Everything was perfect, A happy family, great friends, awesome boyfriend what can ruin this moment, me being the bubbly little girl I am was super happy about my life. EVERYTHING WAS GREAT UNTIL...

CRASH!!!

My parents, and my boyfriend died in a car crash, because of me.....

flash back

It's my birthday!!!! I asked my parents if we can go you lotte world, luckly they agreed and let jaejoong come and ride with us. Since luhan has his own car he drove by himself. We were almost there, we waited for the light to turn green when it did we started to turn right, suddenly a truck speeded by crushing and turning the car sideways and letting the oil spill. The truck driver stop the truck to see if we were okay since the truck driver was smoking, he drop the cigarette, letting the light of fire from the cigarette fell onto the oil causing it to burn. My parents were almost conscious so was jaejoong, the only only way out was through his open window, he started grabbing my arm and pushing me out the window "go out and save yourself" my mom said helping jaejoong push me out "NO MOM WHAT ABOUT YOU, DAD AND OPPA!!!" I screamed "babe don't worry about us, now save youself" jaejoong said trying to get me out "NO DONT LEAVE ME OPPA, UMMA AND APPA!!!" I shouted "we will never leave you we will always be with you in here" jaejoong pointed to my heart "now go" he pushed me out as the fire was almost near, I saw luhan coming out of his car, I ran to him wrapping my arms around him, next thing I knew it.....

BOOM!!!!

"oppa it's all my fault, it's my fault why this happened" brusting out in tears, staining his shirt "no it's not" he said trying to convince me. "IT IS" I shouted, soon the ambulance and the police came "it's not, it's that drivers fault", luhan said "no it's not, if I didn't ask you go to lotte world this wouldn't have happen, if we just stayed home, mom, dad and Jaejoong would still be here" I said dropping on my knees crying my heart out. After that day I started to act cold to everyone, besides my friends and my brother but to everyone else I never spoke to, teachers, classmates ect. My health was going down, I rarely ate the only goodthing that is about me was my grades and that was the only thing but the only subject i majored in was fashion,art and photography, the three subjects that my mom loves. I can't help but thing that it was all my fault, everywhere I go reminded me about them, the park, school, especially home. So I called my aunt who was living in america as a designer and asked her if I can live with her and work at her company, she agreed and I told luhan that I'm going to america tomorrow morning, at first he was sad but then realized why so he was okay with it. The next morning we left to the airport and said our goodbyes, I knew sooner or later he would tell our friends I left to america. I knew all of them would want to become a singer, I made sure to get luhan to tell them to fullfill their dream.

After a 3 I left I never once made contect them for one reason the cost to call them from here was too much and second I nevered knew when they are free, since they are big time stars, yes BIG time stars there groups names are EXO, Infinite, U-kiss and B.A.P. suprising right. Anyways I was so proud they full filled their dreams, so I must make them proud. I was a hard worker, and I stop being so cold, and started being all bubbly again. BUT one day changed me again