Chapter 4

ずっと一緒に
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The following week was spent entirely in guilt and remorse; practically everything around me were gloomy, tasteless and uninteresting. all because I weren't able to apologise to Ryosuke for my tantrums that night at the sushi bar. I looked high and low for him but it was like he vanished. is he avoiding me? or he's taking a break? or has he quit?! all possibilities cramped in my head and I feared for the remaining weeks here if Ryosuke wasn't here. it'll be boring, and there'll be nothing to look forward to. most importantly, I need to say sorry to him! He needs to wash the negative impressions of me off his mind. fleeting concentration was my most serious problem this week, and screw ups were most often, even Dr Jin has to personally ask if I'm okay. 

  today, it was Nanase-san who summoned me... I dragged my feet to her office, mentally prepared that she'll nag or reprimand me.    I knocked on her door and after her cue, I entered cautiously like a mouse entering the lion's cage.   there, I bumped into him at the door. it was a complex feeling of surprise and relief.   "Ryosuke!" I grabbed his arms and jumped in excitement. "I thought you disappeared and will never see me again!"   "woah... Mirai! you can let go of me first, it hurts" he pointed at his arms and I was totally unaware of the strength I exerted. Daiki is right, I'm really not feminine~when is my strength that great? I quickly released my hands and lowered my head to hide my embarrassment and look apologetic.   "Mirai, why would I not see you again? silly" he ruffled my hair, with the same gentleness as my brother.    "now that you saw Ryosuke, you can focus on your task right?" i realised Nanase-san's intention of calling me over - to give me a ease of mind.   "arigatou, Nanase-san" instead of me, Ryosuke was the one who said. he pulled me out of the nurse's room and faced me with a soothing expression.   "I wasn't avoiding you. I've been busy with something else this week."   "I thought you were angry with me so... I thought..."   "why should I be angry over you. on the contrary, it should be you getting angry at me. Gomenasai, Mirai. I should've been more sensitive. I didnt mean what I said, it's a misunderstanding. you are a great girl... any guy with you would be really fortunate."   heat rushed up my face, and i felt feverish. his compliment sounds so sincere and music to my ears. he's technically the first guy who praised me. this is who I call a real gentleman, instead of those who kept teasing me.    "still, I need to apologise for my tantrums that day." I lowered my head until I saw his hand stretched out.   "friends?" i looked up and saw his smiles like the moon in the night sky. I received his handshake with delight written all over my face.    the serenity and calmness were interrupted by the noise from the children's ward. I threw an irritated glance in that direction, but quickly concealed it when Ryosuke responded to the noise.   "lets check out what's happening~" he said while looking anxiously in that direction.   "sounded like Yuto~" I exclaimed when I listened carefully to the deeper voice engulfed by 2 high pitch whining.   "and Miki and Erika..." he continued as he made his way towards the ward. I followed behind him while trying to recall who these 2 girls he mentioned are... sounded familiar.   when we dashed in, we saw a messy scene. Yuto was caught in a fix with 2 sobbing girls whose cries are thunderous. upon closer look, I realised I do know them. the 2 pesky kids who took my phone and made me chase all over for them.   "Mika, Erika, what's wrong?" Ryosuke relieved Yuto from the agony, bent down and pulled the 2 girls closer to him. I saw how tender-loving he was, it made my heart felt extremely fuzzy. in fact, his little comforting gestures warmth the room and the 2 girls eventually quietened down. it was like they only respond to him. well, I was one of the beneficiary of his comfort just last week, and he does have that potential to heal the broken heart. just his presence seemed enough.   "nichan, we wanna go to the zoo! Yuto nii promised us!" it was like the 2 girls were complaining to Ryosuke.   "I didn't. I merely said once they're better, they can go. I never promised to bring them~ I swear" Yuto was like a small kid defending himself, but it made look really bad in front of the hopeful girls. Ryosuke gave Yuto a subtle nod to convey that he has everything under control.    "what about the two of you ask Nanase-san if you can go? if she says yes, then the 3 of us will bring you there. okay?" Ryosuke suggested, while turning to us for support. we both nodded in synchronicity and almost immediately, because it was a good deal. at least for me, I don't have to be stuck in this gloomy space and I can play in the zoo. it has been long since I've been there.   "hooray! we'll go ask Nanase-san now!" the 2 girls ran hand-in-hand towards the nurse office. the ward quietened down when there were only the three of us left.   "I'm sorry I drag you guys into this. if you're not willing..."    "it's Alright! we'll be more than happy to go, but will Nanase-san allow? er... are they healthy enough to be moving around?" Yuto beat me to answering Ryosuke's question that shocked me beyond words.    "I don't know. but I think that as long as they have gone for their latest review and treatment for about a week already, then it should be safe. if you're curious, lets follow them to Nanase-san's office and we'll see what she says. besides, we need to consult her what to take note when we bring them out"   "sounds good. alright."  as soon as he finish saying, Yuto led the way, leaving me and Ryosuke trailing a little slower behind Yuto. there was some doubt in me, and I struggled to think of how to put it across. I gently tapped Ryosuke's shoulder, and he stopped and turned.   "nani?"   "Ryosuke... I don't know if it's okay to ask. but what's wrong with Mika and Erika?" I bite my lips nervously as I phrased my question, hesitant and nervous.   "their situation aren't hopeless, if that's what you are worrying. they're born with liver failure, and you know how important the liver is to you... they're waiting for a transplant, and in the meantime, they'll undergo regular treatment to ensure their other organs won't be affected. as far as i know, they become exothermic when their situation takes a turn. that's when they need treatment right away."    "but, they're still so young... it's so sad to see them hiding their pain..."   Ryosuke cupped my shoulders and looked into my eyes, causing my heart to skip a beat. "you know, these 2 girls are braver than any of us, are happier than any of us. all we can do for them is to give them those little childhood that they missed. ne, Mirai?"   I nodded with a smile, just when Yuto hurried us to catch up with him.    " Nanase-san agreed~" Yuto told the 2 of us when we arrived at the office. the 2 girls were jumping in excitement and circled around Ryosuke like 2 chipmunks. I could hear Ryosuke's soft giggle when he scoop up Erika in his arms while holding on to Mika's hands. "Nichan, you'll go with us right?"   "yea, I promised. we'll all go. can we, Nanase-san?" Ryosuke directed his gaze at the nurse, while me and Yuto did likewise with an optimistic face.   "yes, surely. but I need all of you to take care of each other, keep each other close, and if there's anything amiss, call me immediately. we'll send an ambulance right away. Ryosuke, you know what to do, right?" she asked him specifically, and he nodded. oh well, me and Yuto are new, and Ryosuke knew all their conditions, that's pretty obvious why Nanase-san put him in charge. just when I thought we can simply enjoy the day without any burden, Nanase-san held us back in the office while Ryosuke brought the 2 girls to prepare for their day trip.   "this is a list of precautions to take note when you care for Mika and Erika. I need the 2 of you to stay full alert."   "no worries. there's still Ryosuke" the nurse's stare turned serious when I said that, and Yuto slapped my lap to shut me up.   "you can't just push everything to him, can you?"   "Gomenasai, Nanase-san. we'll take note. don't worry" Yuto apologised while I sat motionless, stunned by her sudden change of attitude. Yuto grabbed me by the arm and pulled me out of the room as soon as the conversation wrapped up. he looked at me sternly.   "are you trying to slip your way out of responsibility?"   "no, I'm not. how can you say that?!" I got a little emotional when Yuto spoke to me in a fierce tone which I've never seen.   "then be careful of what you said. you obviously upset her just now"    "I'm sorry I hurt your lady!"   "what the hell are you saying?! my lady?!"   "as if it's not obvious enough you have a torch for her, and she does for you too. it's mutual! anyway, don't worry, I'll take more of everything she says!" I snatched the list of precautions from him and stomped towards a mini volkswagen. a hospice staff has kindly offered us a ride to the nearby zoo which is only a 30 minutes drive from here. on the way, I brushed past Ryosuke who appeared to have witnessed the whole confrontation.     "how could you say that, Mirai... how could you not know my feelings... " Yuto murmured to himself, though Ryosuke probably read from his facial expressions. feigni
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Alemisa #1
Oh My God! My heartaches so badly!!!!!! Can’t get my feelings straight
CNBDania
#2
Chapter 34: Hallo, I'm new reader here and i want to ask your permission... Please,,, let me scream this time.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH......
I can't shed tears anymore.... This story... Really....really make me emotionally affected. I love this story so much,,, except the part when ryo-chan died... I hate you at that part.
Yamashifan #3
Yamashi~~~~
Love your story!!!
dipidip
#4
Chapter 34: I love so much the farewell part between Ryosuke and Mirai :" Good ending :'' Good plot! Good cast! Awesome story!! Aaa Thank you so much for your hard work :D I get many good things from this story, thank you!
greyrani
#5
Chapter 34: The END? Woaah, I didn't see it coming at all, but it's nice to end here, cause the center of the plot is Mirai and Ryosuke, right? Happy ending for everyone...ずっと一緒に...
I don't even know how to express my feeling, Mei-chan. As I told you before, this fic touches me much, not only because it has awesome plot, but also I can relate to it. The most touching part is when Mirai decides to let go of Ryosuke. I know how it feels. Moving forward doesn't mean forgeting our deceased beloved, instead we fulfill his wish as he would never want us to dwell in the past, right? That's what I believe and I'm glad to read it out in this fic.

Thank you for this wonderful story, Mei-chan...
Otsukaresama dea... >_<
Ghiekaye #6
Chapter 34: It is an awesome story (^_^)
I was in tears while reading
otsukaresama dea (^_^)
jesstxt #7
whoa, this is sadly the first time I've seen a HSJ story on aff. (I know, shame on me) but I really am looking forward to start reading this, even if I am a little too late.
ichigoainosuke
#8
Chapter 34: someone, hand me a bucket please... /sobs/
It's really a great end! :")
Thank you for making me laugh, jealous, cry, etc while reading those 34 chaps..
Otsukaresama dea!!! ^^/
sayumi_yuma
#9
THE END.. :( This is the very beautiful story. I am so glad because can read this story. Otsukaresamadea. Hontou in arigatou for this beautiful story. :) Zutto Issho ni..
Wallfllower
#10
Chapter 34: T^T This is very beautiful fic. You made me cried badly till the end. Thank you for work hard for this fic. Hontouni Arigatou.