Kyungsoo thought he had everything and everyone figured out. He knew who was in love, he knew the mean boys from the nice ones. He knew the answer was 42. But he can't help doubting himself as everything he thought he knew starts falling apart. Maybe he didn't know anything after all...


Do Kyungsoo is a pessimistic boy who, simply put, hates most everything and everyone. Kris Wu and his terrible gang of friends, including Kim Jongin, are no exception to this. 

Everything is strange this year. Best friends are fighting. His friends are going to parties and losing their ities. He's becoming friends with the enemy. And this boy, this mysterious boy, is writing him messages...



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This story is technically complete! (Though there are spin-offs.)

WARNING: Some violence. ual content, . Angst. (Minor) infidelity. Very vague mention of suicide. Bullying. Semi-abusive relationship? (Not physical, but psychological.) Actually, psychological abuse plays a reasonable role in this. Cheesiness isn't my style but I will use it mockingly sometimes. Cultural inaccuracies.

Ships mentioned and/or acted upon: Baekyeol, Xiuhan, Xiuchen, Hunhan, Taoris, Kray, ing, Suchen, Sesoo, Baeksoo, Keysoo. 

This isn't just , or just fluff, or just angst. Nor is it your typical hs!au. It's a story that has a plot and development and kind of falls all over the spectrum. It's a love story and a hate story and it's not all rainbows and butterflies, it's not all tears and pain, it's not all . It's everything. That's what love is. And I hope you'll like it.

I can't believe this (miscalc) is almost at 80K views. You guys are insane~

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Pingpongko #1
Chapter 33: Love the story but I just can’t or not fond of soo being a top especially in this story line
Chapter 39: JongIn is my love! But I never hated him as much as I hate him now. Ughhh ??
Chapter 25: okay both of her stories are drafted
Chapter 25: aww so sweet ... Talking about your wife and all. I will definitely read her stories
SeHunHanLu #5
Chapter 28: Wait, wait, wait... You have a wife??? You're married??? Whoa! I didn't know that. So either you're a guy writing this, or you're a girl writing this... Hmm... Which one..? I'm dying to know! (P.S., I decided to continue reading the fic ;)I luv it, btw)
Chapter 17: OMG this is just so crazy. I can't pity on anyone cause it doesn't just make any sense. I mean if Kris and others had suffered they should have known better not to treat Kyungsoo like that.

foolish sick bastards.