I walked to the dorms, into my room, threw down my bag, and jumped on my bed. I sighed, great…. Another reporter for Donghae…. Gosh! Do those people have no life? They’re like stalkers who get paid!

I rested on my bed for a bit, then my tummy rumbled… It’s 5PM right?

“FOOD!” I sang, and ran to the kitchen,

I looked in the fridge, and… I guess I’m making jajangmyun tonight!

I was cooking it (it was almost done too!), then Kyuhyun came in,

“Ah, evening Kyu” I smiled,

“What are you doing?” he asked,

“Making food” I smiled, he walked up to me, then hugged me,

“My wifey is making the members food” he said, I laughed,

“My wifey won’t let go of me” I said, and gently jumped, so he would let go.

“Who are you making it for though” he asked,

“For me, I’m really hungry” I said,

“Can you make some for me too?” he asked giving me his puppy eyes,

“Fine, just hold on ok?”

I quickly grabbed plates, put the jajangmyun together. And brought the plates to him.

“Hey Kyuhyun” I asked taking a seat at the table,

“What?” he asked getting out one of his many laptops (probably for Starcraft 2)

“Do you think Donghae’s going to be busy in August?” I asked,

He looked at me and blinked a few times, I was just stirring the noodles in the black sauce till the noodles became black,

“Well… Not the first week” he said, “But he will be the 2^nd week” he sighed,

“Ahh” I said eating the noodles. I stared at my plate of noodles, eating it like crazy. I looked up, and saw Kyuhyun staring at me,

“Y-you got something…” he said rubbing his index finger to the right of his lips indicating I have something in my mouth.

“Here?” I said, wiping away whatever was on the side of lips,

“No, here” he said motioning his finger again, I did it again,

Well, we kept on doing that for 30 more seconds,

“AISH!” he sighed, grabbed a napkin and leaned over the table to wipe off the stuff that was on my face. He was REALLY close… like… REALLY close to me! I looked at him, he looked at me, then our eyes met. "Idiot," he muttered, I looked at him

Gosh… he’s really… cute isn’t he…. Like… amazingly cute…

I just kept on staring at him. His dark brown eyes that were pretty much black, his white asian skin… his pink lips from singing… I noticed him leaning closer, I didn’t stop him, he was just 1 or two inches away from me, I closed my eyes, waiting for what would happen…

“A-hem” he said, I opened my eyes,  “I-I’m going to go and get some fresh air” he said, and got out of the dorm.

… WHAT WERE WE GOING TO DO?!

CRAP! He probably thinks I’m gay now…

AISH! I should probably say sorry to him right? Just wait till he comes back…

I walked into my room,

Ah! I should throw away that note to Donghae!

I opened my drawer…. It’s not there…. Don’t tell me…. HE READ IT!

HOLY CRAP! HE’S PROBABLY THINKING WEIRD THOUGHTS ABOUT ME WITH HANGENG BECAUSE OF THE P.S. THING I WROTE HIM!

Ok… I need to go on the roof! FRESH AIR!!

I quickly ran out of the dorm, and towards the roof. I ran up the stairs, then…

“I got you~ under my skin” Donghae sang, crawling on the ground…

… Hm… guess he’s not worried… but why the heck is he singing a DBSK song?

“N-no!” Donghae said, then laid on the ground,

I looked at Kyuhyun who was sitting next to the fire escape, staring at Donghae,

“Kyu, what’s Donghae doing?” I whispered, he looked at me,

“He says your in china, and he’s thinking about what you or Hangeng might do to each other there” he said.

I looked at Donghae….

Woow…. Just… wow….

He has a very y mind…

Maybe he doesn’t have a girlfriend after all…

“You have a very vivid imagination Hae” I said, he turned around,

“ALEX!!” he yelled and hugged me,

~*~*~*~

We were in the dorms, while he was staring at me, still asking me questions….

"Why are you back?" he asked,

"I remembered that it's almost August... So I have to go back to Mokpo" 

"Good girl" he sighed, 

"I guess," I sighed

“So have you called mom yet?” Donghae asked, I shook my head,

“Not yet” I sighed, “I’ll call her now,ok?” I looked at him,

“Ok, but are you really going to China soon?” he asked,

 I pretended not to hear him, dialing mom’s number “I’m going to call mom, see you” I said placing the phone on my ear, and walked into my room, locking the door.

I pressed “Talk” and listened to the phone ring.

“Hello?”

“Mom” I smiled,

“Oh, puppy! How are you?” she asked,

“I’m really tired because of Donghae” I sighed,

“Eh?” she sounded surprised, “What did he do?”

“Well… he made me to go to soo many places that now my legs hurt and I always have a headache”

“Aww, my poor puppy” she said,

“It’s okay mom, I’m use to it” I laughed,

“I’m surprised that he can drive all the way to your apartment and back all the time” she said,

“….What? Mom, what are you talking about apartment?”

“Well, I told you that you would live near Donghae, so I told him to get an apartment near him so he can keep an eye on you” she said,

“WHAT?!” my eyes widened, “Did you get the apartment, or did Donghae?!”

“I told him to be an adult and get one for you” she said, “But… why are you surprised about this?”

“Mom! I’m not living in an apartment by myself” I said,

“… WHAT?! Then where are you living?! In the streets?!” she asked,

“N-no, with the Super Junior members” I said,

“EH?!”

“I-I thought that was what you meant by living near Donghae!” I stuttered,

“No! Wait, you’ve been living there all this time?! How did the media not find out?! Did the members do anything to you yet?!” she asked,

“N-no… mom… What do I do?!” I asked,

“Hold on, I’ll call Donghae” she said, and hung up on me.

My heart was beating so fast, what did she mean by apartment?!

I opened the door, Donghae was talking to mom,

“Mom! I had to do this!” he said, “Mom! Do you know how expensive Kyung Hee is?!” he sighed, “Mom please, the members think of her as a sibling!” he whined, “MOM! Kyung Hee is the best school there is! I want her to go there! Yes there were other schools that were good too, but they were also expensive!” he said, “Mom! You living with Donghwa and Noona is so much already! I’m trying to spend less money on things we don’t need! Besides! I have to pay off all of Donghwa’s debt!” he said, “Mom, do you know how hard this has been for me?!” he said, choking a bit, “Not Kyung Hee?! Then what?! What other school!? They’re all so expensive! I don’t get paid so much! She can go to the same university with me! Then I’ll always be with her!” he said, “What do you expect her to do?! Ask for permission to leave for a bit so we can pay?” he asked, “Mom, I’ve also having a hard time paying! All of us can’t pay her tuition right now” he said, “Let’s just ask for that and pray for what’ll happen next” he sighed, “Bye” he whimpered then hung up.

I hid back in my room.

Is Kyung Hee that expensive with a small scholarship?

I could feel tears fall down my cheeks,

My phone rang again,

“Alex…” she said,

“Mom, it’s ok, I can ask permission to be absent, I don’t mind since our family is having trouble with money” I whimpered,

“Alex, are you sure?”  she asked,

“Y-yeah, my brain won’t go numb after a short while” I said, “I’ll be fine!”

“Alright, don’t worry, mom will try her best to pay for the college ok?” she asked me with her voice sounding so calm,

“Alright, love you, also… I’m coming over on the 2^nd ok?” I asked,

“Alright” she said, “I gotta go to take care of your nephew” she said, and hung up.

I sat down, with tears streaming down my face.

Gosh… So… I guess I’m not going to college for a while…

My phone rang again, I checked the caller ID…

Hangeng…

It’s a video call…

I picked it up, then saw him smiling at me, which then turned into a frown,

“What’s wrong?” he asked,

“W-what? What are you talking about?” I faked a smile, “I’m fine! SEE!” I said giving him a thumbs up and an even bigger fake smile,

“Alex, what happened?” he asked, I shook my head,

“Bao Bei doesn’t have to worry about anything!” I smiled,

“But Alex” he said,

“So, what do you want to talk about?” I asked, trying to change the subject,

“I was gonna say, I’m coming over in November since you might be having a hard time to study ‘cause of Tests” he said,

“A-ah, no! It’s ok,” I said,

“Well, since I have work over there, might as well come right?” he smiled, “But Bao Bei” he said, I looked at the phone and saw him staring at me,

“What is it?” I smiled, he gave me a worried look,

“If you have anything to say, just tell me” he said,

“I-it’s nothing” I said,

“You’re mine now, I want to know” he said,

“It’s nothing” I said,

“I really want to know”

“Geng” I said and looked back at my phone, “Come over soon ok? I gotta go” I said, and hung up.

My phone rang again, I checked it,

Hangeng….

Ignore it Alex… Ignore it…

I walked to my bed, and curled up into a ball.

Stop calling… please stop calling…

“Alex” Donghae knocked on my door, “Can I come in?” he asked,

I sat on the bed, silent as ever… My heart hurts so much…

Please leave me alone to cry…

“Hyung… What’s wrong?” I could hear Kyuhyun’s voice,

Guess he stopped playing Starcradt 2 for a bathroom break

“Nothing” Donghae said, then knocked on the door again, “ALEX! OPEN THE DOOR!” he yelled,

I was silent…

Why can’t people be quiet in this house?!

That’s it.

I grabbed my small messanger purse, and put my phone in it. I opened the door and saw Donghae and Kyuhyun staring at me,

“I’m going out” I mumbled and walked out of the dorm,

“Alex!” I could hear Donghae say, I walked towards the door,

“It’s ok, I’ll be back” I said, and walked out of the dorm, and into the streets.

… I’m such a liar… I’m not ok… I wanna crawl under a rock and cry….

~*Donghae POV*~

“Alex!” I said, taking a step forward,

“It’s Ok, I’ll be back” she said, and left,

I turned to Kyuhyun, he looked at me,

“What’s going on?” he asked,

“Alex… She just found out that we don’t have enough money to pay for any of the colleges she applied for” I said,

“What?!”

“She for some reason didn’t get the entire scholarship, only half of half….”

“But, she was in America! Doesn’t that do anything?” he asked

“I don’t think so” I sighed,

“What do we do now?” he asked, then one of our phones rang, I ran to pick it up,

“Hello?” I asked,

“YAH! WE HAVE WORK RIGHT NOW! WHERE ARE YOU?!” Siwon yelled, I sighed,

“Where are you at?” I asked,

~*~*~*

~*Alex POV*~

I walked at the park, aish… It’s already 9…. Aish… so late….

My heart was hearting so much… So… So much….

I can’t go to Kyung Hee… I can’t go to Kyung Hee…

I sat on the park bench, staring blankly at the ground.

I clenched the side where my heart was…

Stop it… Stop it…. Please tell me this is a dream….

Why?! Why does this have to happen to me?!

“Excuse me” a voice said, I turned around and met an unfamiliar man,

Click

My eyes widened.

“W-who are you?” I asked, he smiled, then walked away.

Ok, walk away! Walk way!

I walked to a convenience store, and looked around,

I’m thirsty…

I got a Dr. Pepper, then started to look at the candies. Ok, I not only didn’t  bought Dr. Pepper, but lemon drops, sweet tarts and smarties!

I walked up to the counter, and started to look at the magazine covers. My eyes widened,

“SUPER JUNIOR CHOI SIWON IS DATING?!”

"Just so typical for kimchi rats to come spread their peanut butter, aka s**t all over the place. Can't Kimchis get a life and realize how f*****g pathetic and inferior they are, sheesh. All the girls here are better than plastic surgery dog eating c**k kimchis."