Fault

Baby Story

 

*Look at that smile*

 

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Jongin’s POV

Waiting outside the doctor’s office

They whisked him off the moment we arrived and I wasn’t allowed in.

I paced impatiently outside, biting on my nails nervously. Why wasn’t anyone coming out to tell me something? What was going on?! Was there something wrong with Kyungsoo? With the babies? All the what-ifs started playing through my head before one possible scenario popped up.

Miscarriage.

And then I couldn’t think about anything else.

Suddenly the CEO’s story was all I could think about. I felt my heart sank to the bottom. After talking to them every night, Miracle and Hope had already crept their ways into my heart. No longer did I see them as just something developing in Kyungsoo’s tummy. They had felt as if they were a part of my life. Like they were always meant to be, like I’d known them all my life. I know this might sound crazy, given that I had never even met them before. But I had come to know and love them. Losing them was completely unimaginable before and now that the situation had presented that as a possibility, I couldn’t help but feel so scared and terrified. The cold interior of the hospital just made me go down into a downward spiral of worry and desperation. Losing either Kyungsoo or the twins would kill me.

No doubt about that. 

 

 

 

 

Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, the door slid open. I ran to our doctor and looked desperately at her for answers.

“Good news is that it was nothing serious; he just passed out. Bad news is he just went through quite a traumatic experience so he is under a lot of stress. And that might have put a lot of stress on the babies as well. But according to their vital signs, they seemed fine. I am putting him on bed rest for the next week and then I’ll stop by the dormitory to check up on him. You can take him home now and make sure he gets plenty of rest and nutrients.” I let out a huge sigh of relief and hurried to Kyungsoo’s side. His face looked tensed even in sleep and I couldn’t help but feel somewhat worried and guilty for not being able to protect him. The scratch across his face was a glaring reminder of what happened.

Kyungie ah…..

 

 

 

 

I failed you.

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Kyungsoo’s POV

My eyes fluttered open and I woke up from a dreamless sleep. Where was I? I scanned my surroundings and began to register the familiar environment. I was back of the dormitory. What happened?

I sat up. A little too quickly as my head whirled at the sudden movement. Jongin, who had just entered the bedroom, hurriedly kneeled down beside my bed.

“Kyungie! You’re finally awake! How are you feeling?”

The incident at HomePlus came flooding back and I remembered passing out. My hands flew down to my tummy and I asked worriedly, “The babies?”

“They’re fine. Why don’t you lean back?” He propped some pillows up to support my back, “The doctor prescribed bed rest for you for a week. You doing ok?”

“Yup, just a slight headache. You? You don’t look too good. Are you ok?”

Come to think about it, he looked rather haggard and tired. Dark circles lined his eyes and his face lacked the usual pink undertone that it had.  He just shrugged my question off and handed me a plate of food.

“Here, eat something.”

“No.”

“Come on Kyungsoo, don’t be stubborn.”

“No. Not until you tell me what’s on your mind.”

“It’s nothing, I promise. I’ll feel better once you have some food in you.”

“No.” I shoved the plate away from me.

“Kyungsoo ah…” he said tiredly.

“Tell me.”

“Eat first.”

Then a light bulb went off in my head.

“You feel guilty, don’t you?”

He paused for a moment before ignoring my statement, “Eat.”

I was right.

He felt responsible for what happened.

“It is not your fault, you know. If weren’t for you, I don’t know how I would have been able to handle the situation.”

He gave up trying to get me to eat and placed the food on the bedside table. His head hung low and he refused to make any eye contact with me.

“No. You are wrong. I couldn’t protect you. I shouldn’t even have forced you to go there with me. None of this would have happened if not for my own selfishness.”

“Hey, look at me.” I lifted his face up. “Look at me. I am fine. The babies are fine.”

“You got hurt.” The immerse guilt in his eyes just broke my heart and I saw that he was truly tormented about the situation.

Seriously misguided as well.

“It is just a scratch. What happened was completely out of your control. You did the best you could in that situation. If not for you, I would have gotten hurt much worse. If not for you, I might have lost the babies, for all I know. So don’t be too harsh on yourself, Jongin ah. You did well. Very well. I was lucky to have been with you at that time. I am blessed to have you beside me. Very blessed, indeed. Miracle and Hope will be two very lucky kids to be able to call you their dad.”

Tears welled up in his eyes. He didn’t cry often so I knew that this incident gave him quite a scare. I pulled him on the bed and hugged him tightly as he cried silently on my shoulder. He cried so hard that his body was shuddering uncontrollably. I rubbed my hands up and down his back, comforting him as he cried.

“I was so scared. I thought I lost you back there.”

“Shhh, it’s okay. I’m okay….” I ran my fingers through his hair.

“Sorry…..”

“Stop apologizing, Jongin ah. You did nothing wrong.”

 

 

We remained like that on the bed for half an hour before Jongin fell asleep, exhausted, in my arms. His face was now a picture of calm and peace.

A vast difference from just now, thank goodness.

This sweet boy. He had to stop blaming himself for everything bad that happens. After all he had done for me, it should be me who was saying sorry and yet off he went to feel all guilty and sorry.. I couldn’t even describe how grateful I was to have him by my side. All the times he ran out of the house in the middle of the night just to satisfy a craving. All those times I would find vegetables and what-nots he had hidden in my food thinking that I wouldn’t know. All those times he insisted on taking me to the pool to exercise. All those times he would stay up night to research on the pregnancy or talk to Yongguk hyung. All those times he whispered to my belly and drew circles on my bare stomach. All those times he would plant a kiss on my stomach and shout to the world, “Daddy loves you two, Miracle and Hope!” All those times he whispered ‘I love you’ in my ear and kiss my forehead when he thought I was asleep.

 

 

I am blessed.

Very blessed indeed.

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A/N: Um guise……

I can’t really update as much as I did before because my exams are really near. I’ll try to update once a day, I promise (um.. to try)! One paper on Monday and another on Tuesday >< And then, I’m done! I’ll update more then, ok?

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@Fluttershy123: YUP! TWO BOYS! DOUBLE TROUBLE LOL and you ship baekyeol? (More than kaisoo?)

@Yanonini02: Jongin will protect Kyungsoo no matter what happens ^^ I’m quite sure that happens in real life too XD (The protecting part. Not the pregnancy part hahaha)

@onetruethree801: Yup, it was kind of sad having to write Kyungsoo in such a bad state but at least we got to see Kai being so protective right? HAHAHA

@booyaaaaa: Thank you very much! Not many people have said that I wrote well before I started writing on AFF. And your English is good for someone whose first language is not English :)

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@deejung0912: Aw you don’t have to be embarrass here! I promise! Anyways, I won’t say where I’m from because I’ve noticed that some of my subscribers live where I live so I want to protect my anonymity. But it’s only fair that I share something with you as well, so…um… I’m not that interesting LOL. Well I am 21 turning 22 this year and I have been into kpop since dbsk was five members. I’m old, I know (;-;)

@nadiahhusna: Yup well said! Bravo Jongin hahaha!

@annexing: Aw. Jongin is a sweet boy, I think so too :)

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yourdeer7 #1
Chapter 23: Well it's time to go to the sequel..
yourdeer7 #2
Chapter 19: Ah is Jongin has a little propose?
Nicole121314 #3
Chapter 23: And now they're family... can't wait for sequel hehe
Nicole121314 #4
Chapter 23: Wow. Amazing story. Finally the kids came.out safety same as Kyungsoo
Nicole121314 #5
Chapter 22: It's true that Chen definitely bored to death while watching pororo haha
Nicole121314 #6
Chapter 21: Uh oh... the babies soon coming..
Nicole121314 #7
Chapter 20: Aww so sweet of Jongin...his words are the best indeed
Nicole121314 #8
Chapter 19: IsnJongin gonna propose?? Hmmm
Nicole121314 #9
Chapter 18: How i miss the 12 kids being togethee..
Nicole121314 #10
Chapter 17: The kiddos called by kid daddh Jongin haha