From the Beginning

Right Next To You

~~Selina~

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I didn't quite understand what had happened. I mean, just a an hour ago, I was standing at the platform station at the ski resort, Yunho holding me..
They were screaming my name and the next thing I knew was that I woke up on a hospital, covered with band aids all over ...

As JaeJoong were hugging me tightly, I was crying, my heart were at ease, relieved that he was here

"Please, Selina.. go back to your room.." JaeJoong whispered while comforting me

I felt his grip around me tightened but I didn't want to let go ..
Just the thought of loosing him.. I had actually lost him..
I couldn't really describe.. the.. desire of replacing him.. that I would've died instead of him..

No.. it was unbearable. How in the world.. can I even live with myself?

JaeJoong pulled away from me and wiped away the tears that was falling constantly from my eyes. His eyes were watching me closely

"I can see the confusion in your eyes.. DOn't worry.. as soon as the doctors have taken a look at you, you can ask me anything you want.."

His voice was confident, sure and soft..

"Selina.. please.. come with us.." The doctors said behind me

I saw a wheel chair waiting for me, the nurse watching me, ready to come over any minute as soon as I was going to sit down.

Changmin pushed me all the way back to the floor where my room was. I could now feel the pain allover my body ..
As we were walking down the hall, I suddenly felt that Changmin had stopped and the rest of the crowd as well

I looked up at Changmin

"What's.. wrong?" I asked

Changmin smiled and looked down on me

"Look in front of you"

I did as I was told and I looked up. Right in frotn of me.. about 7 feet away, I saw Yunho. He had a cast around his right leg.. a band aid around his arm but that didn't stop him from standing up. I guess we were pretty compatible with each other.. since he had also escaped from his room

A tear slightly fell as I looked at him. He couldn't help but let out a small laugh

I then stood up

"Not again.. Please Selina.. Sit down" THe doctor said

I ignored him. I didn't feel the pain anymore.. All I could see was Yunho.. My Yunho.. Safe and sound..

Well at least he was breathing..

He started to walk towards me and I started to walk towards him as well..

We stopped about 1 feet away . My heart was beating faster than usual, I saw Yunho watching me from head to toe, A reaction.. a sign.. He seemed to be confused as well

"I really.. don't know what's happening.. but.." He stammered but I didn't let him finish the sentence

I threw myself at him, he caught me with his free arm and I pressed my lips onto his, Like I had never kissed him before..
The desire of kissing him, that I had to endure in order to pretend to be someone else, to win his trust at first were slowly killing me but at least, he was back in my arms again..

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~JaeJoong~

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I felt Junsu's arm around my suddenly. Yoochun were tapping me on my shoulder.. I guess they understood what I was thinking..

But I can't really.. deny..the fact that I am jealous.. and hurt..

But .. she was happy.. and Yunho was.. and you could see how compatible the beautiful couple was.. My heart would heal..

Yunho and Selina refused to separate from each other so the doctors decided to move Yunho to Selina's hospitalroom and they were placed right next to each other. Well it was a bit easier for us .. cause now we didn't have to go between the rooms all the time..

After the examination, the doctors and nurses left the room, and had taken down notes of the results..
Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin, Selina, Yunho and I were left in the room. The draper was pulled off, letting Yunho and Selina facing each other. The 4 of us were sitting on their beds..

I could feel everyone's eyes on me and I knew it was just a matter of time until they would ask me.. what had happened..

"Mianhe~~"

Changmin's words broke the silence. Everyone looked at him

"I guess we kind of forgot to tell you that JaeJoong were alive.." Changmin smirked and looked at Selina

I looked at Selina and I saw the pain in her eyes.. She must have really suffered .. Knowing that I was dead..

"I'm glad.. that.. he's here now" She whispered quietly

I smiled at her as I felt my heart skip a beat. I knew that my heart would never change.. My love for her would never.. change..

"Can someone please tell me.. what happened? The first thing I knew was that we were standing at Ski Resort.. In the platform station and now we're back.. here.. and.. This.. was after the car accident took me place.." Yunho said

I looked at him

He really did look scared

"Well.. what do you think Yunho?" I asked

"I don't know what I think.. In fact.. I don't even know if I'm.. even.. in my right state of mind.. Look at us.. This happened 3 months ago.. how heaven's were we able to be brought back to this place? And JaeJoong.. you.." Yunho quieten

I didn't answer

I guess everyone was wondering how I was able to survive. I knew that their questions were going to be hard to answer but I knew that all my answers would be simple..
When I thought about it, when I saved Yunho.. It will only make me.. feel.. even more scared.. Scared of what had happened..

But at the same time, I did manage to save Yunho.. and Selina in a way..

The memories gave me chills down my spine.. It was nerve wrecking to even remember what had happened to me.. but I had survived. I had no bruises or broken legs or arms.. I was Whole..

"And.. Yuki.. Selina.. I mean.. Aigoo~~ Please explain anyone?" Yunho asked and looked at us

I looked at him

"What exactly do you remember?" I asked

Yunho quieten and looked at me for a long time. He was thinking.. and he was trying to convince himself that I was alive..

"But you.. I.. Platform.. Selina.. Yuki I mean.. I.. Gosh..! Tell me.. This is frustrating I need to know the whole truth" Yunho shouted

I looked at Selina who seemed to be lost in her own world..
When she after a few minutes realized that someone was staring at her.. she looked up and at me..
She seemed to be even more confused.. scared in a way..

*Knock Knock

I looked at the door to see a doctor enter

"I'm sorry guys, but I need to take Mr Yunho out for a X ray.." The doctor said

Yunho couldn't protest but I could see the disappointment in his eyes..
He really wanted to stay and he needed to know the whole truth

"Go.. We'll wait for you.. And prepare yourself.. you have a .. long.. talk waiting for you afterwards" I said

Yunho nodded and was taken away in a wheel chair by a nurse.
The door closed and I felt everyone's eyes on me..

"Guys?"

This was the first time Selina had said something for awhile. All of our attention was drawn to her as we waited for her to continue

"Can I.. talk to JaeJoong.. for a moment? Alone?"

The guys understood and left.. They said they would be down in the cafeteria if we were looking for them..

The door was closed and I knew that Yunho weren't going to be back for a long time. Selina was probably taking this time to question me.. to talk to me..

"JaeJoong.."

I faced her as I saw her eyes.. They were surely relieved but something seemed to.. bother her..

"Nae~~" I whispered

"Tell me.. now.. I need.. you to tell me.. how..you.. I.."

I moved myself closer to her as I grabbed her hand. She didn't take it away but she didn't squeeze it lovingly like she used to do..

I looked at her. I was a bit.. uncomfortable to see her.. as Selina.. in Selina's body again. I had gotten so used to that she was in Yuki's body..

But I could feel that it was still her..

I shook my head slowly as I took a deep breath

"Do you want to know the whole story?"

She nodded

"I need to know.." She whispered

I was about to tell her when my eyes, saw from the corner that another nurse were going to enter the room. I guess they were going to take her to the X-ray room as well..

"Not now.. It's not.. a good time.." I said

"But this is a good time Jae!" She protested

I shook my head

I could see that she was wrestling with the questions inside of her. The sadness and the confusion, you couldn't really avoid to see it in her face.. It was streaming out like sunbeams...

I heard the nurse knock on the door and finally she understood what I said..

She let out a sigh of annoyance but didn't say much. She was letting the nurse to take her to the X-ray room..

I was left alone in the room and the only thing I could hear was the nurses, doctors and patients outside running back and forth..

I walked over to the big wide open window and looked outside. It was a cloudy day.. and a lot of stuff had happened. It felt like.. the car accident had just happened but at the same time, it had stopped and had let 3 months pass and then continued with this day when I had fallen from the edge..

I closed my eyes as I folded the right arm and the right hand I placed between my eyes, as if I was thinking deeply

I was trying to think of all the possibilities, how I were going to explain everything cause I knew that Selina were going to ask me difficult questions and I needed to know how to answer it..

"JaeJoong?"

The voice was like a wake up call and I spun around to see Yunho looking at me . Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun were right behind him and again, it was us 5 .. together again..

I walked towards him as I looked at all of them. Junsu, Changmin and Yoochun had seen me but they didn't know how I had survived

"Hyung.. we.." Changmin said but I just took a deep breath and gestured him to stop at the same time

The guys watched me quietly

I wheeled Yunho over to his bed and helped him up on his bed. The other guys sat down on the bed. Both on Yunho's and Selina's and I walked over to the window again

"You might be confused Yunho.." I started and spun around to face him.

"Cause this isn't going to be easy for you to understand.." I said

"But we will try our hardest to explain it to you" Junsu said

Yunho nodded slowly, not really knowing what to say

"Let's start from the beginning" I said and walked over to him and sat down..

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Nyaikou
#1
Loved this story when I first read it 8 years ago on Winglin and I'm glad you kept it on here for more people ❤️?
Angelz0715 #2
Chapter 68: OMG this story is so amazing!!! I keep crying while reading this story!! This seriously need to be feature!!!
HyunJane #3
Chapter 68: it's really good~ i just hope this story will be featured! can you give me soft copies? i really like it! it made me cry , laugh etc.... it's not just fanfiction~ it can give you the TRUE meaning of life~ even some parts are fiction~ but it's still good~ i'm really crying promise! i'm not lying~
wilnikki
#4
This story is really amazing. I read it one day straight. The tree covered in dew was on replay while I was reading the last part and it made me teary eyed on their final moment on the bridge to Jaejoong dying.. a really really good story, thank you very much!!!
yunjae78 #5
Chapter 68: PERFECT! I LOVE THIS STORY!! ♥♥♥
whateveritis #6
always here!! next to you
koreankendi #7
In AWE!!!
Breathtaking! Beautiful!!!
clinaoh
#8
Amazing story <3