~Selina~

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The next day I woke up really late, seeing that the clock was already 2pm in the afternoon. Well it's a Saturday so.. I can't really blame myself for being a dwaejee since it's aloud on weekends

I got out of bed and headed for the shower and brushed my teeth. WheN i had changed clothes I walked into the kitchen, seeing a note on the table along with a flower

Surprised and stunned, I opened the letter

"I enjoyed our talk last night.. Thank you"

I looked at the flower, smiling widely as I looked at the letter. Seems like Changmin was accepting me and I was becoming closer to him..

But then I realized that I had a long way to go to approach JaeJoong..

I sat down with my cup of coffee and sighed heavily as I started to think about him. IT was so hard to know what I should do about him..

My brain was working , trying to see if there were any gaps, any way I could approach myself to him

I knew JaeJoong pretty well..

My eyes widened as I started to think about something

Since I know him so well, I might as well use that as an advantage.. right?
I flew up from my seat and cheered

I can't loose to him. i really can't.. I had to use all kinds of methods..

"I won't break down even if I wanted to.. I can't give up" I mumbled

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~Yunho~

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I was sitting by my desk, trying to read the chapters for the upcoming exam that was approaching but I really didn't understand a thing and my mind kept slipping back to Selina, to my and Changmin's bed talk and again back to Selina..

I couldn't stop myself from thinking about her, neither could I avoid to look at the pictures of us at the shelf

In the end, I gave up and looked at the clock. I had been trying to study for 2 hours but that was just a waste of time..

I decided to go out and take a walk

I grabbed my jacket and went outside

"Hyung.. Where are you going?" Junsu asked as soon as I passed the livingroom

"Out.. I can't stay in here.. it's choking me" I mumbled

"Yunho.." JaeJoong started

"Give me some.. time" I said and went outside

AS I was walking, I was breathing the fresh air, trying to clear my mind as my feet were just walking, not knowing which destination I should go to

After 1 hour of walking, I found myself standing in front of a flowershop

I looked at it for a few minutes before.. going inside. Just like I've always have, I bought a bouquet of flowers, which was Selina's favourite and my feet soon took me to the graveyard

I looked at the stone for 5 minutes before bending down, placing the flowers gently

I didn't say anything but I kept looking at the stone

"Will you be happy.. if I'm.. happy.. like Magnae said?" I whispered

Of course there was no answer

I sighed and stood up again

I started to make my way out of the cemetery. I knew that if I stayed any longer, i wouldn't be able to hold back my tears and of course, I wouldn't be able to control my emotions.

But my feet soon stopped at the place that I was afraid of most. Her apartment

I guess I didn't realize that I have been walking all the way from the cemetery to her apartment.

Inside my jacket, I knew I had the keys to the apartment. Although, I didn't know if I had the guts, if I was ready to enter the apartment..

With shaky hands and a worried facial expression on my face, my feet slowly started to walk towards her apartment. I tried to protest but even though my heart were trying to stop me, my mind didn't

I found myself soon standing in front of her door and of course, in front of the door, there was a picture of her, candles around the picture, as well as letters and flowers

I bended down and looked at the picture . This was the first schoolpic she had taken when she just entered

I smiled at it slightly as I looked at it.

I stood up again and took out the key from my pocket. I hesitated, kept walking back and forward and after 30 minutes of hesitation, nervousness and a fast beating heart, I entered the apartment

Silent.. completely silent

I saw that her family had been there, covering the furniture with sheet. I could hear myself beating as well as my heartbeats. I closed the door and slowly entered the apartment as the familiar smell filled me

This was surely Selina's apartment.. since she loved candles that smelled like strawberry or vanilla

I wandered around in the apartment, afraid to touch anything, afraid to even breathe. My steps, I tried to walk a bit quieter.

Her bedroom was closed and I rested my hand on the doorknob before deciding to open the room
I opened the door and I saw her bedroom.

I saw pictures of us everywhere.. and I saw all the teddybears that I had given her was there, all letters.. Everything was spread out..

I entered the room slightly as I looked around in the room. It didn't feel like Selina's apartment anymore.. More like.. an empty house, left with only memories, love and sadness..

No tears were forming in my eyes but my heart was crying. Ever since I entered the apartment , right now I had the courage to touch anything and the first thing was.. our couple rings.

The necklace was hanging on the wall, surrounded by stars that she had formed as a heart and in the middle there was a picture of us. I looked down on my own finger as I saw that I was still wearing it. I hadn't realized that until now..

I smiled slightly as I thought of all the jewelry I had given her. Even though she didn't wear it everyday, she was still treasuring everything. Everything was neatly put and her room was decorated with memories allover

I walked over to the bed and sat down slowly as I was still fighting the tears, prevent them from falling

I grabbed the couple bear that we shared and I pressed the stomach as I heard both of our voices coming out

"I love You Jung Yunho"

"I love you Park Sol Mi"

That was the end of my fight for the tears and now it started to fall
I saw the two bears sitting right next to each other. I then remembered that I had forgot to bring the couple bear that she had given me.. since both of us were in a rush to the Christmas party

Silently, I stood up and grabbed the bear with Selina's voice, put it inside my jacket and walked out of the apartment

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~Selina~

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The clock was almost 11 pm and I was still not finished with the homeworks.

"Aigoo~~ I give up.." I muttered

I closed the books with a bam and switched on the tv and headed towards the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea

After I was done, I zapped through the channels but as usual, there was nothing to watch..

*Ding dong

I stared at the door as I heard the doorbell ring

*Ding dong

I looked at the clock and put down my cup of tea, tip toeing to the door

"Who.. can it be at this hour.." I said frightened

"Nuguseyo?" I asked

No answer

*Ding Dong

My heart started to beat faster

But I knew that all student buildings had a gate code, so the person who was outside right now must live in this area. I grabbed the baseball rack and opened the door slowly as I sneek peaked outside

When the door opened , the baseball racket fell down on the floor, my eyes widened in shock as I saw who it was

Right outside my door, I saw my Yunho crying with his hands inside his jacket. He was looking to the side.

"Yunho..." I said softly

He looked up at me with tears streaming down

"I.. didn't.. know.. where else.. to go" He mumbled