It was funny how I was in Sehun's bathroom in my school uniform. It reminded me of the very first time he brought me here at his house. Bringing back memories of the time when I couldn't stand him. I wish I could take that all back. If I knew sooner what was wrong with him, I could have actually spent that time loving him...I stood in front of the mirror for a few more seconds, staring at my reflection, and returning back to my reality. 

 

I step out of his bathroom and he smiles at me. 

 

"Are you ready?"

 

I shake my head "No, but I guess I have to be."

 

He nods and I walk over the other side of his room towards a chair where my bag was placed. Once I reach it, I stare at his brown eyes and thought of how far we've come. I crave for those moments again and as I stood there, I couldn't imagine what life would be like if he was never a part of it. 

 

"It's going to be okay." He takes out his hand for me "Don't you have a planner?"

 

I playfully roll my eyes and grab his hand. I was about to comment back but Daehun comes running in. I smile at him because he looked so cute in his school uniform, it was his first day back to school as well.

 

"Sehun" He smiles "When I come back will you be able to play with me then?"

 

He shakes his head "I'm still not feeling good."

 

I looked away as it hurt to see Sehun still hadn't told Daehun anything. That day I saw them together in this room, Daehun was just upset that he knew something was wrong with his older brother. However, Sehun being Sehun wasn't ready to tell little D then and there.

 

"But," Sehun adds "I do want to see you practicing the piano, okay?"

 

Daehun laughs "Okay, but Sehun..." He looks over at me with his laughter fading "When you feel better can you..." He hesitates his words looking back at him "Can you teach me how to dance?"

 

"You already know the answer" He replies gently "I can't."

 

"I promise I'll keep playing the piano. I won't stop."

 

"I still can't D." Sehun gulps when he catches Daehun's disappointed face. It broke my heart.

 

"I'll teach you." I bud in and both boys stare at me "I don't mind if you don't." I shrug my shoulders.

 

I referred that question openly for either one of them to answer.

 

"Daehun" Sera walks in with a soft smile towards me and sighs when she looks at her two boys "We have to get you to school." But Daehun stays in place, having his attention on Sehun.

 

"I'll think about it." Sehun looks at him and he nods his head once. "I'll see you when you get home." 

 

Sera walks up to Sehun and kisses his forehead "I love you."

 

"Love you." He says it cooly but sweetly at the same time. 

 

She waves goodbye to me and wishes me luck on my first day back to school. I check the time and I realize I should be heading out too. I knew if I stopped by this morning it was going to be hard to want to leave. I lean down and kiss his lips. 

 

"I'll come as soon as I can." My voice sounded promising. "I'll see you."

 

"Can you?" He asks as I'm halfway in the middle of his room

 

I smirk and pull my eyebrows together "I promise, after school I'll hurry up and come see you."

 

"No," He smirks and shakes his head "I mean, can you teach Daehun?"

 

"Are you asking if I can as in if I'm capable of it or are you asking for permission?"

 

"I want to say the first one..." His grin creeps on his face and it causes me to chuckle. I knew he was messing around with me.

 

"Well, I promised to take care of him." I smile "I also promised to be there for him. So, if he wants to start dancing then I'll be right by his side."

 

He smiles back and we both wave at each other a goodbye. When I open the door, Kris is in sight and caused me to startle. It looked like he was about to knock. He slowly puts his hand down and looks away from me.

 

"What's wrong Cheon?" I hear Sehun and Kris places his index finger on his lips, hinting me to stay quiet.

 

I step to the side and allow Kris to walk in. As much as I wanted to stay and make sure that everything was okay, I noticed I didn't have enough time. Even though things have changed, it still didn't excuse me form being late to my classes. I my lips and leave without wanting to.

 

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Nothing was happening, it's been weeks and Hayoung has been distracted with that new kid. With the way things were going, I needed to act up fast. She obviously wasn't going to come running back to me so I was left with no choice, I had to go to her.

I knew where to find her. This early in the morning she would be in one particular place, the school's dance studio. As I walked into the building and down the hallways, I can hear distant music but it wasn't Hayoung's style. 

 

When I reached the door I notice that Lay kid dancing around her and I hid behind the door. I peeked and saw something happening, Hayoung was smiling. She was enjoying it and it pissed me off. It was clear that she was moving on. 

 

My hands turn into fists and I clench them tight. It didn't help that I noticed how he stared at her. His eyes were checking her out, something that belonged to me.

 

“What?” She asks

 

I seriously gave her credit. Yeah, what the are you staring at?

 

“Are you dating anyone?”

 

There was no way I was going to let him have a chance.

 

She responds “No”

 

“I thought we were closer than that Cheon” I walk in and both stare at me. “You move on fast.” 

 

“So you do have a boyfriend?” That idiot asks

 

Hayoung replied at the same time I did. I couldn't help but stare the out of this guy. A lot was going through my mind but mostly the fact that bothered me the most was that he wasn't sick and he wasn't going to die. 

 

It was clear that Hayoung was upset since she kept raising her tone at me. 

 

“You got dramatic.” I quickly made up.

 

“We’re not together Sehun and we never were”

 

I chuckle “We weren’t? Then what do you call it when you kiss a girl?”

 

She snaps “ing with her feelings.”

 

I couldn't help but smile. I was acting stupid, my real feelings were getting in the way. That new transfer student wanted to give me and Hayoung privacy but realizing how I was acting, I decided that I should be the one to leave. 

 

Without my pills, I felt my mood quickly change and without meaning to I called Hayoung a . I was starting to slip and everything was starting to annoy me. It didn't help that the new kid touched me. I was already pissed off at him before and him standing in front of my face didn't help his situation. 

 

I push him away from me “It doesn’t ing concern you”

 

“Yes it does” He pushes back. I've had enough. It was clear that he liked Hayoung, my Cheon. I knew I ed up and her feelings towards me are all over the place but I didn't like how he was trying to take her away from me. I took out all my frustration and punched his face.

 

Once I notice Hayoung take his side, things clicked for me. What the am I doing? I'm not supposed be jealous and care about her. When she pushes me, I couldn't say anything and I walked off.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

She isn't mine, she's never been mine. I sit at the edge of my bed and place my hands on my forehead. I needed to focus but it was hard when clearly I stupidly loved her. Maybe this will keep her away from me and I should just let Kris take this one. I'm over it. This bet is only making me linger on my feelings and that's not what I want.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I opened the door and saw Daehun holding hands with Hayoung. Misung came rushing up the stairs and apologizing for allowing this to happen. I didn't think she would come all the way over here to tell me off but I might as well take this opportunity to let her know that from now on, I'm going to leave her alone.

 

Misung takes Daehun but of course he asks Hayoung to play later. Except, after this conversation he wasn't going to, in fact I knew she wasn't going to stay for long. Not after I admit to her she was a bet all this time.

 

“But—”

 

“Not today!” I raise my voice but I didn't mean to. Misung takes him away and leaves me alone with Hayoung. I let her come in first and when I close the door. I stare at her unsure how the I'm going to tell her. 

 

She starts yelling at me, not surprised about it. She starts asking why I did it. I knew exactly why but I wasn't going to admit that to her. After giving her the same response I walk passed her. When she starts talking again, I can clearly hear that she's really pissed off. Good, now it was my turn to give her another reason to hate me. 

 

Then, she started saying things I never heard her say before. She still has feelings for me and she isn't supposed to. Her words stopped me from admitting the truth and caused me to re-think things. I realized that the bet isn't for me anymore, if I do this I'll be helping her too. 

 

“Regardless of all the stupid you do, I can’t stay mad without wanting to be with you again and I hate you for that. I want it to stop…”

 

There was only one way to make it stop and have her hate me for good. I need to push her away. I'm sorry Hayoung. I aggressively take her and start to kiss her. I start to get lost and everything feels like it will be okay. She was making me feel safe and I wanted to take care of her. Once I took her blazer and my shirt off, I took her towards my bed and placed myself between her legs. Forgetting that she was a bet.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I didn't think this would happen. My feelings didn't go away...they grew stronger and I didn't want to hurt her. I place my shirt back on and once I place it over she starts to talk.

 

“I forgot to give you something” She stands up taking a bracelet off and hands it to me "Now you have forever as time”

 

I nod as I stared at it. "That’s stupid” I smirk. What is she doing? What am I doing? 

 

“Yeah,” She looks down and chuckles lightly. As I stared at her, I couldn't continue doing this anymore. She has to move on, she has to be with someone else. I have to make her believe I used her. I have to make her hate me so not only I can stay away but so she can as well. 

 

“That kid at the dance studio would treat you better. He seems to care more for you than I do.”

 

This is for her own good. I'd rather hurt her now then later. She doesn't need to know she's a bet, this enough will keep her from ever wanting anything to do with me. 

 

“I’ll talk to my uncle to get the senior class president to start looking out for my so you don’t have to anymore and we can forget about all of this.”

 

I saw her tears and I felt sick to my stomach. I can't be selfish. She has a life ahead and I thought I'd be happy ruining everything for her but really, it was me who was ruined.

 

“ you” She clenches through her teeth.

 

“You just did Cheon.”

 

She threw the bracelet at me and stormed out. Once she was gone, a few small tears started to fall down my cheek. This wasn't considered a bet for me anymore, it was considered an escape and I hated it. My hand was in a fist placed under my nose as I fought off tears. I began to shake and I was furious. I didn't think I'd feel this way and if I did, I would have never bothered to go through this.

 

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As I walked down the hallway I heard a few people gossiping about what had happened to Sehun over the summer. I couldn't believe how insensitive they were all being. I finally reached my locker and I hear a soft, comforting voice, it was Lay. 

"Ignore it." He smiles and I return a small one. "Good morning."

 

"I wish it was one." I snap as I grab my textbooks

 

It stays quiet between us while I finish grabbing the last book I need before the long hours begin. When I look at him and notice his soft features staring at me I instantly feel bad.

 

I sigh "I'm sorry. Good morning."

 

He kept his smile and shook his head "Don't worry about it. I can understand why you'd be upset. Just don't let it get to you."

 

"It's easier said than done." I gently mock him and he nudges me with his elbow lightly.

 

 

 

 

 

Yixing and I made it to class before the bell rang and I saw Haeryung stare at me. Once I sat down, she hesitated to look my way.

 

"Hi" She finally says

 

I smile and say hi back. "How was your summer?"

 

She nods "Fun. How was––" She stops herself and changes the subject "Congrats for being the new face of the Youth Program. I read about it in the media." She pauses again "I'm sorry Hayoung. I don't mean to bring anything up that's related to Sehun."

 

I kindly scoff "Don't worry about. He's going to be fine." 

 

I wasn't sure if I said it towards her or more for myself.

 

"We're all here for you." Haeryung places her hand on my forearm. I thanked her and I did feel the support from those who mattered. Class started and it felt strange not seeing Sehun walk in late or sitting at his desk. My thoughts began to wonder about this morning, when I saw Kris. It made me wonder where he has been and what was he talking about with Sehun.