All good things come to an end, nothing lasts forever. Flowers wither away, humans and animals die, seasons change, the human memory weakens and sometimes, feelings fade. It is indeed inevitable but what matters is the legacy that one leaves behind and what it does to influence other people’s lives.

So Nyuh Shi Dae or globally known as Girls’ Generation’s disbandment was sadly tragic, not only to Koreans but to their international fans as well. People, mostly fans, cried and mourned like someone died, impossible as it may seem but it was a rare time when Koreans are in a very forlorn state they couldn’t even do a single job right.

It was gloomy, the atmosphere was gloomy.

SNSD.

Korea’s national girl group

Beloved, admired and desired.

It’s not something that would go on forever, the fans knew that. It’s just a matter of taking it in a mature way. Sure there are rabid fans going insane crying, flailing their arms about shouting ‘No! This can’t be happening!” that amongst other wilder things you can see on their blogs but there are the reasonable ones, probably those who’ve been fans since the group debuted. They would smile, shed a tear or two and sigh in relief with the thought ‘Finally, you girls can come back to your normal lives, no more hectic schedules, rigid routines and nasty below-the-belt commentaries, Finally, you can rest and just be yourselves.

Other Korean entertainment companies would rejoice deep inside. One big rival down, we must work harder for us to reach the apex of this industry, it’ll be easier now that they’re gone. Most kpop groups were chopfallen as well, though already successful in their careers, they’re humans too, they are fans, they are friends of SNSD. It’s hard not to love them.

The members themselves have a hard time taking it all in. They spent the remaining days as a group going around the country doing farewell performances and interviews that were broadcasted internationally. After that they would go home together, not to their million dollar homes but to their old humble dorm. They’d watch movies and just savor the meager time left, order Chinese take-out and take thousands of pictures, videos and be happy, halfheartedly.

But then they would cry, they would sob so hard until no more tears came out of their eyes. Gathered in their favorite position of a circle, they would hold hands, hug, foreheads touching they would say things to each other.

“Thank you for taking care of me”

“You guys worked hard”

“Let’s not forget this, what we had. No one should ever forget.”

“Good luck on your lives”

“I’ll miss you guys”

“I love you”

***

Two years had passed and the storm seemed to have calmed. People are moving on with their lives, the occasional stans and paparazzi are still there but they aren’t that hyped anymore, it is as if SNSD is a big part of Korean music industry that they have to check up on them from time to time. They’ve become less harmless and more casual, much less interested than before since rookie groups keep popping out from various companies. The fresh ones are always fun to talk about.

“Yes, you better not skip out on me! You hear me?!” Sunkyu playfully yelled, a phone on her ear. She was carrying a paper bag on one arm and somewhat jogging a little. The call ended, she pocketed her phone and entered her car.

“Took you long enough for a carton of milk.” Sooyoung said, sitting on the passenger seat and rummaging through the car’s compartment for a snack but found nothing but old game tapes and an adult film cd.

Her eyes widened.

“What the hell Sunkyu?!”

“Hey! Don’t judge! That’s not mine, it’s Yuri’s, I’m planning to give it back later” Sunkyu spoke in defense, starting the engine afterwards.

“But you’ve watched it?” Sooyoung pushed further.

“Um, just some portions…” the shorter girl mumbled inaudibly.

“Oh God!” the taller girl feigned disbelief and slapped her forehead.

“ aside, where should I drop you off?”

“KBS please, I have a taping in less than thirty”

“Aww well would you look at that, accompanying me even though you’re busy, thanks Soo” Sunny baby-talked.

“Oh shush, I’m just worried you’d get buried in all those grocery bags with what little height you have” Sooyoung pointed at the heap of paper bags at the backseat.

“Gosh, you still can’t stop fussing with my height, can you?!”

“Yah! Eyes on the road, I don’t want to die yet, we just started living our lives again”

That seemed to calm Sunkyu down as the car stopped wheeling from left to right, regaining its well aligned position on the road.

“Taeyeon called” Sunkyu rattled off, Sooyoung turned her head and smiled widely.

“Really?! That’s great! Will she come later?!”

“Yes. Also, she said she’s going to bring someone”

“Oh? Hmm, so she’s finally getting some action huh?”

“Seems so, give me a guess?”

“Nah, can’t think of anyone except you know.. but that’s impossible since she just got married.”

“True, it came as a shock for me, seriously speaking.”

The car had reached the prestigious building. Eyes turned to the two as they said their goodbyes. There will probably be an article out by tomorrow about that, Sunkyu thought.

“I’ll just have to stock up on pasta, I guess.”

“Yeah, you do that since I won’t have the time to eat any of the snacks I brought today, gosh, this day is going to be a long one.”

Sunkyu rolled her eyes and smiled.

“Don’t forget to bring Yoona” she reminded.

“Will do, now get out of here, drive safe!” Sooyoung patted the car’s roof before going inside to do her business.

Her phone buzzed with a familiar song from one of their successful albums.

“Can’t believe she hasn’t changed it, probably don’t know how” Sunkyu giggled to herself.

“Hello?”

“Sica! I’m on my way back, I dropped off-“

“Sunny! You won’t believe who just arrived at your doorstep!!!”

Sunkyu shopped for supplies and ingredients for tonight’s house warming party. She just bought a new one near Gangnam, it was stylish and modern. Yuri helped her pick that house.

***

Nothing much had changed in that span of two years, just them finally having absolute freedom. Going clubbing, meeting old and new people, having lots of fun, experiencing stuffs they were restricted to do before.

Nothing much

Just catching up with life

Their bodies haven’t adjusted with sudden change though. Before, they long to sleep for a whole day, especially Jessica who’s sleepy most of the time and Yoona because of her inhuman taping schedules. Considering their almost jam-packed itinerary every day, there’s no time for sleep. It’s kind of funny, now that they have all the time in the world, their bodies won’t let them sleep. It’s like a smoker’s withdrawal syndrome when one decides to quit the vice.

Right now they dialed down the parties and clubbing shenanigans focusing more on family vacations and what business to put up since there won’t be any salary from the company anymore, better think of something to keep the income flowing, that, and the constant gatherings they have whenever everyone’s free. They had promised to not forget.

“Let’s not forget this, what we had. No one should ever forget.”

And none did.

Some of them are dating, yes, but no one’s married yet. Well, except for one.

“Tiffany!” Yuri cried out, hurriedly kicking her heels away, clumsily slipping into one of Sunkyu’s house flip-flops. She lunged herself at Tiffany and gave her a bone-crushing hug.

“Yuri..” Tiffany breathed and hugged back, her eyes disappearing. Jessica is leaning against the balcony’s sliding door with arms folded, a sweet smile plastered on her face as she watched the celebrated members of SNSD- no, as she watched her dear friends come in one by one.

Yuri, Yoona, Sooyoung, Hyoyeon and Juhyun now surround Tiffany bombarding the poor girl with endless questions.

“Oh my God! How are you?! You’re a bit tan!”

“Unnie, let me see the ring! Oh! It’s marvelous!”

“How was honeymoon in Morocco?”

“Is he treating you well? Tell me the truth!”

“One at a time girls, one at a time!” Tiffany surrendered her hands up, smiling with her usual contagious smile that makes you want to hate yourself for looking at it, it’s that beautiful.

 A beautiful smile for an equally beautiful face

No wonder, she’s Korea’s top eye-smile killer.

They looked at her expectantly. Tiffany sighed, there’s no way out.

“It was really good. After we got back from Morocco, he surprised me with a vacation villa in Phuket. It was nice and beautiful, it’s near the beach , I bet Jessi would love it there” Tiffany spoke, and gave Jessica a teasing look which the latter dismissed by rolling her eyes at the girl.

“But we’ll probably stay in Korea for a few years, I mean, our roots still belong here, we can’t just leave.” She finished.

“Unnie, I can’t believe you’re married now…” Yoona spoke with seriousness, almost pondering.

“Yeah, and we all thought Hyoyeon unnie would be the first to tie the knot” Juhyun agreed.

“Am I supposed to be disappointed with that fact?” Hyoyeon playfully countered while wrapping Juhyun in a light headlock.

“Ugh, let go!” the youngest protested.

“Okay, you kiddos continue your bickering elsewhere, go fiddle with Sunkyu’s new plasma TV or whatever.” Sooyoung shooed away a bickering Juhyun and Hyoyeon followed by Yoona who was in a dilemma on whose side to pick.

“So fany… First of all, Congratulations. I know I was at your wedding personally and I saw the whole thing but still, I would like to congratulate you this time not as an SNSD member, but as a close friend.” Sooyoung said meekly, gripping both Tiffany’s hands in her.

“Aww, Soo, thanks a lot, you don’t know how much that means to me” Tiffany answered, eyes forming into thin crescents.

“But I have to ask..” Sooyoung pushed on. Tiffany’s heart suddenly fell. She knew where this is going, she bit her lip.

“Are you really happy?”

It was such an easy question, such a simple question even a three-year old won’t have any problem answering, but why does it feel like the hardest question ever thrown at her?

Was it a Yes? No? Maybe? She looked at Sooyoung. Tiffany knew everyone was a bit troubled when she suddenly announced her marriage to Nickhun, but they respect her so they didn’t probe any further except for Sooyoung and Jessica. They tell you the worst things knowing it would help.

Help what? Clear her mind? Did she make the wrong move? She looked at Sooyoung, she’s so pretty, Tiffany actually envied her big eyes, prominent cheekbones and her long beautiful legs. Sooyoung didn’t looked troubled, her smile was kind, patient, understanding. Much like Taeyeon’s.

Right.

Taeyeon.

We popped the balloon Tiffany’s been avoiding since her arrival. Just the thought of her brings a smile to her face and somehow tonight, an ache in her heart.

Taeyeon,  her first roommate.

Taeyeon, the one she lived with for almost half of her life.

Taeyeon, her best friend.

Taeyeon, the one who cares the most.

Taeyeon, whose love for her never faltered.

Taeyeon, her wife for..eternity?

Funny how she said that but couldn’t keep it, I mean it’s just for fanservice right? And an appreciation for all the things Taeyeon did for her since they were fifteen. It’s just that. Her mind was hazy, her heart hurts, she’s somebody else’s wife now, not Taeyeon’s, her heart really hurts.

Oh don’t be so immature and melodramatic, you’re being carried away by that stupid pairing people invented. She scolded herself. This is reality, everything’s nothing like a fairytale come true. The truth hurts. Suddenly, Tiffany doesn’t like the truth anymore.

Suddenly Tiffany wanted to cry. Her eyes feel warm behind the lashes, she could picture them herself, the glossy eyes, though strong she’s vulnerable when it came to emotions and feelings. But why would she cry? And for whom?

Herself? Taeyeon? Or perhaps.. .her feelings for Taeyeon?

Does she even have feelings for the girl? If there is, then why is there a ring on her finger? Taeyeon didn’t give her that.

Oh yeah. Nickhun gave her that. The guy she dated for a long time now. The guy with big, adorable eyes and bushy eyebrows, charming, has a nice voice, loves God and loves her. She should be happy, everything’s perfect.

Is it not?

Long, slender arms engulfed her front and around the shoulders, her reverie was broken. Sooyoung is very understanding of certain situations, she doesn’t judge like most people. She’ll try her hardest to understand because she is a good friend, a very good one. Sooyoung’s always there, watching them, protecting them, serving as a buffer when things between her and Taeyeon get too intense, especially in public events, be it arguing or just plain clinginess.

 She’s very considerate. What Taeyeon is, What Tiffany is and whatever’s going on between them. All of the girls, including sooyoung, accept and love them the way they are. It’s amusing when Tiffany browses the internet sometimes and find candid pictures of her so-called pairing with Taeyeon, Sooyoung would be in the background, seemingly acting as a watch-out and how people would call her President of the taeny shippers or the first locksmith (that’s how people call themselves if they’re fans of the so-called taeny pairing, Tiffany learned that through the internet). She would laugh and then realize how lucky she is to have a friend like Sooyoung. To be friends with the other eight girls.

Her cheeks feel the familiar chest of the tall girl. Sooyoung tightened her hug and placed a tender kiss on Tiffany’s temples.

“You don’t have to answer” Sooyoung pulled away and was walking back to the troublesome trio causing chaos in Sunkyu’s newly furnished living room. That girl would freak.

“Soo..”

The tall girl glanced back and smiled.

“Is Taeyeon—will she come tonight?”

The smile gradually turned into a sad one, almost pitiable.

“Yes”

A/N

First chapter done, it's kinda long but i hope you liked it. I'm not really on my usual cheerful self right now :(

let me tell you guys that i made this for my own sake, just to release the frustration i have, i posted it here cause i wanted to share it but then someone started commenting about me being a khunfany hater and a delusional taeny shipper i mean, I DID PUT ON MY FOREWORD THAT I AM NOT A HATER OF ANY COUPLE PAIRING AND I CLEARLY REMEMBER SAYING 'NO BASHING OR ANYTHING BECAUSE THAT'S JUST A STORY I MADE' now if you guys wont get your head straight and put on more nasty comments or anything then i'll definitely have a word with you in private, asianfanfics is a place for writers to express themselves, and you contradicting any author means not giving that person a right to express himself, now is that right?

So please, if you dont like the idea of any authors' story then dont read it. Simple as that, get lost instead of saying bad, accusing things about it. Gosh

If this continues to happen, i might as well delete this story and post it elsewhere where people are more open minded mature and understanding.

I'm sorry for ending my Author's Note this way, it's just that I'm really pissed.