You can't make someone love you when He doesn't... 

Especially when he loves someone else..

all I can do is watch the person I've loved for 2 years stare at someone else with so much adoration in his eyes, plump lips curving upward forming a small smile that hides so much emotions...

I can't make his heart feel something it doesn't feel for me... Something it only feels for Byun Baekhyun.

I can't make him look at me with a loving gaze... Like  the way he looks at Byun Baekhyun.

I close my eyes so I don't see the way he looks at the petite brunette and imagine that those warm gazes were meant for me. That bright smile was for me, not for Baekhyun and those " I love you's " he unconsciously says when he sleeps were meant for me... And mine alone.. 

" Who am I kidding? " i said to myself and chuckled bitterly..

How long will I be able to stand this one-sided love? How long will I allow him to break my heart? How long can I keep on lying to myself-- no scratch that -- How long will i pretend that I don't see and feel his love for Baekhyun? 

Sooner or later I will have to face reality.. I can't just shut my eyes forever and decieve myself...

Hearts are very stubborn organs.. You can never tell your heart to feel this and that. Love him not that guy..

Same with Jongin's heart.. I can't dictate his heart to love me, to reciprocate my feelings and I can't teach it to beat for me.. 

Not now.. Not ever..

Its already chosen Byun Baekhyun and not Oh Sehun...

I can't change that anymore...

I can't make him love me.