Hesitating
Jae Mi and her 7 Prince Charmings
Sunday evening
" Oppa , I'm home " I called out . I've just reached home after a hard day at the cafe . It's sunday and a lot of people was there , we were all very busy serving the customers ... I dragged my feet into living room and saw someone else was there except for Jae Jin oppa ... It was Hyun Joong oppa .
" Hyun Joong oppa , you're here to discussed with Jae Jin oppa about the teacher's day party again ? " I asked , knowing the answer ...
" Ya , the teacher's day is just around the corner , of course we have to finished up the preparations faster . " Hyun Joong oppa answered . I sat down on the sofa beside Hyun Joong oppa and nodded my head in understanding . " How's your day ? You look worn out ... " Hyun Joon oppa asked in concern .
" It's a tiring day at work and many things have happened this few weeks , I just felt very ... tired ... " I sighed .
" Maybe you should quit your part time job , Jae Mi . You should concentrate on your studies , you know ... It's not like I can't support you ... Appa and Umma will also sent us some money every month , plus my pay , it's enough to feed us both ... " Jae Jin oppa looked at me worriedly .
" You need to study too ... I just want to help you lessen your burden ... "
" But you're look so fragile ... You're not used to working outside for others , you should just quit ... " Jae Jin oppa frown .
" Stop arguing about whether she should keep her job or quit . Just let her keep her job if she want , she's trying hard to be a good girl ... You should be happy , not complainig ... " Hyun Joong oppa smiled at me " Aren't you ? "
" You see , even Hyun Joong oppa is siding with me ... "
" Fine . I lost ... " Jae Jin oppa sighed .
" So , what else bothering you except for your job ? " Hyun Joong oppa asked .
" Hmm , a lot have happened lately ... I don't think I can handle so much things properly in such a short time ... " I answered .
" What happened ? " Jae Jin oppa asked concernly .
" Well , do you remember the two person that we've met last time while shopping for my birthday present ? Actually , that guy , Kim Bum oppa , he was my senior in school and also my crush ... " I started explaining about all the things that have happened between me , Kim Bum oppa and So-Eun to Hyun Joong oppa . " And then , yesterday , both GiKwang oppa and HyunSeung oppa had confessed to me ... " I then went on to explain about what had happened between me , GiKwang oppa and HyunSeung oppa . " What should I do ? "
" Don't worry , everyone have their ups and downs in their life , you are just experiencing one of the problems in your life , there's more to come later on . So just follow your heart and do what you think is right . " Hyun Joon oppa started . " If Kim Bum doesn't like you , then there's no point in thinking about him any longer . Just forget about him , which I think you would . For HyunSeung , I know you don't want to hurt his feelings , but if you don't like him , then you should let him know . What you did is right because if his feelings for you get deeper , it will only hurt him more . As for GiKwang , do you like him ? "
" I don't know . He's really handsome and he's also very good to me ... It feels great being with him , but I think it's just like a friend ... I mean , I like him but it just doesn't feel ... right ... I mean he's like perfect , he's kind , caring and rich , but I don't think what I feel for him is called love ... "
" Reject him then , since he's not the one you love . Remember , always follow your heart , so you will not regret your decisions . If you think he's not the one for you , then reject him . If you think you like him , then maybe you want to try it out with him . Date him . You will get your answer as time passes by . You can just break up with him when the answer is not him , but beware , it will hurt his heart further more ... "
" You mean I should accept him ? "
" Follow your heart ... I couldn't make the decision for you ... " Hyun Joong oppa answered .
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I lay on my bed thinking about what Hyun Joong oppa has said earlier this evening ... I have to make up my decision by today , if not I wouldn't be able to face GiKwang oppa tomorrow . I had a hard time deciding ... What should I do ? I don't wish to hurt his feelings ... If I accept him , and as the time passes , the answer came out that I don't like him , I would have hurt his feelings further more than if I reject him now ... Should I accept him ? Or should I reject him ? Ahh , this is so confusing ! This is harder than I thought it would be ...
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