I woke up specially early today because he's coming...to visit me. How I miss him so bad, not a second, a minute, nor an hour

that I never thought about him. As I look at my own reflection on this tainted mirror, I feel like I'm already seeing him staring

back at me with those brown scorching eyes. Its been three months since he purposely sent me away on this facility, ever since he

left me here that day I've always remembered those last words that he said before he left...”This is for the best...forgive me

HyoSang...but we have to make it stop. Its not helping neither of us, if you continue this I'll lose you and I don't want

that to happen...I love you...and you know that...please, do this for me...for us HyoSang...you'll make it and we'll start a new

day”. Those were the exact words that he said before he left me here. His words were full of hope and love that I was so blind to

see. At first I felt betrayed by him, he says he loves me then why was he doing this? sending me away...away from the things that I

loved...especially away from him. I really don't get it. The following days were the worst. I'm shaking, sweating and slowly losing

control, nightmares were coming and haunting me every single night, and I easily get paranoid on such simple things. I need

you...please...I'm scared.

 

A month have already passed when I've learned what was really happening to me. Doctor Kim HimChan told me that it was just

normal for my case, the involuntary shaking, twitching and profusely sweating was some common signs of withdrawal

syndrome. Yes, you probably guess what's really my case. I always thanked HimChan hyung whenever we have our so called

“healing sessions”, that's what he purposely called our check up appointments and it may sound strange but it felt so

good actually. It feels like with every session he's reviving and fixing my messed up old self. As part of our session, I also told

HimChan hyung about him, the friendship...the love that I have for him. How I deeply hurted him by doing and using this things

that could make you float and forget. Whenever I was talking about him...I always ended up tearing inside and out...I miss him

so freaking much and its eating me alive. I have to do this...for us.

 

Another month have passed and I'm doing good as HimChan hyung said but still I have to take some medicines to control the

uncontrollable twitches and mood swings. I've always asked HimChan hyung if he already called up and asking about me but

hyung said that he still didn't called up. After hearing those words I immediately went straight to my room and stared blankly on

the white walls that surrounds me. I keep on asking myself, questions that floods my mind...but in the end I've got nothing. I

felt like the world stops spinning...not seeing and not beeing with him for almost two months is a pure torture, it was slowly

killing me. Where are you?

 

(Present time)

 

Yesterday, when I met HimChan hyung in one of our sessions he was eyeing me like a hawk and finally asked me what was wrong

but I never answered him. He was about to leave when he said those words that made my heart almost jump out of my

throat...”He's coming to visit you HyoSang~” . HimChan hyung pats my shoulder and smile before he left. He's coming.  

 

And today, the long agonizing wait was finally over as nurse Leo ushers me to where he is probably waiting. When I saw him

again...my heart starts to beat in different pace and when he finally looked at me...its already enough. As nurse Leo left us, I

nervously sat beside him, I couldn't look at him straight in the eyes not until I heard him speak and I immediately face

him...”How are you HyoSang?...I'm so happy to see you again~”. He said with a small smile. I'm good...and I am more happy

to see you again. Those were the words that I want to say to him but I remained silently staring at his beautiful face...”You must

be angry with me HyoSang”. He said in a gloomy tone as he turned his gaze away from me. No, I'm not angry with you...its

just...I'm speechless...”I'm sorry for not visiting you...I was just having a hard time when I send you away. I'll always told

myself that its for the better and its for us...but...guilt is eating me with every single day. I'm so sorry HyoSang”. I reached for

his right hand as I heard him sob...”I'm not mad at you SeokJin”. I told him and then he turned his head and look at me with

tears on his eyes...”I'm the one who should apologize, I've hurted you and...I'm really sorry”. I said as I caressed his tears

stained cheeks...”...HyoSang”. He said through sobs then he unexpectedly embrace me...”Please...stop crying SeokJin”. I said as

I melt on his arms and embrace him as well. God, how I miss this...hugging him like this, inhaling his sweet scent...”HyoSang,

doctor HimChan told me that...you can already go by next week”. He pulled his self away from me and said with a weak

smile...”Really?...he did?”. I said in a calm tone, he nods his head...”I'm glad to hear that...I want to be with you SeokJin...I can't

wait to start a new life with you~”. I sincerely said...”Me too~”. He said with a shy smile, I slowly lean closer towards him to peck

his soft looking lips. I held his hands and look straight to his eyes and said...”I find light in a beautiful city when I choose to be

happy...just you and I.You're a shooting star I see a perfect vision of any ecstasy...and when you hold me, I'm alive. I knew that

we become one right away...I always felt the energy of sun rays...then I saw my life inside your eyes. As we raise our palms to

the universe...we'll both feel the warmth that'll never dies...and here we are eye to eye and so much alive. SeokJin...you're the

light and happiness that I found in this beautiful city...will you...will you marry me...SeokJin?”. I said in a quite stammering

tone...”...I will HyoSang...I will marry you~”. He said again with tears on his eyes then he immediately kiss me in contentment.

When he pulled away from me we're both breathless...”I'll give you your ring next week...I promise~”. I told him, I really want

to punch myself at this very moment...how come I popped that precious question without a ring? silly me...”It doesn't matter to

me HyoSang with or without ring...I'd still say yes~”. He said with a blush on his cheeks, we're so overwhelmed with each other

that we didn't noticed that the visitation hours is already ended. I embrace him tight and kiss the living lights out of him, I don't

care if HimChan hyung and nurse Leo sees us so as the other patients and their visitors as well...”I'll see you next week~”. He

said with a bright smile...”See you next week...I love you”. I said...”I love you more~”. SeokJin said then he immediately left.

We'll be together again.

 

Once my dear fiance is already gone, HimChan hyung wouldn't stop bothering me and bombarding me with questions...”So

what's up my dear patient HyoSang?...look at that face, its really different from the first time that I saw you~”. HimChan hyung

said in a teasing tone...”You already knew the answers hyung...I'm obviously happy...and at the same time contented~”. I told

him with a contented smile...”I can tell. Your SeokJin is really beautiful, no wonder you mirror him as of now with that beautiful

smile on your face~”. HimChan hyung said...”I can't wait for next week hyung”. I said dreamily...”You and SeokJin look so

perfect together”. HimChan said and I just nods my head on his compliment...”So what's your plan after leaving this facility

HyoSang?”. HimChan hyung asked me in a quite serious tone...”I already have my plans hyung. First of all, I will buy SeokJin a

ring and...”. But before I could finish my words HimChan hyung immediately cut me off...”So, you're planning to propose to

him?!”. He said in a surprised tone, I looked at him with a sly smile and said...”I've already did hyung and he...said yes~”.

HimChan hyung grins like a cat as he pats my right shoulder...”Congratulations~!”. I smiled and thanked him for the patience,

guidance and encouragements that he gave to me. I also told him that I'm gonna miss him and nurse Leo once I went home with

my fiance. HimChan hyung told me that he would come and definitely pay us a visit because I'm still having my follow up check

up with him.

 

Once I'm on my room again, all I could think about is SeokJin and my future life with him. As I look back on those times when he

sent me away, I shouldn't doubt and question his love for me...because he only wants what is good for me, for us and that is by

keeping me safe from those luring diamonds that almost ruined us. Funny and ironically I almost forgot how this diamonds

lured me once. The only diamond that will always remind me of what I am today and in the near future is that perfect silver

band wrapp around on SeokJins ring finger.

 

 

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A/N:

I finally I just finished this one-shot fanfic of mine. Actually, this is my first time to write a one-shot fanfic~ so how was it????

 

I also want to say sorry for my subbies (*kneels on the floor) for not updating my other FF's for about almost 3 months. What can I do being a student again is really difficult and yes, blame & curse those paper works, assignments, projects, reports, demos, test and portfolios because as much as I really want to update and brainstorm...but I couldn’t my mind is already burned out. And when school is finally over, I've got sick again with a terrible flu.

 

I'm really sorry to disappoint you guys...but I'm back now, thats what matters most. I'm currently working on AIAOY chapter 4 (ALL I ASKED OF YOU)...great news isn't it??? well just wait patiently hmmm my dear guys and gulls...and not but not the least I'm also brainstorming now for chapter 2 of MNSOF (MY NOT SO ORDINARY FAMILY).  

 

 

 

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