oh c'mon Taem! Don't assume! I heaved a heavy sigh. Shocks! That was too close! He almost caught me fantasizing over his photo.... over him.

 

It's not the right time to confess. He has a girlfriend for pete's sake! Yes, I am inlove with him but my conscience is incapable of ruining someone's relationship. It's better to stalk him and love him secretly rather than to confess when from the start, you know that you have no chance. You're a looser. I remember when he told me that he has no crush to me. That he'll never ever have a crush on me. It really hurts me. A lot. I cried a basin that day. 

 

"Taeminnie!!!!!!" 

 

I went back to reality when someone called out my name. My classmates weren't here at all. They were taking their lunch, maybe?

 

"Hey Taeminnie~~" 

 

I tilted my head and saw Key, smiling from ear to ear. 

 

"Did you see Jonghyunnie?" he asked in a soft voice. Did i say that this man in front of me was Jonghyun's girlfriend? 

 

I rose up my feet and pointed our classroom door where Jonghyun exited a while ago "He went outside" i said, trying to form a smile. Key, why I wasn't you? Why I wasn't Jonghyun's girlfriend? What's with you that I don't have? I gave myself a bitter smile. 

 

"Thanks," he uttered and started to walked away. I fixed myself. I only have 15 minutes to take my lunch so I need to hurry. 

 

"Oh wait, Taemin!" Key re-appeared on the door "Seonsaeng-nim said that you need to go to the gym immediately!"

 

I plucked my forehead out of confusion. 

 

"Why?"

 

"I don't know! Just go there! Bye!" he hollered, waving his hand, and sauntered.

 

 

Okay? So what's the matter? 

 

As what Kibum said, I went to gymnasium. I skipped lunch because I really feel that this is an important thing. Why woould seonsang-nim call me urgently? Did I do anything wrong? Did I violate some homeroom rules? But why'd in the gym instead to her office? Ugh! This is a quite mind-disturbance! 

 

Whilst heading to gymnasium, I accidentally heard some students gossiping about something.

 

"Yah~ I am so envious with Key!" - gossiper no. 1

 

"Me too! Jonghyun is the sweetest!" - gossiper no. 2

 

"IKR??? Let's go to gym and witness how sweet Jonghyun is!" - gossiper no. 3

 

 

HUH? WHAT WAS THAT? Would Jonghyun and Key will be having a flirtatous moment at the gym? Then, why'd Key told me to to go over there? To witness how perfect their relationship is? Tch. He used seonsang-nim, huh! No, thanks but I already knew that I was an effin looser! Jonghyun wouldn't be mine at all. I'd already stab it on my mind. I'm not going. 

 

I was about to turn back when someone grabbed my arm. 

 

"Yah~ Let's go to the gym and witness the cheesy happenings!!" Soojung, my bestfriend, said. Oh yeah, Soojung~ah, you are so right timing! *sarcasm please*

 

I opened my mouth to protest but before I utter a word, she dragged me. Ugh, this btch! 

 

When we reached to the gym, I saw a bunch of students unroaringly looking at the stage. Some of them looked with amusement on their faces and some of them were look envious. 

 

I placed my sight to the stage and I saw Kim Jonghyun holding an electric guitar with a lapel. He was seriously looking at me......... or i was just being assuming, again? 

 

 

"This song is dedicated just for you. Hope you'll like it" He said, still looking at me? I tilted my head at the back, thinking that there's someone behind me. But there's no one. So, he's really staring at me? And the song he'll gonna sing is dedicated for me? No. I shook my head. That's impossible, he has Key. 

 

Well, speaking of the legit girlfriend, I saw Key standing in front. Smiling widely. Seems like he was really proud of having a boyfriend like Kim Jonghyun... :----------------( 

 

Jonghyun started to strum his guitar...... The introduction was so soft that I wanted to close my eyes.

 

I cant fight this feeling any longer 
And yet Im still afraid to let it flow 
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger 
I only wish I had the strength to let it show 

 

Fck! How I really wish that I had the strength and guts to say that i am freakin' inlove with you, Jonghyun.
 

I tell myself that I cant hold out forever 
I said there is no reason for my fear 
Cause I feel so secure when were together 
You give my life direction 
You make everything so clear 

 

What if I confess? Will you ditch Key for me? I chuckled secretly with that thought. Why would he? when in the first place, he already informed me that he has no feeling for me? And besides, they're deeply inlove with each other so that is freaking impossible! I look--- no, I stared at him. His eyes were closed. He was definitely feeling the song and the moment... 

And even as I wander 
Im keeping you in sight 
Youre a candle in the window 
On a cold, dark winters night 
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might 
 

Jonghyun kept on singing. His voice was soothing to my veins...to my heart. 

And I cant fight this feeling anymore 
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for 
Its time to bring this ship into the shore 
And throw away the oars, forever 

 

He opened his eyes and smiled........................................... at me. My hearbeat becomes irregular. I feel like it's going to get out of my chest. Damn, the effect of this man to me!

 

"Ayiiieeeeeee!!!" I heard Soojung squealed. Wtf is the wrong with this woman? I glared at her and she gave me a "v" sign. Psh!

Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore 
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for 
And if I have to crawl upon the floor 
Come crashing through your door 
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore 
 

 

And the song ended. The students gave him a round of applause -- and so I did. 

 

 

"Thank you," he said and bowed. I saw Key ran to stage and hugged him. Ouch. 

 

The show ended and I guess my existence here wasn't need at all. I already witnessed how sweet he is, i mean they are, and I really hope that Key becomes happy, cos for the nth time, they broke my heart. 

 

I grabbed Soojung's hand.. "Let's get out of here" 

 

"W-wait a minute!" she protested but I never listened to her. Let's say that I am just taking back of what she'd do to me earlier. She harassed me. 

 

"Please don't go." that voice. That masculine voice detered me from taking a step. I froze. 

 

"Taemina~~~" his voice sounds like a plea. I don't know but I feel like crying...... "Taemina, please look at me,"

 

No. I won't. I bit my lips to prevent from crying. What is the meaning of this Kim Jonghyun? 

 

"Sorry..." he said. Sorry? Sorry for what? Sorry 'cos he couldn't return the love I have for him? or sorry because of the harsh words that he threw to me before? 

 

"Sorry because........" he paused for a moment. I heard the students whispering and I was here... frozen. 

 

"Sorry because......... I LOVE YOU!" my eyes widened. Did he just say the magic words? No, I just misheard it. 

 

"Taemin, I said I LOVE YOU!" i felt a hand on my shoulder...  O-okay... so I wasn't hallucinating? ASHDHGYEGYDGEEGYDE*&DE!!! Wtf! I wanna freak out but I think it's not the righ time. What if he was playing around? What if after those magic words, there's a hidden phrase at the last "Im just kidding"? 

 

I turned around and chuckled mockingly. "Love? You love me?" Im happy to hear it but for christ's sake! He has a girlfriend and where did he get his guts of confessing while his girl was around??? 

 

He nodded. 

 

"Stop fooling around Mr.! You have a girl-----------"

 

O___________________________________________________O

 

He cutted me from what I was saying when his lips met mine. He kissed me tenderly. His breathe smells a mint. It was tossing me. After a while, he gently cupped my face and he pulled me deeper to his mouth. I'm not moving. Im not kissing him back. 

 

"Oh my god....." i heard Soojung's voice behind me. And with that, I pushed Jonghyun. Fck! I almost --- i mean, he almost forgot that we're in front of our fellow students! That was embarassing! I stern at him but he return it with a seductive and playful smile. 

 

"Kibummie is not my girlfriend. We're siblings," he admitted and once again, my eyes widened. Even my fellow students and Soojung.. 

 

I looked at them with disbelief. I looked at Key and he was smiling. He nodded at me like he was saying that Jonghyun wasn't lying. 

 

"Sorry if we lied. Sorry if I didn't confess early. Sorry because I am deeply inlove with you, Taemin"

 

My tears started to fall. I was skeptical. I mean, I never thought that he also love me. 

 

"But you told me that yu have no crush on me!" I playfully hissed. 

 

"That's true.. I've no crush on you.." he confirmed. I frowned. How dare he? He's really playing with my feelings! Ugh! My tears started to fall and fall. I wiped my tears with my hand. 

 

"Hey.. don't cry" he hushed me. What is wrng with him??? Don't cry? Who wouldn't cry if someone told you that they loves you yet they have no crush on you??? He is clearly fooling my feelings! He's fooling me!

 

"Babe..." he cupped my face, again. I tried to pushed him away but he was just too strong. "Crush is just an infatuation. It means that you are just attracted to someone whilst LOVE is this deep emotional and mental feeling you get when your with a person and that's what I feel for you. This is not an infatuation, Taemin. I am inlove with you. I wanna be with you forever, make a happy ending with you." I cried again. Gosh! I feel so overwhelmed! This is just so good to be true. 

 

"I love ----"

 

I cutted him off because I kissed him. Just a smack.

 

I smiled and hugged him... "I love you..." i said.

 

"I love you most.." he answered.

 

I broke the hug and looked straightly to his eyes.

 

"I love you to the moon and back!"

 

Then we kissed, again. I heard the cheer from our  fellow student and their ear-breaking applause and whoop. 

 

This will be the start of our love story. This will be the start of our forever and happy ending :)