Prologue

Maybe... if I get the chance to reborn again...  If I can choose my next life... I want to be... I want to be... a rock.  Yes... a rock... in the middle of the ocean...  Not too deep down though.  Where light reaches the waters so I can see every thing.  That way, I won't have to eat or sleep...  I won't have to cry or laugh.  The human world is too tiring for me... I just want to be left alone to watch all the beautiful animals swim pass me.  And even if they try to eat me, they'll eventually spit me out because they'll realize that I'm inedible.  Yes... that way I won't have to care or love someone...  I won't have to cry for someone...
I won't have to feel pain... I won't have to... die...

HCC... it stands for hepatocellular carcinoma.  Also known as... liver cancer.
At first... I didn't even know how to pronounce it.  But after hearing the doctors and nurses say it so much... it repeats itself in my head everyday... hepatocellular carcinoma... hepa-

Since it was hard to except it... I tried to ignore it.  Maybe if I was diagnosed with it a year ago I wouldn't be like this... it'll be easier.  A lot easier... to leave...

I wonder... how long I have left...