~Yunho~

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Stunned all of us were just standing there watching as she got out of the school.

I couldn't say anything and I don't even know why I was in school at the first place

"YAH! Hyung.. let's go.. You'll get sick if we stay here" Junsu said

It was kind of a wake up call for all of us. I looked at JaeJoong after she had said those words and seems like he was at loss and also a bit annoyed

"JAeJoong ah~~ Gwench..." But he cut me off

"That little....." He cursed

"Aish.. Hyung.. let's deal with that later.. We have to go home.." CHangmin said

The guys went home with me and I got into the shower immediately just to prevent myself from getting a cold

AFter the shower I sat down slowly on my bed as I was putting on my sweater.

I started to think of the day and it started to remind me of.. Selina..
For some reason this girl started to get bullied because she had been talking to us.. and the girls went all nuts over it.. It happened to Selina as well..

"Aish..." I said and threw myself back on the bed

To me.. it just kind of felt like a Deja Vu.. like.. our history is kind of repeating itself.. just that.. I'm not interested in this girl..

I grabbed the necklace that I had around my neck and was holding it dearly as I closed my eyes

I smiled for myself as I was thinking about her
I got up from the bed and opened the window and sat down with the legs inside as my upper body were sitting on the edge facing the sky that was preparing itself since the night was coming

I looked up and I guess.. sitting here was bringing ease to my heart..

"Yunho ah~~... You're not eating?" I heard JAeJoong say outside the door

I didn't answer as I was closing my eyes facing the night that was about to arrive

I heard JaeJoong enter and soon he joined me sitting at the window

I opened my eyes again and looked at him as I saw him wearing the bracelet that Selina had given him for his birthday..

"Selina.. is looking down on us..right?" I asked softly

JaeJoong took a deep breath as he faced the half dark sky

"I'm sure she is.." JaeJoong said

I chuckled as a tear fell

I felt JaeJoong's arm on my shoulder tapping it comfortingly

Soon I heard JaeJoong sob as well. I looked up on him as he was crying. I think.. I had never seen him cry like this..
For some reason it felt like he was kind of letting out his feelings right now

"Gwenchana?" I sobbed

He looked up and nodded

I grabbed his hand and squeezed it as he squeezed it back

"You remember when she.. cooked for us the first time?" He asked

I started to laugh when I started to think of it. She had never cooked before and when all of the guys, we managed to persuade her to cook for us, she burnt it all but we still ate it.. since we didn't want to disappoint her.. but everything ended up in a food fight and well.. we had a take out later on..

"I can't believe we still ate it.." JaeJoong chuckled

"NAe~~ It was horrible.."

"But she improved as the time passed. She really.. tried.. her best to cook for us.. and in the end.. I guess.. she even managed to be better than me.." JaeJoong said

Both of us laughed as we looked up on the sky

Quietly both of us were sitting and sobbing and we didn't stop..

"Sol Mi ah~~... You're... happy.. right?" I whispered as my voice cracked

Suddenly I saw JaeJoong cough and then he broke down and all the tears was streaming down his face..

I looked at him a bit surprised but was soon by his side. I hugged him comfortingly as he was crying hardly

"I miss.. her so .. " JaeJoong stuttered while crying

Soon the door opened and the rest of the members entered. They saw us both crying and it didn't take them long until they figured out that we were crying over Selina

Soon I felt our group hugging each other..

All of us cried together, as we were trying to comfort each other

I started to feel guilty, for being selfish for the past 2 weeks.. for .. abandoning them.. for.. locking them outside.. and not.. being there.. as all four of them were trying their hardest to be strong around me.. just so that I wouldn't break down .. But I guess.. I wasn't the only one who missed her..

She meant something to all of us.. and not just me..

How could I be so selfish?

"Mianhe~~" I mumbled

"for what..." Yoochun stuttered between his sobs

I looked at them

"For being selfish.. I forgot.. that she meant something to all of us.." I cried

Another grouphug gathered us and we hugged each other..

I knew that she was happy up there.. and she was looking down on us. I couldn't.. let her watch me.. being all miserable.. which would make her feel bad.. and.. that.. is not good.. I have to try my best.. I have my members to take care about..

Later that night I went over to the window and looked up at the sky

I pulled my hands together as I was holding my necklace. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath

"You're... happy.. up there right?..."

I looked up as I saw stars shining brightly

I smiled

"Just.. wait for me... a little more.. I'm.. just going to finish my living.. on earth.. first.." I cried silently as I felt my heart sinking inside of me

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~Selina~

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On unsteady feet I walked towards school with anxiety, not knowing what was waiting for me today

But I had to go to school. Or else.. I might not get to see him...

Just like yesterday, I waited at the same place as I was waiting for the van to arrive. All the girls were standing there as well, watching..

As the time kept passing my heart started to sink as well..

When i was about to go towards school, I finally saw the van coming..

Just like yesterday everyone stepped outside.. and to my happiness I also saw Yunho.

Although, he didn't look at anyone , he kept his eyes straight. Not even a smile could be seen

When it was finally lunchbreak, I decided to go outside and sit under the tree which I used to do before I passed away . I was looking at the lunchbox and sighed heavily.

Not for the whole day had I seen him or the dong bang boys and it was starting to get frustrating..

Suddenly a shadow was covering the sun and I looked up slowly to see all of the guys standing there.
Junsu Changmin and Yoochun in the back, JaeJoong slightly next to Yunho as Yunho was looking down on me with a weird facial expression

I couldn't blow my cover now.. so I hurried to get up on my feet and greeted

"Annyeong haseo Sunbaenim.." I mumbled

"You're not allowed to sit here" YUnho said

Slowly I looked up

He frowned at me

"Mwoh?"

JAeJoong stepped up and pointed at my stuff

"You're not allowed to sit here. This is not your spot.."

I started to get annoyed with JaeJoong's attitude and looked at him

"It's your spot?" I glared at him

JaeJoong fired another death glare as I heard Yoochun utter himself

"Mianhe~~ but.. this place.. used to .. belong.. to someone.. special.. and .. it feels.. wrong if you.. sit here.."

My heart softened up as I looked at them. All the guys looked away and Yunho was staring down on his feet..

I loosened up and was at loss with words

"Please leave" Yunho said quietly

He stepped up and walked past me like I was air. The guys soon followed him.. leaving me behind

I bended down slowly as I started to gather my things.

I knew that there was a change in Yunho.. but not even him.. used to be this.. cold hearted..

I was pressing my bag close to my chest as I started to wobble my way out of there..

So yesterday.. when he saved me.. it didn't mean anything..

I stopped and looked back as I saw them sitting there.. Or more like.. four of them sitting there as Yunho was sitting a few feet away with his hands inside his pockets and staring up at the sky

Seeing him like this.. was tearing me down.. and seeing all of them.. so depressed was really hard..

Yesterday meant nothing .. then..

He must've reacted.. of the same reason of going to the rooftop..

He thought it was.. 'Selina' ..