Bitter Love, Complicated Life
Description
When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story.
It may be a sweet love story,
or maybe it is a bitter love story.
You may think of it as a simple life story,
but maybe it is more complicated than what you think.
Continuation of So Sweet, So Simple.
Continuation of So Sweet, So Simple.
Foreword
"The day I met you was the luckiest day of my life, and I bet you feel the same. At least I hope you do."
- Gikwang to Sora
[Gikwang's POV]
"Thank you for today," Doojoon and Junhyung bow in unison, giving their best smiles.
"I'm working my best," Mina giggles. "I don't think the new photobook is good enough though."
"It's alright," Dongwoon tries to cheer up Mina. "For someone who is still studying at college, you are one of the best photographers I know."
I smile, looking at Mina's happy expression. She has worked for us since Sora left to Paris two months ago. We are working our best for our promotion at Japan and now we are working for United Cube Concert, the CUBE Entertainment first ever family concert.
Yoseob sits next to me, putting his phone on his ear. After seconds, he puts his phone on the table, breathing out impatiently.
"Don't tell me you just tried to call her again?" I mutter to him, making sure that the others can't hear us.
"It's worth a try," he leans to the chair. "We never know. Maybe she has returned to Seoul."
"Yoseob," I feel apologetic for no reason. "You know that she's at Paris now."
"She is not going to stay there forever, isn't she?" he looks at me. "She is going to return here right?"
I don't answer. I want to meet her as well. I miss her. Really miss her.
But I don't want to put high hope on her. What if she decided to stay at Paris with her parents?
She didn't even contact us. Not even once.
While the others are planning about the dinner, I take a glance at my phone. I am using the picture of me and Sora at the ferris wheel, the one I took with my own phone, as my phone wallpaper.
I want to see you, Sora.
Do you feel the same?
"You'll be alright. We're together now. Everything's going to be fine. You'll see."
- Yoseob to Sora
[Yoseob's POV]
[Yoseob's POV]
Here I am, standing on the rooftop all by myself. It's past midnight already and I still haven't sleep.
When I opened the door, I was hoping that she would be her, standing and gazing to the night sky like what she always did when she was here.
I want Sora back as our personal photographer. It's not that I dislike Mina; she is really great, I admit it. But I miss Sora.
I miss her expressionless face. I miss her smile. I miss her sweet scent. I miss everything about her.
I've tried to contact her via everything. She closed down her official website. She deleted her twitter account. She forbids her sister and Mina to tell me the way to contact her.
Since I know she will be really mad at me if I keep forcing her sister, I give up of trying to contact her.
I take out my phone from my pocket, staring at the wallpaper. It is the picture of me and Sora, holding cotton candies on our hands. It was the picture I asked Doojoon to take at the amusement park.
Come to think of it, it was the last day I ever saw Sora. She prepared a lot, didn't she? Mina told us that the special tickets were given by her father because Sora agreed to continue the research project if her father gave her the special tickets.
I put my phone back in my pocket and pull out my iPod from the other pocket, plugging the earphone to my ears and press the play button. I kept clicking the next button until I find a ballad song.
It's one of our song. Ajigeun (Yet). The first song we sang to her.
I put my phone back in my pocket and pull out my iPod from the other pocket, plugging the earphone to my ears and press the play button. I kept clicking the next button until I find a ballad song.
It's one of our song. Ajigeun (Yet). The first song we sang to her.
"Ajigeun ibyeoreul mot baeweoseo
Ajigeun seupeumeul jal mollaseo
Ajigeun geudaega nae gyeoteul tteonado
Mideo jijiga anha nunmuri heulleo naeriji anha
Ajigeun ibyeol norael deureodo
Seulpeuji anha geojitmal gata
Ajigeun geureonde jogeumsshik neukkyeo jyeo
Nunmuri goyeowa ije shijagin gabwa"
I still haven’t learn to say goodbye
I still don’t know how sadness feels like
I still don’t get the fact that you left my side
I still don’t believe it; Tears won’t come out
Rather than a sad song, this song sounds like a lie
But I can feel little by little Now my eyes are getting teary
and I guess it’s the beginning
Two months have passed but I still can't accept the fact that she has left me, especially without the answer. I wake up every morning, hoping to see her face in front of our door, wishing that it's all just a lie.
I'm not crying again now. But my heart is aching.
I want to see her again. I want her to be my side again.
I still love her.
"This is my family. I found it, all on my own. It's little, and broken, but still good."
- Sora to BEAST
[Sora's POV]
It's been more than two months since I left Seoul. Since I left my works. Since I left BEAST.
I'm doing my best with the research project about tumor. How ironic. My mother was doing this project when she was diagnosed with brain tumor.
I'm just done with the final report of the project. I need to send the report to the head officer of the research team tomorrow for the finalizing. I hope everything will go smoothly.
I check my phone but there is no new text message. I let out a smile when I see at my own phone wallpaper. I'm using the picture of me and BEAST together on the Valentine Day.
I miss them.
I miss the wise and warm Doojoon.
I miss Hyunseung's nagging and cooks.
I miss Junhyung's raps and jokes.
I miss the cute and innocent Dongwoon.
I miss Gikwang's sweet and sincere smile.
I miss Yoseob's simple and cheerful attitude.
I know they are really mad at me; leaving them all of a sudden, pulling away so far from them, not even letting them to contact me at all. I am really cruel.
But I don't want to make anybody sad. If I keep contacting them, I don't think I can focus with the research project. I still have to take care of my mother, fulfilling her dream while I can, and I'm afraid that I will miss them more if I keep in touch with them.
I always read articles about them on internet though. They're going to release a Japanese album soon. They will have a family concert too next month.
I visited my mother last week before I went to the laboratory to report the final result of the research project. Her condition is so much better now. She told me that she wanted to go under operation soon; she's going to take the risk.
That's why I made an agreement with my father. An agreement that we must fulfill after we know the result of my mother's operation this morning.
I look at the ticket next to my notebook, the ticket my father just bought for me this evening.
I mutter to myself.
"Seoul."
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Author's Note:
"The day I met you was the luckiest day of my life, and I bet you feel the same. At least I hope you do."
- originally from Toy Story 3 #disneywords
"You'll be alright. We're together now. Everything's going to be fine. You'll see."
- originally from Beauty & The Beast #disneywords
"This is my family. I found it, all on my own own. It's little, and broken, but still good."
- originally from Lilo & Stitch #disneywords
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