Additional to SS5 HK: Siwon most likely potential girlfriend

"What the is this???"

From the other side of the world, Jae just reads another harsh comment on his old Instagram photo. His photo with you, to be exact.

"What?"

"It doesn't even make sense when a couple of people leave a comment that they want me to post another picture of ____ on my Instagram photo that I took more than a year ago when we're still in relationship. So what the hell they want from me if they cursing me at the same photo just because I'm her ex??"

"Are they ____'s new friend? Why all of sudden your photo received their attention?"

Jae throws his body on the couch. "I don't know.. Maybe she's still mad at me, or the most possible reason was because Hyerin spread something about me over her followers. I don't know, I'll ask her later. I heard she already got back here from Seoul."

"Hei.. How are you? I heard you coming back to town. How's your Korean trip?"

"I'm not interesting in taking someone else's boyfriend. In fact, I already have my own boyfriend right now, so you better stay away." Says Hyerin without even looking at the person she's speaking to, at the bar.

Jae sighs. "Can I'm being friendly?" Hyerin ignoring him. "Can we just talk?"

"Five minutes." Answers Hyerin coolly, still not looking at Jae.

"What you've done to ___?"

Hyerin looks up from her Baileys and just freezes right there.  How could he knows?

"Why did you post her picture with the Korean idol at your blog? As if he needs more attention from your follower."

"What are you talking about?" Hyerin furiously looks at Jae.

"You, ____, and a random korean celebrity's photo on your blog. Your followers flooded my Instagram just to leave some hate comments on my old photo with ____."

"And how could it be my fault that they sent you hate comments?" Hyerin looks away from Jae again.

"Apparently they knew she's my ex from your blog too."

"So?" Asks Hyerin nonchalantly.

Jae sighs for the hundred times since he start talking to Hyerin. "Never mind.. I guess it's useless to talk about it." He stands up without ordered anything. "Have fun with your date."

Hyerin holds herself from looking at Jae, act like she doesn't care, when he's leaving. But she still takes a deep breath after a few second.

She's looking at the exit door, eventually. But not even his shadows left.

It's been a week since the HK concert, and it's been a week since you always spent time in the office night and day and just get two hours of sleep everyday.

Both of you and your employee already spiritless to come to the office on the next day.

"Did I mess these things up? Why none of this week' jobs done?" You ask your assistant, in the near dawn discussion.

"No.. It's because it's overload. The world financial crisis cause the delays for some of the projects. That's why we work twice harder than usual." Answer you assistant. He near his thirties, and really capable for his profession. And because he's been with you since the first time you intern in this company, both of you get along so well.

You sigh and rest your head on the table while he's still looking at some papers for reference. "I just worried about the team. They're exhausted."

"It'll be done in Friday, just give them one day compensation annual leave." He's looking at you through the papers. "You should take one too. Go and meet your idol boyfriend. All of the girls from the team wondering why he never showed up lately.." He teases you while smiling.

"I'm not like you. I don't date in the office.." You back.

"Hul, look who's talking. Bragging her boyfriend to the whole company to see.." He laughs, "Yaa.. As expected, no one can't beat your scale, can they?"

You just smile and burry your head on the table. I miss him.. Haa.. How could I maintain my love life if everyday I went home even after all the security went home and get back to the office before the sun is perfectly rises.

The sun just merely showed up in this monday morning when Siwon prepared to jog. He's in the middle of tying his shoe lace when his phone is ringing. It's from you!

Oh? Siwon got flustered and just keeps on hold his ringing phone. She even need hours just to reply my message this whole week and now she's calling me this morning?

He takes a deep breath and answer the phone coolly "Oh?"

"Oppa, did you had your breakfast yet? What are you doing now?" You overexcitedly ask him.

"Why?" Asks Siwon's back without a answering the question.

"Nothing.. I just wondering if you have finished your exercise and we could have breakfast.. I could prepare it for you if you want, should I go to your house now?"

What is she playing now?

Siwon sighs in respond. "Stay still.. I'll go there."

"Okay.." You stand up as soon as he hung up the phone. Frowning, because the tone he used to you. What is it with him? But you set up a meal for both of you anyway.

"You don't have to do this.." Says Siwon while playing with his chopstick.

"I have time.. It's okay." You stare at him without touching your own food. You don't get it, why you never get enough of him although you've been staring at this face for a few months now.

"I might get addicted, and ask you to do it for me every day."

Perplexed, you widen your eyes looking at Siwon's. He just slowly eats without even look away from his food while saying that.

"Then.. It's okay.." You couldn't hide your smile and keep on look at him.

"This week, what are you doing? You didn't contacted me even once."

"I was really busy.. I'm sorry. I'll make sure I'll contact you more often."

Siwon looks up from his food and stares right to your eyes. "Don't do it for the sake of our mothers."

What? "I don't.."

"It's okay.." Siwon backs to his food. "You need to mingle around with other people more.. It's good for your position at the company. I didn't hear you ever hanging out again after the accident."

"I.." I want to hanging out with you guys.. "From who did you hear that?"

"It just.. Everyone.." Siwon shrugs his shoulders. "I'll drive you to office after we finish, okay?"

You look at your watch, it's near 9am now, if you don't go the office now, you'll be late. But when you look up, Siwon already staring at you , "Eat it deliciously.."

You smile at him and start eating. "Okay.." It's  not like you could be like this everyday with him.

And you're late..

You're just 5 minutes late, there's even another three person that came after you into the meeting room. The meeting was also going pretty well, so you don't really worry about it.

"You're still here?" One of the executive director suddenly came to your room without notice or even knock on your door, just hours after the meeting.

"Yes.." Get surprised by it, you still greet him and give him a bow, since he's as old as your father.

"I thought you wouldn't be here at this hour."

"I'm sorry?"

"I don't think you should be here now if you don't care about your job like you didn't care about the meetings we just had." He walks away toward the door. "There's no significant result from your department... Late for meetings... Wear improper clothes... I pity your father to only have you as his heir so he couldn't do anything about you." Stabbed right in the heart by his words, you can't say anything to him. "But.. Well done with picking up a helpful boyfriend. Your relationship contract must worth a fortune to have been able to use each other up like that. I wonder why you haven't share this to the media.." He close your door without even looking back at you and just leave you like that.

You fall down on the floor as the door closed. Your throat feels hurt as you hold your tears from flowing down from your eyes.

How could he..

Trembling, you reach out for your phone while still sitting on the floor. You tried to call your dad but both of his phone and his assistant's phone were off. So you call your mom instead.

"Yes honey?" She answer.

Her voice alone makes you wanted to cry even harder, but you try to cool it down and take a deep breath.

"Mom.. Is dad home? I can't reach him.."

"He just fly to New York an hour ago for shareholder meeting.."

"What??"

"Dot worry dear, the crisis happen every time, that's just a chance that we can buy a whole lot new stocks. He's going to be alright.. Don't try to help him, just do your work well okay honey.. By doing so, you already help him a lot."

It's not world crisis that fill your worry right now, but with your mother rambling without giving you a chance to speak like that..

It's not like you can speak either, now that your tears already in the end of your throat.

"Oh.." You try to manage your voice not to crack, "I have to go omma.." And you just closed the call without a good bye.

You slowly fall down and inhale deeply in order not to cry.

With awful mood plus rainy day, you drive away from your office at night with nowhere to go. You don't want to make your Mom worry and you don't want Siwon to look at your condition like this, home alone is also not a choice either. So you decide to find a warm beverages to soothe your body and clear your mind.

Without really pay attention to the road, you amazingly had drive yourself until in front of Kona Bean. After get out from your car and tighten your coat, you hesitate for a while.

There's so many people inside.

It's not the kind of ambience you wanted to spend time in, but you really wanted to go here since the first time you heard that Kyuhyun, Leeteuk and Sungmin's moms own it. So you gather up wills and running through the rain into the coffee shop.

The cafe is warm and everything, with the wooden furnished all over the interior, it really a nice place to spend rainy day with.

But there's a familiar face that walk around behind the serving table that made your heart warmer.

A member's mom that have met you back stage, after SS5 Seoul concert.

You place your order as you keep looking at her, wait for her to looking back at you.

"Hello.. Omoni." You bow to her as soon as she looks at you.

"Oh.. Yes." She smiles at you for a quint second and turns back to what she's doing before. She might think that you are just another fans who knew her as Kyuhyun's mom.

Feels a little bit silly that expect her to remember about you, you almost laugh to yourself and prepare to walk away after your order had been made.

"Watch out not to catch a cold." She suddenly warns you warmly when you about to leave the counter. And stealthily already put a bread into your tray.

"Ommoni.. I didn't order for that..l.."

"It's okay.. Eat it well.. You look unwell, don't catch a cold."

"Yes.. Thank you.." You slowly bow to her and keep on looking at her until she nods and tells you to get a table.

Not a long after that, she get out from the backdoor and not come in again.

But just a few minutes you spent at this caffe already made you slightly better. Although you don't know which one that made you forget about the bad day you just had, whether it because Kyuhyun's mom kindness, or because Kyuhyun did resembles his mom a lot, or because his pictures are staring back at you with all of his cuteness from all across the wall's photo.

You're just looking at his others photo with dumb expression when suddenly someone coming your way and bow before you.

"Hello.. Shin representative.." All the three women in formal working suit stand in front of your table and bow. You barely remember who are they but they must be one of your employee. "We've been introduced before.. I'm Park Do Yeon, from administration division. Your assistant is my.."

I remember, why does she have mention about that again. It's violating against the company's rule. She shouldn't talk to me this casual about that.

"Oh.. Nice to meet you here." You awkwardly looking at your green tea cup. They should just left after the greeting.

"So you close with the other super junior member too? We just know that this café is owed by them when we're accidentally come in when it's rain." Says the assistant's girlfriend.

"No.. I just.. Stranded because of the rain too."

"So.. We better get going." Says the other employee. Like she could read your expression, she quickly bows and ready to leave you.

"Eh.. You.. Excuse me.." You forgot the name of your assistant's girlfriend. Thank god she's looking back at you while the other keep on walking away. "Correct me if I'm wrong, but I guess there's a certain rule about dating between the employee on the employee handbook. I don't think it wise to spread the information to everybody about your state with my assistant like that."

She looks quite lost about what are you saying so you keep explain to her, "I'm saying this because he's someone who treat me very well since the first time I set my foot in the company and I don't want both of you receive some penalty over it. So.."

She keeps on nodding her head like she understand but looking at her strange expression, you mentally sigh for wasting your time to explain your motives.

"Yes.. Thank you for your attention." And she walk away from you, smiling.

You deeply sigh. Why did they come when you're looking at Kyuhyun like a fool. Why even in this far place from office you still bother with office issue. You left your green tea untouched and left the caffe right away. Sent one last glance while walking out of the shop.

"Ya!! How could you didn't call me when you're there???" Yells Kyuhyun when you told him that you've just been to his Kona Beans.

"And what? You would just come there? No thanks, I don't want my relaxing night became crowded by your fans."

"At least we can met. You haven't reply any of my call in ages. Do you have time tomorrow?"

"What for?"

"Lunch between your office time or early dinner maybe.. You said you want to watch me filming a show.."

Lunch until dinner outside of the office seems appealing. More over, with the high officer that always try to find your mistake, get away from him for a glimpse wouldn't hurt anybody..

"Sure.. I'd love to watch you guys."

"Ah! Yongja noona, you scared me!" Kyuhyun looks back at a woman that stands behind him and lets go of your hand immediately.

You just arrived in front of a restaurant where he said he'll filming something.

"Aah.. So this is why Kyuhyun tiptoe-ing walk out of the set? Your girlfriend is visiting?"

"No.. No.. No.." Kyuhyun frantically explains while getting flushed. You help him by shaking you read with all your might.

"Okay okay... Carry on.." Lee Yongja slightly nods at you and pats Kyuhyun shoulder and leaves both of you.

Kyuhyun turns to you right away after she went.

"Ya!! Why do you come now? I thought you'll be busy to come around lunch? I haven't finished the filming yet."

"You said you wanted to show me when you're filming."

"Yeah, but I can't accompanying you until I have a break."

"It's okay. I can just quietly sitting in the corner and watch you." You look what's behind him. The production staffs block the whole restaurant entrance. "Where's the other? I want to see." You grab his hand again and swing it, "You said I can watch you filming. I want to see you filming something, can't I?"

Kyu grins, "Of course you can.." He grabs your hand properly and walks in. Greeting all the staff along the way.

"But oppa.." Lee Yongja is seen in the filming set with other female celebrities, KBS cameras are all around, no other super junior members is seen. Wait a minute.. This is mamammia's filming. "Oppa.."

Kyu turns back at you while smiling so bright at you. Unknowingly cut you off when you're about to complain.

"I'm so glad you can make it here."

Seeing his smile like that, you swallow your words.

"We got like one hour take before lunch break, would you wait at that table?" He walks you to a table in the corner. "Wait for a while, I'll be right back."

"Ehm.." You smile and caress his hand, assure him that you'll be waiting. I've seen this show before anyway.. I can see Kyuhyun oppa filming too.. Not a biggie.

"You can play with my iPad if you getting bored looking at the filming.."

"I'm fine.." You laugh. He could acts like an ajjushi sometime. "Just go filming some more, impressed me."

He laughs and finally leaves you.

From afar you could see that Kyuhyun's being swarmed by his staff that retouch his make up right away before the filming began. You laughing by yourself.

Boss Cho.

Andddd... you finally know why Kyuhyun really worry about you being bored.

Because it's boring.

You really excited for the first 15 minutes when you found everything they say are funny. But then after 45 minutes, you started to prop your head with your hand.

That's why they got hours of filming just for 45 minutes worth of show.

But thank god they change location a few times after lunch break, so Kyuhyun have more preparation time that he use to talk to you in between his coordi make up attack. You also become more natural when blend in with Kyuhyun personal staffs. Like bring his lunch box, fix his creased sweater, or simply make friend with his coordi noona and his manager.

Until they arrive on the last location in somewhat like ice skate ring. Kyuhyun took his time to sit and talk to you.

"Why don't you get back to your office?" Kyuhyun asks.

"I'm done for the day.."

"But you're wasting your time watching me filming this for a whole day.."

"No.. No.. I learned a lot about blind date. Haha."

"Don't tell me you like that guy too.. The pianist.." Kyuhyun talks about the show's guest.

"Who wouldn't like him?" Murmurs his coordi while reform his hair.

"Look!" You sided with his coordi. "He's so gentle.."

"And nice and manly.." Add his coordis.

"Dweso, I got it, I got it. Let's just hope Eunyoung noona could make it, so he wouldn't be available." Kyuhyun grab your arm to make you sit in front of him again. "Oh my. Your hand is so cold. It's freezing inside, where's your coat?" Ask Kyuhyun who already wear a coat.

He's rushing to open up his own coat and warm you up on his coat.

"Ouuuuuuwwwwww....." Suddenly Solbi and Younghee, two of mamamia guest panelists, who stand up about 10m away from Kyu react to his action towards you.

"I told you, Kyuhyun is non-celebrity killer, he's famous around non-celebrity too."

"I knew she's Kyuhyunie's girlfriend. He nothing like a staff!"

They whisper loudly while still looking at Kyu.

Kyuhyun laughs, "Mwoeyo?" He yells and looks back at them. "I can almost hear it from here."

"Nothing... Nothing... Just continue and prepare to shoot another segment for both of you after this segment." Yells Solbi jokingly.

"What? What? What?" Lee Youngja joins them.

"I think we're going to filming until late night. There's another additional segment with Kyuhyun and his girl." Answer Solbi jokingly.

"I really didn't know that she's Kyuhyun's girlfriend until he gave his jacket to her." Whisper Younghee, "He always polite to elderly, doing this kind of stuff, but when he did that to someone younger than him looks cute."

"I don't know Kyuhyunie already got a girlfriend before." Asks Solbi.

Younghee who sometime become a guest DJ on Sukira laughs by herself, "The last time I know he didn't date anyone, Ryeowook said they lack of woman scent when they spent their sparetime because most of them is single right now."

"They can invite me along to bring up woman scent when the whole group meet up." Adds Youngja who bring laughter to the other two as they continue to talk.

Kyuhyun slowly turns to you while still smiling. "It's only closing segment left, so after this we can go out.. Ah too bad the ice ring already closed, we couldn't skating after this."

You didn't looking at him because you just take another coat from the mamamia's staff for Kyuhyun.

"We can do it next winter, I'll search some deserted ice ring like in alpensia ski resort or konjinam resort." And put that coat on him so the coordi could do anything else, like getting his hair retouched.

"Do we have to go that far? We had some ice ring in Seoul."

"But they're all full of people... You wouldn't enjoy it. They'll recognize you."

"So you prefer the far one in gangwon so there's less people will recognize me?" You nod without looking at Kyu who grins like mad. "Okay.. Call!" Aah this girl.. I even willing go the French Alps just to be with you.

Kyuhyun looking at your fingers delicately zip up his coat. Kyu couldn't help but smiling. Again.

And he desperately straight up his mind as he do the closing segment. Now that it's the last take, you who usually sit in a far corner, now stand up somewhere behind the camera. And Kyu could easily sees you when he's looking at the camera. And it's stupidly makes him flustered without any specific reason.

He's still in a daze after looking away from you, when his Youngja noona suddenly open up his coat to cover Eunyoung, another guest, who just came down the stair with thin clothes on her.

"Me?" Kyuhyun asks to Youngja noona. Should it be me who take off the coat?

"Of course, you're the only man here." Answer Youngja.

Unwillingly, he opens up his coat and give it to Youngja noona. A silly side of him didn't want to give this coat because you gave it to him.

Because you're focusing on him while he lead the show, you could notice that he's unconsciously rubbing his hand out of the cold after his coat being taken away. So you quietly run toward the staff who bring the spare coat, take one of it, and gave it to Kyuhyun coordi to put it on him.

Seeing that, Kyuhyun absentmindedly follow you with his eyes when the Lee Youngja also notice it and intended to take the coat away. But he shakes his head and continues his talk to the guest.

"You have to take care a man like this.." Lee Youngja suddenly put the coat into him while joking around and secretly pinch his arm.

Teases him, indirectly mentions about you in front of the camera because she knows Kyu couldn't talk back to her anything regarding you.

So he just follows the jokes around and keeps his sight away from you until the very end of the filming.

"You're not even the one that being set in the blind date, but you got more flustered than any other guest here.." Jokes Kyuhyun's coordi who take off his mic. She whispers and secretly turns her back on you so you wouldn't know that she picks on Kyuhyun about you.

"I know, right.. It's specially hard today." Kyu whispers back to her avoiding your stare. He keeps on looking at the floor, grinning, before he inhales deeply and looking at you. "Let's go eat.."

"Kyuhyun~ah.. It's rude not to introduce us to her.." Says Younghee who's suddenly already standing beside you.

You automatically bow to her even before Kyu said anything. "I'm ____, nice to meet you. I've watch the shows well, it's entertaining"

"Oh, that's good. We're eating out after this.. You should come along.. I'll introduce you to the others."

Without Kyuhyun approval she took you to walk, and now half hour later, you already eat at the same table as most of the fix panel of the show, their mom, and some of the PDs, FDs, writers and most of the staff.

"I'll take you out as soon as you finish your meal." Whispers Kyuhyun who sat beside you. He's being his grumpy self, who is being force to eat out with his coworker while all he wanted is to be with you, only. With you, ONLY.

"Okay.." You answer him but get cut by Go PD nim, who sits across you,

"We should have get a longer episode today if only Kyuhyun agree to be the other blind date participant.. We already found the date, right Kyuhyun~ah?" Ask Go PD nim.

Kyuhyun desperately fakes a laugh and looks down at his meal. "She's my dongsaeng.."

"The fact that she's willing to be friend with you means that she's not yet meet any of your member, right?" Asks Solbi to you.

"I.."

"She did!!" Kyuhyun, his head is going to explode anytime soon. Although he's smilling, you could feel that he's not really comfortable being teased at, like that.

"Yeah, I met them." You laugh and secretly pat Kyuhyun's hand beneath the table.

"Aah.. And you're befriended with Kyuhyun so you could get closer to Siwon right?" Teases Youngja.

You gulp, caught red handed without even realize that she's just joking about that.

"아니거든! Siwon was the one who introduced us." Kyuhyun answer right away.

"Aah! That's right!" You just remember that now.

"That's how you're know each other?" Asks the writer who sits beside Youngja.

"Yes.. Siwon oppa brought Kyuhyun oppa when we eat together.."

"No, the concert. I knew you at the concert.."

Automatically, you look up at Kyuhyun who interrupts you, without even taking his eyes on the food. "Aah.." Suddenly you feel bad not remember that, and because you don't want Youngja again, you continue to talk about Kyuhyun, "That's right, we already knew each other at the restaurant. Kyuhyun oppa was really nice to me ever since, although something he could be really childish, but he takes a great care to all people around him.." You look at him right at the moment he looks at you. And without any warning first both of you start to laugh without even knowing what make you laugh.

"Since you knew the other member as well, so who's you favorite..." Younghee tries to tease Kyuhyun again.

It's like unwritten rule that Kyuhyun as the maknae is today's mocking target.

"Ah.. Cham." Kyuhyun gets annoyed and rolls his eyes like the answer is definitely going to be him.

"Mmmm... Eunhyuk oppa.." You laugh, enjoying as well.

...

"Eunhyuk oppa mwoya???" Ask Kyuhyun as soon as he started your car engine, he'll drive you home with your car.

"Hahaha.. That's why they like to pick on you!" You reposition yourself to sit toward him. "You're so adorable when get annoyed."

"I'm not.." He pouts, "Don't get overjoyed because you're happy seeing that pianist at the dinner.. Man are all like that at the blind date."

You're smirking and keep on staring at him when he's busy driving and pouting.

"You should act exactly like this when you're in your blind date broadcast." You laughing at him. "Don't friend-zoned her as soon as you get to know her."

"I never had blind date on broadcast.."

"Heol.. I saw all of them though." You look away from him, "The blind date in your Hyung's we got married, your Chinese we got married.. I witnessed them all."

"You saw that show?"

"Every single expression you did? Yes. I saw the shows." And you turn to him again, "I don't know whether you didn't want to be cheesy to your partners or you didn't really attracted to them, but could you at least pretend that you're interested at her as a woman."

Kyuhyun turns to you when he stop at the red light, and his expression changes, "Do you prefer I pretend to like her and make the show a little more interesting but made her being bashed by my fans and we became just a colleague because she felt uncomfortable with me OR we did like how we actually feel and make it a little boring because people cannot ship us any further, but we really enjoy the time when we filming and my fans recognize her as my friend and became interested in her other activities and maybe sometime they became her fans too, and both of us have a nice bonding time after the filming and sometime keep contact for a friendship sake. Which one do you prefer?" He finishes it as the light turns green and he starts driving away.

Well... Honestly you never really thought that far about this subject. What you blindly observed through the shows you've watch, was that Kyuhyun never really put his heart when he filmed this kind of show, like in Leeteuk & Sora's We Got Married, all of his Hyung obviously got nervous and put all of their real heart as they got to know their date, mostly like Donghae and Sungmin. But Kyuhyun from the very start made it obvious that he didn't interested in any of the girls and pick his date because he felt like he'll get comfortable with. You thought he just lazy, ignorant, and not really considerate to the others.

You never expect that he had reason and already analyzed the side effect of his action.

"I don't know that you did think through it all..." You say timidly.

"Well I did.." Beyond your expectation Kyuhyun talks back to you in his usual relax tone. "As long as I think I can do the best for everyone, I will bear that in mind. You should too..." He smiles and rumbles your hair.

After that both of you keeps on talking about that topic until you reach your apartment complex. Kyu tells you that he'll fetch a cab to go back to his dorm from your apartment, so he parks your car in your basement.

But because both of you still caught in hot talk, none of you really get prepared to left the car although it already perfectly parked.

The time is never enough when both of you start to talk.

"Did you wear this clothes this morning?" He points at your hotpants, blouse and a marching blazer.

"Yes.."

"The pants too?"

"You can tell it's a pants? Doesn't it look like a short skirt?"

"No. Are you allowed to wear this to the office? It's a short pants, and it's too short." He caught your guilty eyes.

"Well... Ehm... But it looks good, doesn't it?"

You still hold grudge to one of the board director that said you wore improper clothes to the office, I'll show you what improper clothes are.

"Everything look good on you." You stupidly blushed. "But... I know you want to be recognized for your hard work. But I think it's better to work on your hardest, until the hard work will shine itself, you don't have to put an effort to make people recognizing you."

You nod at his word, but until hours later and you already alone at your room, you still don't really understand what he meant by that.

One more thing that made you more admire Kyuhyun, is his dedication that he made to everything he did.

So does Siwon.

He's getting busier than the last few weeks for practice or recording at his company or have a meeting with other people so you've got less and lesser chance to meet up with him.

One time, Jiwon called you and ask you to join her to work out with her brother. You went there eventually, with 'accompanied Jiwon Eonni' as your reason, and ended up having Siwon as your personal trainer in almost three hours work out session.

That made you couldn't really walk straight up in the next day to the office because all of your body get stiff as hell.

Another time, the only time he ever got the chance to contacted you was when you planned to work overtime that day.

"I'm around your neighbor, are you home yet?"

"Eh?" You're in the middle of reposition your seat to work more comfortably. But when Siwon said:
"I'll be going to Beijing by tomorrow, can we meet up tonight?"

You suddenly get up. "I'm on my way."

"Do you want to have dinner together?"

"Sure." You answered almost too quickly, then immediately kick your comfy sandals and slip into your stiletto. "I'll be there in a minute, do you want me to buy something in my way? What do you want to eat?"

"I already brought us something to eat, don't worry just get here safe. I'll wait at the parking lot."

You couldn't help but smiling while gathered all of your belonging into a big tote bag. And half run half yell to your assistant, "I'm not working overtime today!! I promise I'll finished it at home."

A promise you didn't keep, because you stayed up too late and got up late so you abandoned your works and worked it on the next day instead.

Or worse..

Another time with Kyuhyun too, Siwon take you to drink with some of his friend, and although you only drink for the sake of politeness, you still couldn't walk straight in the morning after so Siwon had to take you to your office by taxi from the place both of you stayed.

"Can I tell you something?" Ask your assistant after he done presenting his work to you in your office room.

Your head still dizzy as hell, your stomach feels like it could blown up in any second, but you try your hardest to finish the new proposal by the end of this day. So you don't want to waste time for this conversation.

"Ehm.." Your eyes are not leaving the computer's monitor and your fingers keep on dancing on the keyboard as fast as they could.

"Mr. Ahn ask me something about you."

"About what?"

"Your relationship with Siwon.."

You stop typing and look at him, "That's none of their business."

"That's what I said." Your assistant look nervous with your laser eyes. "But he said something about company's image and stuff."

"So I couldn't go out with anybody??" You involuntary raise your voice.

"I just delivered what he said to me. No need to get angry." Your assistant keep his tone low but his face got red by his anger. "I know it's your personal life. And we got nothing to do with it. But it became a hot topic for almost every employee for the past few weeks."

"What did I do wrong? Didn't you told me to get my love life going well?"

"I did, but you don't have to put it on a show like that."

You got furious by his choice of words. "What show???"

"Bring him to the office, get home so early, come late to work, dating like you're still in high school. I'm saying this because I want you to aware of what others might say behind you. We've been working together since the very start. I treat you as my own dongsaeng, so I want you to at least preserve your image when they're hired you for this position. Live their expectation. And I'll be your oppa who's going to support you."

He's your sunbae in work and you take him like your older sibling, but your position is higher than him and you you hate how he lecturing you about dating. So this words just come out even before you've got the chance to think,

"So act like one, and at least give me the right example not to dating the other employee in the office." Quickly, you get up and leave your office room before you could say anything hurtful.

You march out of your department office into the elevator without knowing where you should heading to. Angry and confuse, you're walking too fast and ended up stop in the lobby where everyone bow to you every time they saw you. Getting sick of that, you turn left into a terrace coffee shop inside your office building. For a second you think drink here alone at least could soothe your mind before go back to your room scold all of your employee. But although non of your department's employee is in the coffee shop, some of the other employees inside the coffee shop bow to you as you walk closer to them.

Is there any way they could leave me alone???? Just pretend it's not me and don't bow to me!!

You slightly bow back and turn your direction into the nearest most isolated toilet.

There's five empty cubicle inside the girls toilet, there's not even a janitor. So you walk inside the farthest cubicle and just sit with your eyes closed.

That surprisingly relieving, and you realize how hard your day is if you could feel totally in peace just by closing your eyes.

Although it doesn't even last even for a minute. There's a group of girls barging into the toilet and come into separate cubicle silently.

They seem to take their time because it took long before they make any noise. But after they've flushed their toilet, you started to smell cigaret smoke. And it's banned to smoke inside this building outside of the smoking room.

You're just about to step down and scold them one by one and report them to the human resource when one of them starts to talk and walk outside of her cubicle.

"Ya! We're so dead.. Relaxing in the middle of working hour like this." Says one of them.

"We have the right to take a break. It's not like we're never working overtime." Answer the others.

They keep on talking, from the voice you can tell it's from three different girl. You cover your nose and in the middle of a battle with yourself whether you have to come out or not, when you hear your name mentioned in their conversation.

"... it also not break time for her, what she's doing in the coffees shop anyway? Heol.."

"Oh pleasee.. I just found out that she's waaayyy younger than me, and you said she had years of works experience overseas. She might count 'dating someone from some company' as working experience in that company."

"Then she already had work experience in SM entertainment too. Haha.."

Alright, this door is going to leave a mark on your pretty cheeks !!!

But then..

"How about your boyfriend. I mean, it must be for him to work as her assistant. I heard the employees from marketing department really hate her because they always work overtime."

You froze. There's a glimpse of scene flashing in your memories, when all of your department employees laughing together while eat together.

"That's what I hate the most. He worships her! Like if he wants, he can be chief executive in another department! But he keeps on saying that if it's not because of her, he wouldn't be in that such high position. 'High' my , we couldn't even buy a small apartment for us! Yet he always said that the most important is the experience he gets from working in that ty department and under her direction."

Your assistant's girlfriend? She's the one that greet you politely from the other day?

It's literally feel like you lose your grip and you could just fall, so you silently lean to the wall behind you.

"Thank god she's not our CEO."

"Well the stakeholder aren't blind, they could see she's just the chairman's daughter. She's not that bright, her parent's money bought her good education, she's not that pretty, her parent's money bought her well groomed body and face. She'll be nothing without all of her parent's money."

"Their money eventually get her closer with his boyfriend too.. Hahaha can you believe she's dating Siwon??"

"He's just an idol, don't make it look like a big achievement."

"But he's handsome and rich."

"But he dances on a crappy stage and pretends to sing."

"And he's from Suju for god sake. Guys we're more lucky than her."

Their voice become blurred as your heart ache too much.

Could you please at least check if there's no one here before you talk about it??!!!!

Now you know what it feels like to scream from the top of your lungs and no one could hear.

And with bitting your tremble lip, you could feel a stream of hot tears fall down into your cheek.

You just hate yourself.

Oh? Why ____ calls me in this hour? Doesn't she should be at work?

Siwon look at his free phone call from his chatting application.

"Oh.. What's up?"

There's a few second pause before you answer.

"I can't reach you at your phone number. What are you doing, oppa?"

"Ehm.. I'm in the middle of filming break." Siwon put down his lunch box. Smiling. "Have you eat yet?"

"Not yet." There's another pause, Siwon got curious but he just thought it was the international phone call connection. "Let's grab dinner together."

"You're in Beijing too????"

"You're in Beijing??"

Siwon almost scold you out about how could you be in Beijing without telling him first, but now he's ready to be scolded because he forgot to tell you that he fly to Beijing two days ago. Part of him taking for granted that you should already knew his schedule.

But all you've got to say is, "Oh okay.. Then.. Work well.." Weakly.

"____ ah..." Siwon responds just when you're hang up the phone. "Ah wae?.." Siwon put down his phone, frustated.

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12 April 2014