Your parent befriended with Siwon’s parents since years ago and always tried to make you and Siwon become a couple. You hate it because your friend always dissed Super Junior and that kind of idols. Years later, you’re just become the representative of your father company where you have to maintain your social life and your image, but when you accidentally meet Siwon again, you unintentionally got in love with two idols at once.

“Funny, that’s exactly what I thought. My mom became deadly annoying around that time.” He kept his stare at you.

“But you seem really nice to me every time we met, back then.”

“Because I know you don’t like it as much as I do, so I don’t want to make it harder on you.” He said that without realize that his words made you feel guilty.

Both of you sighed at the same time and laughed because of that.

 “They just had wrong approach. Now look at us, it just took me a few minutes of having a conversation with you for making me want to get to know you better.” He finally looked away from you, so you could relaxing your stiffed position when he’s looking at you. “The first time I told Jiwon that I feel sorry not being able to take you to the after-concert-dinner-party just after you left the backstage, she laughed so hard and told me that I ate my own words.”

“Jiwon Unnie was there? I was wandering alone at the backstage before I met you, I didn’t see her.”

“She’s there.” Siwon looked at you again silently, while you’re tried to remember whether you saw her or not. Siwon tucked your hair behind your ear, He’s about to said something when you turned your head to him, but he ended up just sit straight up and look to the other direction.

…

Kyuhyun smiling while props his head with his hand. He widens his eyes, seeing you excitingly talk about yourself.

“Why your eyes sparkling like that?” He asks.

You deeply exhale to hold yourself from smiling. “I just realize about something! And I’ve never been so sure in my live! Like this!” you look at the ceiling, smiling to yourself.

Kyu slightly chuckles, “Me too.” He whispers to himself. He intoxicated by your laugh, your story, your life, you. He feels so high right now, and it’s nothing to do with a few gulp of wine he just had.

Me too…

I’ve never been so sure about someone,

Until I’m sure I want you, from the moment I saw you at the concert in the middle of thousands people.

Outshined everybody else.

And when I thought that it just some random unfortunate meeting I should let go, you’re there at the backstage talking with Siwon hyung.

To adding the dilemma that you might be out of my reach because you’re gonna end up with Siwon, you’re here.

Talking about life and future like we never shared to anybody else before.

…

The silent fill the car, both of you avoided each other, so you just looking outside of the car window.

It’s not until Siwon parks his car, he let out a significant sigh. You feel that no matter what each other going to say, it’ll turn into an argument again. And if you have to doing it all over again you might be burst in tears in a split second.

So you cut him off before Siwon even have the chance to speak.

“You have an overseas schedule next week right?” you ask him while your hand play the playlist you made on his car’s music player. You made it for him months ago, but according what he said earlier, apparently Siwon hasn’t notice it yet. “So from tomorrow onward, you don’t have to pick me up, okay?” you exhale and look away from him, “I better to get used to be alone…  Bye.”

Quickly, you kiss him on the cheek and get out of the car without letting him answer it first.

Squint your eyes in order not to let your tears fall, you also bite your tremble lips. One last big sigh coming out of your mouth before you walk away from him and never turn back.

Still unable to fully comprehends why did you just left like that, Siwon attention got shifted by the song that played on his car, it’s his own song. He looks at you and at his music player, back and forth, just realize that you made him a playlist from songs on your choices.

And everything just hit him right there.

Everything.

From the lyric that fill the whole car, the realization that come too late, and your back facing him that slowly walking farther away.

When I see you with your backs turned to me

The time love clearly took, now I can see it too

Like a time of separation, I saw it coming

I didn’t know you’re such a part of me

Siwon holds his expression to prevent him from cry, but his vision of you blurred by his tears.

Love is leaving me

I didn’t know I had it to begin with