Musings of a Hopeful Heart

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Hello, back again, here's another update since my Sunday morning and afternoon are free of schedules. This was actually part of Chapter 5 but since that one's already too long, i decided to just include this for Chapter 6. 
 

 

 
 
 
 
"Unni.." 
 
The girl below mumbles and squirms. 
 
Soft kisses land on her neck just below her ear and the feeling was marvelous. She held her in place as the girl above  starts to deliciously yet slowly rock her body against hers.
 
"Mhmm?"
 
"We..s-should go" as much as she wanted to continue this little endeavor, she had to fight the feeling or else, her beloved would be chopped into pieces by their friend. 
 
"We'll be late and...mhmm, and S-unny unni will..hah.." words ceased as her lips were captured into a fierce kiss. 
 
The younger girl pinned on the bed slipped her smooth hands inside Taeyeon's shirt and wrapped them around her bare waist. 
 
That made Taeyeon stop her ministrations, anticipating the start of round four. 
 
"Unni, stop" the girl said, making Taeyeon pout a little.
 
She laughed and kissed those lips one last time.
 
"Later, I promise" 
 
With a sigh, Taeyeon reluctantly detached herself from the girl. 
 
"Don't sulk, please?" Taeyeon heard, a hand circling her wrist. 
 
She smiled and gave the younger girl a peck.
 
"Later" she mumbled into the kiss.
 
 
 
***
 
 
 
"Are you ready? forget anything? Say it now and not later when we're five minutes before entering a party" Taeyeon says to her.
 
The girl gives her a disapproving look and Taeyeon laughs at her scowl.
 
Their meeting was very unexpected, random if you may. Taeyeon just left the entertainment building and it was a little early to go home so she opted to canvass for new pastels in an old art supply shop since her old one's already tattered and had grown so short she could barely use it, when suddenly a girl comes up to her and strikes a conversation. 
 
She was oddly familiar.
 
 Time does things to one's face.
 
She's really pretty, She's prettier today than yesterday.
 
But definitely not the prettiest girl Taeyeon ever saw, she had seen that person. She had lived with her and loved her to the deepest depths of the ocean,to the highest portion of the sky the  clouds could touch, even deeper than 6 feet under. 
 
She set the thought aside. 
 
Today, the world hates her, she concludes. She wished she was sick, or injured or anything that would suffice as a plausible excuse not to go to Sunkyu's stupid house-warming party. 
 
She would happily go though, knowing that she'd see her friends turned sisters again, they used to have gatherings every now and then when everyone's schedule is flawless, but tonight, there's an addition. 
 
 
An addition which subtracted a lot of things from her. 
 
An addition she's not sure if she's ready to see. 
 
 
The wound isn't fresh anymore but it's still there, healing ever so slowly, much to her dismay, and will probably leave her a scar as a constant reminder of someone she wanted so badly yet cannot attain.
 
What a load of bull, she thought. 
 
Sunkyu called her days ago of the said party but warned her that 'she' will finally be back in town. Just the name gives her combustion chills clobbering her spines and sending a nauseous, droning sound to her brain. 
 
 
Tiffany
 
 
After all the misery she's been through, the name still rings beautifully in her ears, echoes in her brain, sometimes she thinks, as cheesy as it may seem, that her heart beats the name itself.
 
 
Tif-fa-ny
 
 
 
She scoffs at the thought.
 
 
 
"Hey, everything okay?" A voice reverberated inside her car, breaking her reverie. 
 
"Huh? Yeah, just thinking..."
 
"About?" the girl pried.
 
Taeyeon bit the inside of her cheek, gripped the wheel with unnecessary pressure and tried to think of a good slip as fast as she can.
 
"Of what.. present we should give to Sunkyu"
 
"Hmm, good question, do you know her favorite brand of wine?"
 
Taeyeon mentally shook her head, recollecting herself. Funny, how a person could leave her quiveringly bewildered with muddled thoughts just by thinking about her. 
 
"Oh wait! I think..I think we should get her champagne instead! We're in for some celebration after all, right unni?" she beamed. The same innocent, round eyes staring back at her.
 
She smiled back halfheartedly, the feeling was rather lacking. 
 
She felt sorry for the girl, she'll never have the entirety of Taeyeon's heart. 
 
"Champagne it is" 
 
 
 
***
 
 
 
They were now approaching Sunkyu's residence hand in hand. Taeyeon tries to push away the nervousness, anxiety, excitement and longing by holding the young girl's hand tighter.
 
The girl notices it but keeps it to herself, in the seemingly soundproof and hollow confines of her chest, she heard her heart crack a little. She gave Taeyeon a tight smile. 
 
"You give this to her" Taeyeon passes the champagne bottle to her. 
 
"Oh darn! We forgot to wrap it unni!"
 
"That won't be necessary" Taeyeon frowns but the girl already fled back to the car.
 
"Just a ribbon, I swear unni, you go ahead, I'll be right up" she somewhat shouted.
 
"No. I'll wait for you right here" 
 
 
 
Taeyeon's phone beeped, displaying the name of the young girl.
 
"Don't be stubborn now unni, go, go. I'll be there in a jiffy" 
 
 
She half-smiled, half-scoffed at it,she very much appreciates the girl's effort in pleasing not only her, but also her friends. She looked at the girl before surrendering her hands up in the air.
 
The tension was evidently making the both of them uneasy, though neither admitted it. But is admission still needed when everything's already open and shut? 
 
It wasn't brand new information that Taeyeon's heart already belonged to someone else that wasn't, isn't and will never be her. But she had loved Taeyeon before so having her now, though physically, isn't that bad, or so she thought.
 
Maybe they can have a fresh start  this time, given their history. It's just a matter of catching up and being more expressive, bolder, more adventurous and that's what she does, keeping Taeyeon distracted and silently hoping that the wholeness of Taeyeon's affection would be redirected back to her, just like the old days.  
 
It was quite peaceful back then when it was just the two of them, when she was trying her best everyday to help Taeyeon overcome the massive heartbreak she was in, she even thought for a delusional moment that when they lay in bed panting and sweating, it was her name Taeyeon calls for.
 
And here she thought they had come a long way.
 
She smiles drearily.
 
Turns out, just a single phone call would bring her torpedoeing back to square one.
 
 
***
 
 
 
"Hey unni" she says, pecking Taeyeon's cheek while cradling grocery bags in her arms.
 
No response.
 
"It was freezing cold today" she says again, still oblivious to Taeyeon's somewhat stunned state.
 
"Unni?" she cooes, drops the grocery bags on the countertop and sits across Taeyeon, leans forward and cups her cheeks.
 
 
Taeyeon snaps out of it.
 
 
"Huh? What? Sorry I was..."
 
"Shh, it's okay.." she purrs, leans further and kisses a pair of frozen lips.
 
 
Lips that immediately pulled back.
 
Now she's worried
 
 
Her hands motioned for Taeyeon's, giving it a firm hold.
 
"Everything alright?"
 
It took a few seconds for the other girl to respond.
 
"Y-yeah, Sunkyu just called..."
 
"Really? What did she say?" she asked with a smile. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
"...Tiffany's back in Seoul"
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Her face fell
 
 
 
"Oh"
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

And cut! teehee

I bet you guys are dying to know who the girl is. Keep it together though, will reveal her in the next chapter. 

Bye everyone, take care and don't do drugs! 
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ephemeral--
#1
ooo i love this
LisaManobanisBae
#2
Chapter 17: Ang sakit sakit bes. But both endings are realistic for me. Either masampal nang katotohanan na minsan kailangan mo munang maranasan yung sakit bago mo marealize yung maling choices na akala mo magpapasaya sayo. Or marealize mo na tama na masakit na. Move on na. Maybe we're just stuck sa thinking na hindi sya realistic kapag happy ending but truth is, life is just a matter of choice. Paninindigan mo ba yung choices mo or yung feelings mo. Nice story Btw. :)
eonnifan
#3
Chapter 1: just read this and... read "morocco" !!! reminded me of someone lol
classix1804
#4
Chapter 18: I wished it ended with a car accident... for some sad sad angst
classix1804
#5
Chapter 2: OMG thank for the epub download link! You're like the first author that I came across that gives such links! Thks ver much!!!! You're fic is sooo good!!^^
JessicasThong
#6
Chapter 15: Came here from SGSD ~.^ I like this story. So angsty, and seemingly realistic.
“Khun?! W-what a nice surprise, what brings you h-here?” Sunkyu stammered. Panic and alarm were evident in her voice.
Me when I read that: "OH OH OH " *flails around in my bed*
Something's off about me. Anyway, I know I'm very late in reading this, but oh well. Nice job~
xFallenAngelxx
#7
Chapter 18: YOU ARE AN AMAZING AUTHOR <3333 This fic is so awesome, god, i just cant <3 my heart is flutteringggg <3 it's just so perfect <3 i love every single thing about it <3 Thank you for writing it! ^^
Julie_luniie
#8
Chapter 17: I like it. (: Happy endings are the best! Keep up the good work!! ;)