Tao wasn't after pity it wasn't like him, as if it wasn't obvious by his silence.

Noone knew about the cutting, his lack of sleep or the reasons he grew increasingly thin.

He had an answer prepared for every question, always two steps ahead, but of course that was before him.

Why, why, why did Kris have to come along and catch him by surprise?

He didn't want roots, reasons to stay or to have hopes for the future, Tao didn't believe in heaven and hell he wanted that blankness that would come in the end.

After all his been through could anyone really belittle him for wanting that bit of freedom?

The days dragged on though, the longer he stayed the more he got attached.

It was dangerous, and even though Tao tried to remind himself this isnt what he wanted.

Whenever he looks at Kris, his heart whispers to him.

" You want this more than anything..."