~~Yunho~

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I stared at JaeJoong who was staring back at me. His voice was scary, cold and really threatening but I couldn't really.. understand what he meant with.. Selina's.. face..

"What.. do you mean.. by.. Selin..a?" i asked slowly

JaeJoong's eyes softened and he then backed away from me. For a minute he was just standing there, quietly and staring at me. Even Changmin and the rest of the guys avoided to look at me and they were all staring at me

"What do you mean by Selina?" I asked confused again

"nn .. nnot..hing" JaeJoong stammered

I walked over to him

"What do you mean ?" I asked again

For some reason it felt like he was lying

"He's mixing it up Hyung.. Don't.. bother" Junsu said and grabbed my arm

I walked away from JaeJoong with Junsu holding me and we were on the opposite side of the hallway... On the other side Changmin was trying to calm him down

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~JaeJoong~

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I was silently staring blankly in front of me, trying to understand what I had just said.. I can't believe.. HOW COULD I BE SO.. IRRESPONSIBLE!!??!?!

"Hyung.." Changmin whispered

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!" I shouted

The anger was starting to get out and I seriously didn't know what to do. What if I just.. made Selina... No.. maybe if I.. was..

"Don't think about it..!" Yoochun said

"HOW CAN I NOT?!"I shouted

I looked at the door again and started to groan in anger and frustration. If I.. killed her.. seriously.. I will commit suicide..

CHangmin and Yoochun was holding me back and time kept passing.. I don't know for how long but the suspense were killing me.. bit by bit

After waiting for.. 2 hours, 34 minuets and 16 seconds the light suddenly went off and all five of us stepped up and was waiting eagerly for a sign, a doctor, anything to come out behind those doors

After 46 seconds to be exactly, A doctor came out while holding some papers. He looked up at us and stopped in front of us

"You're.. friends.. of Yuki I suppose?" He said in a calm manner

"Yes.." All of us chorused

He nodded

"She's sleeping.. We managed to get all the glasspieces out from her face and we've wrapped her bruises with a band aid. Although, we don't really know how deep the scars are going to be but we'll know after a .. few days when she's been resting for a bit. So for now, she will.. be staying at the hospital. I recommend.. at least.. for a week or two.."

"Where.. is she?" Changmin asked slowly

"Room 344. You may enter"

Without hesitation all of us ran towards the room called 344 and we could hear the gas mask helping her to breathe as we entered. The lights were off and the only light that we could see was a night lamp, on the left side of her bed.

I looked at her as she was resting peacefully on the bed..
It was scary.. Scary to see her lying there.. breathing through a gas mask, her face wrapped in band aid..

Why does it feel like.. all the bad stuff are happening to her.. while.. nothing is happening to us?
Why does it feel like..we're.. so fortunate.. while Selina has done so much good for the people but ends up getting hurt.. even die..?

She has risked her life so many times now. Isn't it her time to be happy?

"She's.. awake" I heard Junsu whisper

My feet ran over to her as I saw her looking at us. Yunho were standing far away from the bed, watching from afar as Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin and I were looking at her.

I grabbed her hand and I felt her squeeze it tightly back. I smiled and bended down and sobbed

She looked at me and even though she didn't say anything her eyes expressed more than words. She asked me why I was even shedding tears..

I chuckled

"I'm just relieved.." I whispered and caressed her hair

"Look at this girl.. She's in bed and yet she still worry about us.." Changmin chuckled as he wiped away a tear

Changmin was holding her other hand and I started to feel the gratitude.. the love.. the happiness.. the part.. Big part.. that she was.. taking in our lives..

She meant more than we actually.. could describe..

"You.. want me to take it off?" Yoochun whispered and looked at us

I shook my head

"It'll help you breathe.." I said

She shook her head slowly

"She wants to take it off.. are we aloud to?" Yoochun asked

Junsu went outside.. and after 5 minutes he came back

"The doctor said if she's ok with it.. and manages to breathe without it.. then he's ok. But she has to put it on afterwards.." Junsu explained

Yoochun took it off .. carefully..

Some bruises on the right side of were shown and I couldn't help but to touch it softly. Just like the doctor said, he had put an band aid around her face, well half of it.. on the left side.. I can't even imagine how it looks like..

"It's.. ok.." She whispered with a lot of air

"You're.. ok?" Junsu asked softly

She looked at him and nodded

"Where's.. Yunho?" She whispered

How can she even ask about him.. when he was the one.. who..

"He's.. over there" Changmin said and pointed at Yunho who was standing far away

"Tell .. . him ..to.... come.." She breathed

All four of us looked at him and seems like he had heard her since he approached the bed and soon he was standing right next to the bed

"Yuki.. I.." Yunho started but she just shook her head

"Gwenchana.." She breathed

"It's not ok... Do you understand that you could.. have.. gone blind.. gotten injured badly.. or something?" CHangmin said while gritting his teeth

I saw selina's eyes looking at Yunho..

I can't believe her.. Even though she could've died.. or something.. her love still.. doesn't changes for him..
Seems like her love.. for Yunho was stronger than I thought..
She's even.. willing to die .. for him..

I shook my head as I felt my heart ache..
I've been through this pain before.. but.. it felt so much.. more.. now since I had to go through it again.. and also because.. it felt like.. I .. was wasting... time .. The time seemed to be so much more precious than it had ever been..

Standing aside, watching her from afar, I had been doing that.. for the last 2 years..

I don't know if I can do that... I had already lost her once..
I won't be able to bear it another time if she cannot complete her mission..

When we left her about 1 hour later, she had fallen asleep and we had said our goodbyes.. All of us were heading down to the parking plot, including Yunho who was hanging with his head, staring down on his feet..

I was still thinking of the heart of mine.. of it's yearning.. calling out, trying to.. convince my head to tell Selina.. my true feelings..

"YOU!!"

The sudden angrily shout took me back to the reality and away from my thoughts. I spun around and I saw Changmin glaring at Yunho

"If you.. won't take the consequences.. for what you've done.. I will not consider you as my Hyung anymore"

Changmin's harsh words hit Yunho right in the face and his sad facial expression was obvious

"What.. do you mean.. Changmin ah~~?" Yunho said slowly

Changmin snarled and looked at him again

"You see.. The Hyung I used to know.. was loving.. a warm person. A gentle and kind.. caring one. The guy who's standing in front of me.. Is an idiot. Take the responsibilities for your actions. From now on.." Changmin said and took one step closer to him

"From now on.. You will visit her everyday, and take care of her until she's discharged"

"Changmin.. Aren't yo.." I started but he cut me off with his hand gesturing at me

"And you will not come up with any excuses. You will take care of her. No matter what. Got that Hyung?"

"But.. i.."

Changmin eyed Yunho

"You caused this mess. You're solving this. You WILL visit her and take care of her.." Changmin said

"Changmin.. I can't do that.. I .." Yunho stuttered

"You? You're what? Not ready to come out from your room and mourning about Selina? Because you still love her?" Changmin snarled coldly

Even I got chills while listening to his harsh tone

"Jung Yunho, that heart of yours.. It's not even filled with love anymore"

"Changmin..." Junsu started

He was going to cross the line. Yunho was just staring blankly and confused at him. Changmin on the other hand were shedding tears as he was looking at Yunho.. I bet the words he's saying are straight from his heart..

They were straight and even though a few tears were falling, his voice was steady

"It's filled with self pity.. and the Hyung I used to know, always found a solution, always found ways to keep on even though it was hard. That was a fighting.. heart.. a heart filled with love.. tenderness, happiness.. determination.. That heart cared.. but the heart in front of me.. It's empty.."

Yunho didn't answer

"You will take care of her. Spend time with her. Or else.. You will regret it.. Trust me" Changmin said

He got into the car as Yoochun were already in there..
I heard Junsu sigh as he got into the car as well and Yunho were still just standing there..
Yoochun and the other 2 were waiting for me..

I was looking sadly at Yunho..

I knew exactly what Changmin were trying to do. He was using this.. situation to force Yunho to spend time with Yuki.. Since he had refused at home when we were trying to talk to him..

Changmin's smart..

So hopefully.. Yunho will realize that it's Selina..

As I got into the car and Yoochun started to drive, I felt myself not at ease anymore..

Why?

Because the love I had for Selina.. was strong.. And knowing that I might loose her one day.. Was kind of .. persuading me to fight..

Fight for her love..