They say when you fall in love, everything comes in small, tiny details. A mere brush of a hand that awakens the little hairs on your skin, a fleeting glance that makes your heart stop beating, a coy smile that smothers your lungs, and a memory that drowns you in an ocean of secrets. It’s the way you associate and remember things –– dates, places and the number of breaths it took for you to muster the strength and say those three gruelling words. It’s about finding the strength to say no, when it’s always been a yes –– a thousand heartrending times, YES. Contradictions, puzzles and a lifetime of promises (mostly to yourself), it’s about concocting the finest, most beautiful recipe for disaster and loving its wrongness like it’s okay. You explode together in a sea of stars and get lost in the expanse of universes in the break of each other’s eyes and wish so hard that you can stay in that moment.  

And when all these factors add up and become too much, your head explodes and all these things –– these small, tiny details, they all come full circle.

It all comes down to that one person, that one name that gives you shivers, sends you sparks and makes you forget how to breathe.

It all comes down to him––

Lu Han.

They don’t know I’ve waited all my life.