CHAPTER 020: Rumors And Anxiety Attacks.               "Where are you going?" Yuri pulls Chanyeol's hand. The boy turns around and looks down at his girlfriend. He had forgotten she was there in the first place.         "Hello? Earth to Chanyeol?" She repeats with a stern frown.    Chanyeol stops staring to answer her, "Sorry. Hana is sitting with the guys and I want to know why. She's very socially awkward," he turns to look at you, "I don't understand why she'd suddenly sit with them."   Yuri stays still and she doesn't stop looking at her boyfriend's face. It kind of bothers her, maybe just a little as to why he cares so much about you.        "Why do you care?" She asks.   Chanyeol thinks about it for a second before shrugging, "She's my friend."   Was, actually, but he'll never admit to the reality.          Yuri's eyes flicker to you for a second, you looks nervous but not that uncomfortable.           "She looks fine, Chanyeol," She says and pulls on his hand again, "Let's just go have lunch, like usual."   Chanyeol shakes his head, "No, I know the guys and they're gonna make her uncomfortable. Can't we just sit down with them?"   Yuri groans and now she is really annoyed, "Oh god. Fine, but we're not sitting down with them. You can sit on a table close to them." And then she glares at him and walks away to make the line and grab some food.          "Are you mad?" He asks after her and a couple of people look their way.       *********************      

It's Suho who speaks first. 

  You put your whole attention on the class president and it's obvious he's nervous about speaking to you, or about you, in this case.         "Kris, what are you doing?" He asks and he glances briefly at you and at Eunsul to make a point.    Kris snorts, "What does it look like I'm doing? I'm proving my theory! Putting all the pieces together!"   You shift awkwardly on your seat. Youre sitting in between Eunsul and Kris.   You're burning red and your heart is beating rapidly.    You really want to leave. Mostly since everyone is watching.         "What theory?" Eunsul asks because it seems like no one else at the table is asking.   Eunsul is very intimidating so the boys try their best to not stare right at her.          "When I first came here," Kris begins, "They told me there was this girl called Hana who was known as the Ice princess and that she was a total rude ."    You look around you, the boys look nervous and uncomfortable. When you look at Kris, he looks very determined.           "Did you or did you not?" He continues and you want to tell him to stop because he's hurting you and creating an awkward atmosphere around everyone.    You don't need to know what they say about you, is better if you don't, actually. Yet, you still want to.   Sehun shrugs, "I mean, yeah... But that's because that's exactly how you act."   He's looking right at you. It feels suffocating. The way people are looking at you, the way Sehun looks at you. It's the same curious yet hard stare everyone in the cafeteria has at the moment. They all want to know what you're doing there, how your voice sounds. Will you lash out and yell like the rumors say you'll do if a person speaks to you?   You want to speak but your throat hurts and your lips are dry and it's embarrassing and tough to even say a word. You want leave.        "She's not like that," Eunsul says and it warms your heart and makes your fist clutch, "Those are stupid little rumors people make up because they don't know her."   Kris adds, "And you're all dumb for believing in them in the first place. Hana is a total dork and those rumors are ed up."   A crowd has formed around- it's a small crowd but a crowd nevertheless. The rest of the people keep their distance because they don't want to be involved in the drama. Who knows, you'll probably kill them! At least that's what they think.         "Well, look at her," Some girl behind Baekhyun says. You don't even know where she came from. "She's sitting there frozen like a rock. She probably wants to murder us now." She laughs bitterly and it makes you want to cry because you don't know what to say. You've never seen her before so you don't understand how she would think that about you or why she would say that out loud as if it was a fact. Does she hate you? Why?   Kris glares at her and so does Eunsul.    Eunsul glances up at her, "What's your name?" She says and leans in the table, still staring up at her.    The girl looks at her and the dangerous glint in her eyes. She tries to have an indifferent expression on, "I'm Hayoung," she shrugs it off and smiles.   Eunsul nods, "Okay." I'll make sure to remember your name.         "Hey, why are you all here?" Kris asks and his twisting around his seat to see the crowd around. He looks annoyed, "Can you all please get out of our personal space? I don't even know you guys."         "Come on," some boys say, "We want to know what the Ice princess is doing now. Is she revealing her true colors? Come on, let us in the drama, Kris!"   They say it like if they knew him, which they don't. It's all games to them but to you it isn't. Because you're the victim of all these empty rumors.          "Get out," Kris glares, "It's nothing serious."   Some people murmur a couple of things and leave but a majority stays.          "Is it true that you cheat to be top student?" Some random voice shouts from behind.   You freeze in your chair and concentrate on your breathing. What's going on? Why are you here? Who are all these people! You have a right and you don't need to be here.   There's the swirling in your head and your heart throbbing and you keep seeing all these faces that you are not familiar with. The crowd gets bigger and you don't understand why.    You nudge Kris on the side, "Can I leave?" It comes out softly, almost a whisper and it shocks the people around because you're speaking, but it shocks Kris the most.   It's weird that you're asking for permission and that you're silently asking him, above all. You could just get up and scream at everyone to move like you usually will do.    But then again, isn't that bad? Isn't that proving their point that you are rude and hate them all?   Kris stares at you. You look like you're about to cry and you're lower lip is wobbling.    The crowd, the noise, the stares- it's all too much. It's making you frantic and you want to cry.    This feeling isn't new, it comes when you're facing big problems and people. Just that now, it's up to its . You run away when the situation is too much, before it gets worse. But now you can't.         "Are you okay?" Kris asks, concerned. You shake your head.    You feel like you can't breath. Kris didn't think it would be this much of a deal. He just wants to clear your name.        "I heard she sleeps around with the basketball team. Is that why she's sitting with you guys?" Some boy says. Eunsul looks up at him, "What did you say?" She scowls at him and the boy steps back.       She stands up, "Watch your mouth, baby boy. Stop spreading rumors about people if you don't know them!"   Two more boys come to his defense and Eunsul begins to argue.    You look around you again and you feel tears in your eyes. You hate confrontation.        "Is she okay?" Tao and Suho ask Kris. The people are still accusing you of things and you ignore them and close your eyes.   Kris looks at you and he panics at seeing your face become very pale and you look like a lost puppy who can't breath.    The boys notice this, at least Kyungsoo and Jongin do and they take action right away. People are squeezing them against the table and it looks like it has an effect on you too. You look breathless.        "Can you go back to your seat?!" Kyungsoo yells at someone who's saying something to you about your 'attitude problem'.        "Leave her alone," Jongin says and he pushes a couple of boys away. Why is the crowd so big?    Because of Kyungsoo and Jongin, The rest of the boys look at you and the way your breathing is harsh and you're looking around paranoid.    You're not okay. They want to give you space.        "You cheat your way to the top, Song!"   "Why are you so serious all the time?"  "I bet you're sleeping around!"  "You think you're better than everyone else?"  "Speak!"  "You think you're miss perfect?"   And they're all laughing as if it was a joke.    You meet all their eyes and you can't take it anymore. You want to scream and cry and tell them to leave you alone! This is all your fault, you look at Kris and you want to tell him that but you can't speak. Your voice is caught on your throat.   Kris is arguing with some girl.                  Chanyeol sees the mess of people and exchanges a strange look with Yuri, who's sitting in front of him.        "What's happening?" She asks and listens to all the screaming and the mob of people around you. She laughs, "Guess Hana is very popular, huh?"   Chanyeol looks away from her and stands up, trying to get a good view of what's going on inside the circle of people. He wants to see you, see your facial expression. You don't like noise and people and you're probably panicking in there.          "I'm gonna go see what's wrong?" He says and Yuri opens to protest and tell him that she's his girlfriend and should focus on her, but Chanyeol is already walking away. She slumps down on her seat and sighs.           Chanyeol can't see inside the swarm of people. He walks closer and tip toes to see inside and what he sees- he does not like. You look on the verge of tears. He has seen that face too many times to know that what it indicates is no good.    Anxiety attacks is one of them.    He sees that Kris is sitting next to you, arguing with some girl, telling her to grow up and stop being rude. That girl, Eunsul, he recalls, is screaming at some boys. The cafeteria is in an uproar. Everyone is loud and you hate it, he knows you do.    You look awful and you're looking around frantically.    He doesn't think twice and pushes people out of the way. Somebody hits him on the ribs and another person elbows him in the face. In conclusion, Chanyeol is pissed.         "Get out of the way!" He yells and then his hip touches the end of the table and he's in the center of the situation.    Everyone is arguing with somebody else and he realizes, after listening, that it all revolves around you. People are calling you names and accusing you.         "Chanyeol!" Sehun and Kyungsoo say at the same time.         "What's going on?" He asks.   Kris looks up at him and so does Hana.        "What do you want?" Kris asks, a hard look on his face, ignoring the questions from people being thrown at him.    Chanyeol doesn't look at him, he faces Hana, instead. She looks up at him with pleading eyes and she looks like she can't breath. He frowns and then he remembers Hana's problem with crowds and people- which was why he came there in the first place.   He goes around the table to her and Kris frowns because he