"Self-inflicted pain. Absolute silence, darkness and hunger. I craved to feel it. And so I did. By now, it's the second day that I've been sitting in this darkness, in the room I share with Hongbin and Jaehwan-hyung. I've locked myself in, without food, without a spare thought for the rest. Suddenly, I became deaf, blocked out all other noises except silence. I liked it here, though. In this little world I made.

...

In those letters, it was evident that Ravi made the effort to make me think everything was fine, but I knew it wasn't. I knew that VIXX was falling apart because of me. And I liked it. I wanted everyone to hate me, I really wanted to be alone. I wanted to die, but I made no effort to.

Maybe I really was that devil they call me. I feel like I was, anyway. “You guys made me into this.” I felt like saying that to everyone. I get comments and hate for bringing the group down, so here I am, bringing them further down. If I can’t prove how good I am, this is what I want to do. What happened to me? I don’t know. 

I forgot."

Author's Note:
Ayoooo! It's been long since I wrote a fic but yay, here it is.
I've been writing this fic for quite some time but it's still short.
But I guess I'll release the first chapter soon? ^^
It's a little (or might be very, depends on how I continue) angsty.
So, yeah. I don't think I am going to include any character deaths.
Honestly, in respect of Eunbi 언니 and Risae 언니~ 
But yeah. Above was a preview I guess? 
an EXTREMELY short one.
ps. this fic is written in Hyuk's point of view.

pps. looking for someone that can design the fic poster for me. heh :p

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