~JaeJoong~

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As soon as I got home Yoochun was right in front of the door greeting me. Or well.. not greeting.. more of.. in a hurry of telling me something

"What?" I asked

"Yunho's gone"

"What do you mean gone?" I asked and closed the door

"He's gone as in GONE! Changmin and Junsu went out to look for him as they persuaded me to stay just in case he gets home"

"Bb but.. How long.. as it been? Why didn't you call me?" I stuttered and looked at him

"We tried but you didn't bring your phone.. you.."

Yoochun got cut off as the door suddenly flew open and Yunho stormed into the house and then to his room. Changmin and Junsu weren't far behind and they sighed heavily as they entered

"Gwenchana?" I asked them

They nodded

"Where was he?"

"Her graveyard.." Junsu said sadly

I sighed

I guess I did miss them with a few minutes or something

I looked at Changmin as he took off his shoes

"Didn't you bring a jacket or anything? It's cold outside"

He looked up and then he suddenly remembered

"Ahh.. Nae~~ I did put on one and my hat as well but we met a girl at Selina's Graveyard and .. Yunho kind of.. yelled at her.. and I gave her my jacket since she didn't accept the ride we were offering" CHangmin said

"A girl?" I asked

"Nugu?" Yoochun asked

"Just a girl we saw there. She was crying when we got there.. and seems like she was there even before Yunho" Junsu said

We all walked into the livingroom. I started to wonder if it might be the same girl that I met... That.. girl.. that was freaking me out

"She seemed nice though.. and alone.." CHangmin said

I sighed

"You know her?" I asked

He shook his head

"Aish... You're even protective over girls you don't even know.." i said

"But she was crying Hyung.. and it's really cold outside.. I hope she doesn't get sick.."

"How's Yunho anyway?" Yoochun interrupted

No one said anything

Junsu then coughed and scratched the back of his head

"He was crying silently in the backseat all the way home.. It's been a week.. now.. and seems like.. it's just getting worse.. Especially today at the funeral" Junsu said quietly

I guess all of us agreed

I looked back to the hallway to see that Yunho's door was closed and it was completely silent in the whole dorm

"Otoke?" Yoochun asked

"Mollah .. Chincha.. We need to do something.. School's almost starting.. and.. You guys are graduating.. We need to get him to school.. or else he won't be able to graduate.." Changmin said

All of us sighed even louder

"I wonder what he's feeling" I said

I felt everyone's gaze at me as I said those words

"What do you mean Hyung?" Yoochun asked

I covered my face and then looked at them

"I'm really afraid that he have lost the sparkle of life.."

"What do you mean by that?" Junsu asked a bit scared

I looked straight at him

"HEr death has turned him into another person. He doesn't eat.. or drink.. All he does is laying in his room on his bed not doing anything. We can't let him live like that.. he has to.. move on.." I said

"But it's hard Hyung.. He loved her so much" Changmin mumbled

A tear fell as I closed my eyes

"We all did.. but still.. we have to move on.. I'm sure she doesn't want to see us like this.. right?"

"Mhm.." All the members chorused

"So.. what do we do now?" Junsu asked

"I think we should.. wait.. a few more days to see how he's doing.. We have to watch over him.. He has to drink and eat.." I said

"Hyung.. you're like... saying as if he's going to die.." Yoochun said seriously

I looked up

"That's exactly what I'm saying .." I said and looked at them

All the members stood up slowly as I stood up as well

"We need to watch over him. I'm fearing that the most right now.."

"Noo.. Hyung would never do that" Changmin said and shook his head confidently

I looked at him

"Do we know him well enough to be sure about that?" I asked them

"But you know Hyung would never do that.. His opiniona nd his way of seeing life.." Junsu said but I cut in

"Has changed because of Selina. Seriously.. Guys.. You've seen him for the past week.. You can't tell me that we know what's going on inside of his head" I said

No one said anything

"I'm not saying that .. he will... " I took a paus.. "That.. but we have to be careful. I'm fearing the worse right now and I don't want to sit down and watch wheN i know we can do something. We have to make sure that he'll will keep on living.."

"What if we fail?" Junsu whispered, barely audible

I looked back at his door

"We won't. We can't.. We've already lost our best friend .. I won't loose another brother" I said determined

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~Yunho~

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The next day I was sitting in my position as usual, in the middle of the bed, with the blanket covering my body, and staring straight in front of me, at the tv .

Another comedy show was on but seriously.. not even this program could make me laugh.. and it was my favourite

I looked around in my room as I saw stuff that Selina had hung up when she was..

No I can't say it..

I got out of bed and went to the bathroom and took a shower .

Afterwards.. I sat down on my body, sighing heavily as I looked on our couple rings..

Suddenly my phone went off.. the alarm was ringing like a maniac

"Shut up.." I mumbled and grabbed it

But as soon as I saw the screen I saw what day it was..

"Va len..tine.."

My grip around the phone hardened as I closed my eyes, trying to hold back the tears

My grip suddenly loosened up and for some reason I just wanted to go into my files on the phone and soon I stopped at the videoclips

I saw several Clips but there was one that I hadn't seen

I looked it up and my eyes widened as I pressed play

"JAGIYA~~!!!"

I saw Selina smiling on my screen. Inside of me, the heart was beating faster and I started to shake. How could I have possibly missed this video?

"Oppa.. Do you know where I am at the moment?!" She squeaked happily

She suddenly turned my phone and showed herself in the mirror.. in one of the wedding dresses..

Did she snatch my phone that day?

She then sat down and she showed herself on the video recorder again

"Oppa.. Naega.. Yeppoji ?"

A tear fell as I saw her dorky smile while blushing

I sobbed quietly

"You're trying on your tuxedo now. I'm sure you'll look handsome in everyway.. Oppa.. It's Valentine soon.. I hope you'll see this..before Valentine ! Meet me at the rooftop of your building at 9 pm .. Saranghae~~!"

The video closed down and I saw tears falling on my phone

I looked at the date of it's recording and .. of course.. it was on the same day as she was trying on the dress

I instantly got up and left the phone on my bed and walked over to my closet

I started to dig through the clothes and soon I found the Big golden box that I was looking for

I opened it slightly to see a big brown bear smiling cutely with a pocket like a kangaroo

I sat down on the floor and took it out. It was about 1 feet long .. so I guess it was pretty big

I took out the small mini photoalbum that I had made, which had taken me 5 days to do..

I opened it with shaking hands while sobbing and looked it all through

Our first date..

Our second date..

Our first time holding hands..

I smiled while crying

and of course.. the last picture was the picture that I cherished the most..

A picture of us, kissing at the same spot in all four seasons

I touched it carefully as I started to cry harder
The heart started to ache as I started to cry harder. The mini photoalbum was getting wet because of my tears

I put it down and put it safely back into the pocket of the bear and for some reason I started to wrap it again ... I knew that deep down inside my heart.. I was kind of longing for that if I did go to the rooftop this night.. she might be there.. she just might..

*Knock Knock

I ignored it and kept wrapping

"Yunho ah~~"

I recognized JaeJoong's voice and soon I heard all the members enter. But I ignored them. I kept wrapping the Valentine gift that I had prepared for the valentine

"What.. are you doing?" Changmin asked

"I'm wrapping Selina's Valentine's gift.. Can't you see it?" I chuckled while crying

"Hyung..."

"I'm going to meet her today.. at the rooftop.. She told me .. 6pm.." I said and wiped away my tears

"How.. did.. she" Junsu stuttered

I pointed at the cellphone

"There.. right there" I said happily while crying

From the eye of my corner I saw Yoochun grabbing it and sooN I heard her voice again, squeaking and talking happily

"...meet me at the rooftop of your building at 9 pm .. Saranghae~~!"

"See.. I told you" I said happily and looked at them

They all sighed

"Hyung.."

"THERE! Pretty huh?" I said

JaeJoong bended down and tapped me on my shoulder

"Nae~~ Really pretty.."

I nodded

"Well.. You guys have to go out now . I have to prepare myself.."

"But.. you have to eat hyung.." Junsu said carefully

I looked at him

"Oh.. that's right.. so that I have the strength to see her later.. Kah JA!" I said and put the gift on my bed and hurried to the kitchen

Rooftop.. 6pm .. 6pm..

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~Selina~

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I was sitting in my so called new house. Well it wasn't that all new.. since it was kind of.. in the building across my old apartment

I stared at the window without knowing why..

I was thinking, trying... coming up with solutions.. all kinds of ways to just.. to .. approach the guys but to judge by my thoughts and desperation.. I was so in trouble

I looked at my phone .. 1 pm..
Great.. great great...

At least I had my old cellphone and keys to the apartment and all.. So I wouldn't feel all too uncomfortable

Soon my eyes stopped at the mirror, seeing my reflection.. Well.. not really my reflection.. except the eyes.. of course.. it was another.. body but with me in it..

Suddenly I felt the phone vibrating, causing me to have a heartattack cause I was so startled

I looked down on the phone and saw that it was an alarm

My eyes widened as I saw the note

"Valen .. tine.."

I stared at the note for awhile before I realized that it was actually Valentine

I threw the phone on the bed and started to wander around in panic

"Gosh.. it would be so much easier if I knew where Yunho were going to be.." I muttered

I stared at the background picture of us in wedding clothes..

Suddenly I stopped breathing as my eyes went wide

A flashback took over my thoughts as I remembered what happened during that day..

I instantly changed into jeans and a sweater, a scarf and hat and grabbed my purse and ran out of the apartment

I looked around so that no one would see me and then I hurried into My old apartment. As soon as I entered my old scent attacked me and my nose was filled of my scent..

I locked the door and walked into it slowly.. as if I was afraid of entering it.. I really.. did feel like dead.. I saw all the furniture were all wrapped in plastic bags ..

I twas really hard to believe that I .. even was dead.. well according to my family.. friends.. and to the guys

I hurried into the bedroom and I opened my closet . As soon as the doors flew open I saw that no one had touched my two big bags ..

I bended down and opened it slightly

The stuff that I had been preparing for a week for our Valentine's day.. was still here..

My eyes widened and I took out the notebook as I saw the check list

I had marked that I had recorded a secret video message for Yunho.. and that I had prepared.. The only thing that I had to do now.. was to.. prepare it all for the night

I froze and got paralyzed as I started to think about it..
Maybe .. this is my chance?

I instantly got up and stared at my cellphone and then at the two bags

If Yunho had seen the message.. maybe there is a chance that he might go there..

I shook my head and fell down onto the ground again

Impossible.. there's no way..

"What if.. he really do show up?"

My heart's saying was stronger than my head and I started to think about it

The more I thought about what my heart was saying, the more determined I became

I had to do this. Maybe this is my chance.. But of course.. I can't just.. pop out and reveal myself that.. I'm Selina.. I have to..

"OMO~~!!!!!!!" I shouted loudly

Maybe I can kind of.. give him .. a sign.. or.. maybe..

"I GOT IT!!" I shouted

I instantly grabbed the two bags and hurried out of the apartment. I got into the car, that was the same car I had before but just another color and I hurried over to the guys building. I parked secretly and assured myself of that no one was there..

As soon as I got into the building I hurried into the elevator and prayed for that no one would see me, especially the guys

I managed to get to the rooftop and just in case someone might come, I kind of locked the door and used a rope just to prevent anyone from coming

It was really cold but I had no time to loose. I had to do this.. or else.. I might loose my chance

I won't freak him out.. I will just.. give him a sign.. try to make him see .. somehow..

I fell down flat on the bench as I saw my creation. Finally done.. Finally finally..

I looked at the clock to see that it was getting close to 9 pm..

I hurried over to the door to unlock it and then hurried to hide myself

I kept staring at the door, ready to press the button if he would come. My heart was beating faster for every second that kept passing and I was worried to death that he might not show up but in my heart, it kept telling me that he would somehow manage to get here..

I waited.. and waited..

I looked at the clock

5 minutes..

10 minutes..

13 minutes and 40 seconds..

16 minutes and 39 seconds..

I stared at the even that I had prepared and I then stood up, revealing myself from my hiding place.

"He's not.. coming" I said disappointed, on the verge of crying

But then .. the sound made my heart stop as I saw the doorknob move

I instantly flew down back to my hiding place as I stared at the door.

"Please.. let it.. be him.. please please.."

Suddenly the door flew open and there he was..just like taken from a dream..

My heart jumped up to my throat as tears started to fall..

He was wearing a black polo with gray pants. A matching scarf to it with a black jacket.
Seems like he had dressed up

realizing how big his love for me was.. made me cry harder

I saw his facial expression.. and he didn't look happy.. more like.. hurt .. and.. lost.. He was holding a big golden gift in his arms and I lost my breath as I saw it

He looked at the gift for a moment and I saw that he wiped away a tear.. My heart ripped in two as I saw him doing that and I had to force myself to stay on the same spot.. so that I wouldn't.. run over to him

I followed him as he closed the door carefully and then wandered around the corner.. I followed him as he looked around confused

I took a deep breath before pressing the button

I looked up to see his eyes stare at the lights as he dropped the big gift onto the ground. He wobbled back 2 steps as he stared at it...

I don't know if it was a success if I had to judge by his eyes.. his body language or his.. facial expression..

All I could do at this moment was watching him from afar.. crying silently as my heart was aching.. longing for him..

But I was sincere and had put everything into this event..

I sobbed quietly as I looked at him.. So close yet so far..

He started to cry and I saw him falling down on his knees..

I shook my head in frustration as we were crying at the same time.. Together..

"I love You .. " I whispered