This is what I Learned

Description

He and I were two pieces that didn't fit. I can't believe how much time I've wasted trying to realise that. It's been years since then, I am now twenty nine, and I have an adorable newborn son. Nothing in particular made me remember my adolescent years, it was just something that was never off my mind. I do, however, wish that I had learned my lesson earlier. That way I wouldn't have dissected and rearranged myself, and more importantly, others, just to fit my fingers between the spaces of his. And I still didn't manage to hold his hand even then.

Foreword

Tracklist:

1. When I Was, When U Were (SM the Ballad - Chen and Krystal)
2. Painkiller (SPICA)
3. Bad (Tablo Ft. Jinsil)
4. Baby Baby (4MEN)
5. Safe and Sound (Cover by Jayesslee)
6. Suddenly (Kim Bo Kyung)
7. I Hate You (Urban Zakapa)
8. Hello (Huh Gak)
9. Closer (Taeyeon)
10. When You're Gone (Avril Lavigne)
11. Home (Tablo Ft. Lee Sora)
12. Fixed Star (Infinite)
13. I Can Only Say I want to Die (Huh Gak)
14. Set Me Free (SM the Ballad - Taeyeon)
15. Maybe Tomorrow (Super Junior - Ryeowook)

This was supposed to be chaptered but I just decided to slap it all together. There are two chapters, the first is the chapter divided into sections, with a song for each of the section, the second is not divided and has no songs. So you can choose which one to read, they're both the same, it's up to individual preference whether you like listening to songs while reading or you don't. So with that, I hope you enjoy.

P.S. i never intended for it to be so ing depressing lol sorry

june 22, 2015 update: i decided to make some edits after browsing through my stories and realising how messy this story was. all i've fixed are some (a lot, actually) grammatical errors and standardized the fonts. i tried kept the writing style as it was because i want this fic to be a representative of my skills, thoughts and emotions at that period of time when i wrote it. it's been a year since i wrote this, i realised. :'-)

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Shawolgurl
#1
Chapter 3: This is so beautiful <333
ColdOne
#2
Chapter 3: Hands down, this is one of the most amazing stories I had ever read. Very beautifully written, and I rarely cry, but this wonderful yet heart-wrenching masterpiece just did it to me. I wish people could discover this more.
Multifanstan
#3
Chapter 2: I knew something was up when Sehun called and asked her if she could stay.
My heart feels so heavy, I could literally feel the guilt all the way even if it's through reading.
It's very beautifully written. You made me cry. ?
ceciwis2 #4
Chapter 3: I wonder why I never found this before. This should get more attention, more comments, votes and subscribers. Thank you for writing this, I have no words to describe my feelings now
SakunoEchizen
#5
Chapter 2: I've lost count of times I paused from reading to wipe my tears. T_T This story really touched my heart and it also made me realize again that life is too precious to waste. Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful story! <3 :')
asiannn_
#6
there aren’t any word to describe how much of a wonderful read this was :’)
NatashaAurel
#7
I really want to spam so many comments on this fic, this fic deserve more
isaisy
#8
Chapter 2: i am dizzy. you write this painfully realistic and beautiful, i finished reading with a hollow heart. i didn't think sehun's going to go that way, my heart hurts. i cried. kinda unstable in the middle, Ari's life transition after sehun's departure is, so painfull, you wrote it in a way that even i can feel her pain. ari is a strong woman, i don't think i can handle that much of feelings. regret is such an feeling, that's one of the worst feeling ever. what did he think? i have so many questions too. you suprise me started from sehun's news. i literally feel down out of the blue.

this story make me thinking deep. "it'll be okay." thank you for sharing us this story. thank you so much.
dokyungsoolabb #9
Chapter 2: This is so beautiful. Its been so long since I read a story as touching as this. Plus the music...i was so immersed with the story I can feel what the mcs feeling like I was the one experiencing it all. Its was so beautiful really ..??
Hayleyh
#10
Chapter 3: Chapter 1: this story was recommended by a friend and I’m rly glad I read this. This fic is one of the few that made me teared up. Everything was so well written and thought of everything feels so real like you’re writing your own experience. I feel like I learnt something today just from reading this fic too. Thank you for this amazing chapter.